Focus-27.10.22

second last call text

choose weed mom feral pussy

I am  here focus

 Focus-27.10.22

second last call text

choose weed mom feral pussy

Be here focus

 Fire-25.10.22

How are you alive

You’re barely on fire

i  light you aflame

 5 hot minutes-22.10.22

close my eyes words flow 

over the lids

dreams

are the only place 

We exist in the same place 

conservatory gardens @105th in Central Park –

 cigarette with St Jill on our way to the man in central Harlem

In dreams you join me there last week, next year 

double helix the pattern 

Of 

 star nebula 

Of

Ying and yang

Of

Sex

Of

us

Wrapping my troubles in dreams

Like us

5 hot minutes

For a 5 hot minutes: a long time. if you ai’nt seen someone in a while or if you ain’t been someplace in a while or done something in a while 2) very short amount of time, or a very long amount of time.

Swings & Roundabouts -18.10.22

Pink spider. lays

perfect abandon

sweating out chemicals and perfume (sweet musky scent)

sharing smoke

why did it mean

So much to

mean so little

too 

HER

Shaking it off

Like a hangover

See HER again

Maybe last year

maybe tomorrow (tomorrow came yesterday)

maybe never

didn’t know

HER

HER

Swings & Roundabouts: losses and wins are the same

Swings & Roundabouts 

 

 Euphoria -09.10,22

faster than a cannon ball

Floating apart from time

Connexions

Splicing together Pharrell realities

Floating whilst

Basking in kaleidoscopic sensuality far away from

It’s the anniversary of the shaman’s entry into this plane(his origin cloaked in mystery  cloaked in surreal

The sacrament reaches the centre of my brain(soul?)

Running on me rush

Things ain’t the same

Flying high

Above the earth closer to heaven

Pink spider screams legs wrapping around me

kurva ma tvrdo! u a škaredé

washing over me

Euphoria: a feeling or state of intense excitement and happiness.

euphoria

 call (voice trembling)-28.06.22

Pain, loss echoing

her face 

could launch a 1,000 Ships (took me heart & virginity)

Her tears 

(Falling salty stinging fresh wounds).

Will launch

An ambulance(again)

 Price of beauty14.09.17-later

torn fishnets

cocktail dress, stilettos

make up flawless

laser gaze

Vicodin in her blood 

cocaine in her nose

BEAUTY

costs

BEAUTY

hurts

recognise

in those eyes 

pain

sorrow

that smile

holding 

back

madness

sorrow

scars that revival mine

an assemblage curated over decades

deeper 

colour

of blue

here I go

tangled up in her

fishnets

tangled up

in

her

fishnets

in

her

blues

in her

PAIN + SORROW

the price of beauty

 

 Sssh-03.10.22

No words

Touch, taste smell

All I need

Night skies

You show

A crab (a sensual obsession)

Gods

Goddesses

Goats

Dogs

Man in a boat

Like us made of stars

The way waves kiss the beach

We will swim

rien dire: say nothing

rien dire

Free dream-1.10.22

Waking 

Not alone or lonely 

Freedom: just another word for nothing left to lose

freedom

When you 

Showed yourself 

Freed me 

I went dark

Cause the dark is where dreams are born

I know the way 

I’ll let meself out

free

to

Dream:  thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep 2) One's ideal vision

 dream