vealpen Z

Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

03 August 2026

 PoolsideSan  Jose Hotel ATX- 01.08.26

The cocktail napkin prophecies

She backflips into pool

Rising lipping her hair in a water arch de sexy

Blinking water from eyes

Submerging only to appear again

Taking me by the hand

As Blue Bunny foretold

So, it has come to pass



 -27.07.26

I saw her dancing out past the wire 

where heaven meets hell

The magic is on the edge 

Her love to cold and distant god

watched her from hell

The Angel called to me

She jumps paint splattered all over

Her wardrobe on the floor

Caress her wounds as they were the Stigmata

She is benediction

Her wardrobe on the floor

Those bedroom eyes raspy voice 

cafe au lait tan

, supple warm skin

Ravenous hips and mouth

Spreading wings

Pulling

Me 

Deeper: further down, more serious, or more detailed. 2)Something a lover screams in the throes 

deeper


23 June 2026

  

·      Nothing too  serious-10.06.26

·      Solem and  silly

 

·      laughing maniacally

 

·      loving in the night

 Easy-13.06.26(fete of me death)

She gives

Me

Medicine a special mix )

Memory swimming in a motel pool under a starry sky neon flashing 

She was easy

to

catch

easy

to

look at

easy

to

chat with 

easy

to

to

love

easy to lose( impossible to hold like colours of night sky)

then 


 Blue bunny knows-18.06.26

blue bunny sent this

what you seek is seeking you

blue bunny is true

  

 

Blue mermaid-17.06.26

 

Blue mermaid on beach

 

my melancholy lover

 

dancing in the sand

 Voodoo 01.12.17-later

eyeing the shape of something wild

what’s your name

dark voyeur

Texas Book Depository

loving this

Dealey Plaza

dark voyeur adjusts sights

loving you

target acquisition

window of opportunity

let’s bounce

whisper to a scream

feeding the hunger(ravenous)

I can do that

hitting me

addictive

pleasure

seen you in visions

lazy smoke swirling around us

I know you’re a sorceress

a bullet magically ricochets

high

exhausted

sweat of lovers

musky scented air

lost in this moment

Blood-splattered limo

smell of fear death

dark arts

come to fruitarian

loss of innocence

decode/taste

hieroglyphics

etched in

your skin

explore codex of your soul

Sweat of lovers

Passion

fire

voodoo that is

muse



 Sex, death and dreams-21.06.26

 My eyes hurt

dive into the darkness

your eyes (they dilated quickly)

Underground

home

Through the looking glass

All saints

Let me take you

I am on my way already

Honi soit qui mal y pense


22 May 2026

levitating high sacred/erotic meditations

leaving this plane because

It’s low low, low one

Just got me fix (love or lust)

Whatever gets you high

whatever gets you by

Time is just a myth

We only exist the

Moment

Then dissolve

With

A thud


On earth gravity dragging us 


Moment: a very brief period 2) speechless period between two people 3) shared experience betwixt lost souls staring into each other seeing a reflection scars and dreams

this moment will

exist in the consciousness 9utside f time




12 May 2026

painting you-05.05.26

I will paint your boudoir

I will paint your body

I will taint your soul

With the colors  of carnal sin

With the colours of our passion

with Of the colors your fire

I will paint your world with an explosion of colours

I will paint  you 

with The colours of passion love

I will paint you 

 


Transcending-09.05.26

deep scratches

sting later

A gift

Because

Passion always worth it

Moans, growls guttural screams

Sent the dog barking

Sent me into another plane

Lines betwixt you and me

Blurred

Morphing

Into

A 3rd being

Transcending

Parameters

Of being

Shifting

realities

Transcending

Language


Transcending Surpassing Limits: To exceed the conventional

transcending


04 May 2026

 Rainy night 01.05.26

you stay, lay or stray

you and rain leave by morning

thank you for playing


 Stormy weather-01.05.26

he said her name was stormy

 As thunder shook the room and lighten lit it 

Giving fire

Long legs

refuge

Thunder louder 

She reigns down on me 

Down pours 

Until morning

Storms both gone

Stormy Weather: , heavy rain,  thunder, lightning,  or turbulent weather2) a favourite Billie Holiday song  3) a lost Angel

Stormy weather


11 April 2026

 Splash down-11.04.26

Reentry is the most dangerous

part of mission

eyes lock

Will heat shield hold?

she uncrosses those long legs


temperatures can reach 5,000 F2760C

heat shield holds

My hand on her thigh

Main parachutes deploy

We kiss

She places my hand

On the soft supple skin

Of her inner thigh

Beautiful

Graceful

Splash down!


03 April 2026

 You’ve got this, my brother. 03.04.26

Your love is stronger than this. 

Your bond will sustain her. 

Your love 

brighter than this darkness. 

You’re strong enough to push past this.

You got this my brother