Dessert-30.03.23

long hair and high dress

she's high as her dress and  heels

sweet and salty taste

 

 Dress code 30.03.23

casual sex yes

no shirt no shoes no worries

blue jeans are  allowed

 09:30 car park ER  25.03.23

Run free

Holding you

A gasp warmth leaving

Me singing a French lullaby

Taken

Companion

Trusted friend

Comrade in arms outside unreasonably sunny

For so long ago

I believed in Angels

Sun  hurting

My eyes

Slap on shades

Going Underground

Nothing registers

Just

Numb: the feeling of feeling no feeling.

numb

 self-immolation 

Soul ascending

pillar fire

just watching

How brightly she burns

That she burns

self-immolation broadly refers to acts of altruistic suicide, otherwise the giving up of one's body in an act of sacrifice.

 self-immolate

for art 

 self-immolate

for love

 Vapid-17.03.23

find her in the morning after

dreams of swimming in the Milky Way

I want to pour her over her

Like the sun kisses flowers

Watch her

Open in full

bloom

She  begs off

vapid She insists

fought too long

Not to see the feint within the feint

Held her too close not to know the truth

She seeks divinity

To  follow her

You must be clean

You must repent

Not sure what she meant

Vapid: offering nothing stimulating challenging. 2)Derogatory term for a female, implying superficiality, materialism, vanity, and a hollow

Says she’s vapid

 

Swamp-16.03.23

My nipples could cut glass

My panties a swamp

to breaking my vows

No need to be saved

Vows shattered on the ground

This won’t break me

Swamp: 1)wetlands 2) excessive amount of something 3) overwhelming

 dive into the swamp

to emerge sanctified 

  Idiosyncratic hook up-20.01.22-later

Any man/ distraction

Would have filled the void I could have been anyone with the 

possible exception someone she cared about

I’m easy 

Drawn to fire

moth

fated to burn

be well

be sexy

be pretty

be happy

wait an hour before swimming after meals

cross on green not in betwixt

2,5,6,7 all good cretins go to heaven-Joey Ramone

Idiosyncratic: Idiosyncrasy is an unusual feature of a person. 2) an odd habit

just

a

Idiosyncratic hook up

 She was Nico? -19.11.21-later

Her canvas was herself 

anything/ anyone

So very lonely

Intimidating  

too many 

siren’s call

I was deep underground

 cocktail of cacogenics,  coffee, and controlled substances

Lost in a dream (dreams will come)

I heard her a voice like single malt scotch)

This morning 

Driving blind

Desperately

Wantonly

No hello

No goodbye 

Just NOW

She was Nico?

 

Lost souls-14.03.23

pulled  me

Lost souls bar and grill

Holding court 

like

Napoleon in exile

the

Vampyre

That

Bleeds  stones

My dead follow me

Cold comfort

you swim away

but

lost souls they call me

 

jointing the dots-11.09.23

alone so long

Can’t remember when it happened

they  say

lost my special friend

And never been the same

Running till I feel off the edge

Tumbled down the rabbit hole

Spit me out 

underground

Don’t know

Way home

Angel

Says I hide

inside 

angel would fly

not voodoo

underground

visions ecstasy

absurdly dark pleasures

Jointing the dots

 Lighthouse-10.11.23

Moody pink spiders

the volatile mermaids

waiting in lighthouse

 Spirit-06.03.23

silent offering

my sacrificial mermaid

spiritual sex

 real gone -06.03.23

absurdity awaits at every corner

Father figure

Lover

Alchemy

said too much

swims  away

Existentialism & guitar sounds

Gone 

Gone: no longer present; departed. 2)exhilarated state, through music, drugs, or love 3) something 

very good or quite desirable (sic Kerouac)

I am gone Mama

Real gone

 Fight night-09.05.23

her  fury intense

This is why  she won’t  see  you

Make -up sex so  good

 Raw morning-28.02.23

give me words muse mine

give me  all your passions too

need to eat you raw

 Grace-03.03.23

orange marmalade sky

her heart beating  ferociously

under my palm 

hips moving rhythmically

under me

soft spring grass

the sunset

lemon  Kush

energy

life force 

passion

I am 

Giving in to sin

Take me !

She cries and kisses me

Giving us

Grace is favour, the free and undeserved help that God gives us.

grace

 She05.03.23

My blue-eyed whore

je t’adore

She the root Addiction

She is connexion to me

She is strange music

Taking her into me like

Heroin(mainlined in me soul)

She is

transmutation

Transforming

Dark matter powers the multiverse 

A blind goat bleats 

into

she

Because

She is

the mysteries of  space, time and women

Only she

Is blessed among women

She