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Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

03 April 2026

 You’ve got this, my brother. 03.04.26

Your love is stronger than this. 

Your bond will sustain her. 

Your love 

brighter than this darkness. 

You’re strong enough to push past this.

You got this my brother


02 April 2026

 idiosyncratic romance-01.04.26

Crashing at Villa Borghese

painting

An abstract that will

Fade away  slowly

Like memory of a night with lover

Under a starry sky and a bottle of wine



To celebrate

us

This idiosyncratic romance


having strange or unusual habits, ways of behaving, or features ) this is not a bad thing



22 March 2026

 Darkness-.o8.03.26

Long have I dwelt

Then came you

Green  eyes flashing green eyes like sparklers wild wild hair shining

Underground

The bright light

Hurts my eyes

Accustomed to

Darkness and shadows

the cool darkness so comforting

The denizens this place welcoming and loving

My kind

Without dark how would you know light


 heaven-19.03.26

salvation green eyes

redemption in dirty sheets

heaven inside you


 Getting high-10.03.26

 

moans growls spider bites

 

venom coursing in me blood

 

making me higher

 Blissed out-15.03.26

Phelan is Irish

a compliment or insult

ignorance is bliss

 Why must we be born screaming

   Only to die silently

She

The once 

and

Future 

Lover

Mons Venus tattoo of a butterfly

Cool

Be cool, 

get cool

Street blessing 

Be cool

My Little sacrifice

To 

Pan


To

Aphrodite

Moans growls 

Our sacred prayer

To

Insatiable nights 

To desire

To

lust

Vulnerability and titanium


Transubstantiation


Cool:  Neither warm nor very col not excited; calm; composed; under control.

3. you know it when you see it


cool


06 March 2026

 Time-06.03.26

Know it's you


We find each other

Time

After

Time again

Today

You were a butterfly

That kissed me for 10 minutes

you flew

Away

I wonder what I will be next time


We are

Time: progress of existence 2) fiction we have always been here 

Together in time

time


05 March 2026

                                                                     Flesh-05.03.26 

the current flesh suit

inspirational hot flesh

ravenous flesh art

27 February 2026

 At 24 -Abstract

My fist slams into

Mirror spider web cracks

Full with blood

Perfect self loathing

Abstract


 Champagne blonde-17.02.26

Dancing next to the bar

Swimming to the beat lost in the sound

Hard to miss

Like a Vintage champagne

 to savour

o enjoy

taste

let it loiter in me mind

To enjoy effervescent laugh

Drinking her in

Flashing green eyes

A kiss

Suddenly 

Transformed

AI

Bob Dylan

Edie Sedgewick

Letting champagne 

Take us 

Blonde champagne






 Irish whiskey-22.02.26


Like Irish whiskey


Dark  sienna coloured hair


the taste filling us


 Echoes-21.02.26

Echoes ringing

my mind

My soul

Call your name

She’s in the place

Doesn’t hear

Do you

you feel those long red nails raking me back

what was

what never was

future selves

echoing

Echoes: series of sounds caused by the reflection of sound 2) moments that linger


 The edge -27.02.26

On the edge of darkness

On the edge of space

On the edge ecstasy

on the edge nirvana

on the edge of joy

on the edge of Enlightment

On the edge of love

The Edge: A thin, sharpened side, as of a blade or cutting instrument. 2) guitar player for U2 3) Only those who have gone over it know where it is.


The edge where we live, because if you’re not, you’re taking up too much space

The edge


07 February 2026

 Price-31.01.26

You want to be with me

There’s a price you’ll. Pay

You make her go away

Fuck her purge her

I don’t need to know

just don’t want to smell her on you

feel her when you’re with me/in me

Whatever just make her gone

And I am your fantasy made sensuous fiery

blood and s silky toned flesh

A night with me

And you’ll forget her name

I will stain your soul

Like a tattoo

I’ll break every taboo

You’ll write

Of me Buk

That’s the price

All sales final

I kno2wmy worth

Lover man can you make my

Price: The cost at which something is obtained 2) awesome", "cool", "hardcore", "classic 3) the cost of beauty 

price


 • Night-29.01.26

It was just the night

Kiss her on the head and leave

Beautiful woman


 Dream-06.02.26

I must dreamed last night

because she felt like a dream

in the morning gone


 Word fix-02.02.26

Angel fell

picked her up

nursed her tattered wings

only a demon can heal Angel

The process is the reward

Angel flying away

every time even more

 more beautiful as they leave strong

redemption in passion

cleansed in dirty sheets

Angels’ embrace cured my affliction

leaving the symptoms(curated  several continents )

I hope she left me words

fix to fill the empty

find her words

word virus

takes a life time to perfect