10.05.16 –no where/now here

doodles

love  is

now here

love is

 no where

it is both

love

dichotomy

of

lust

and

nausea

09.05.16 –love

your doodles

love  is

now here

love is

 no where

it is both

dichotomy

of

lust

and 

nausea

09.05.16-disease

 Don’t try to hand me 

tracts

eternal reward

soul 

SHINY 

CLEAN

I

Have no 

soul

perfecting my 

disease far too long

fatally 

strategically

gloriously

FLAWED

I’ll

just

stay SICK

It sets me soul on FIRE

07.05.16-confused

you call out of the blue

its not confusing

you just haven’t 

been laid on 

a bit

old man 

was mean

the roar of your empty

soul

scares you 

the  hole

which can never be filled

no

its not 

love

its

need

but

whats a woman

to do

not confused

05.05.16-gone

how can you be gone

if

I can 

feel 

you  Holding me

if

I can 

Smell 

your human perfume

if

I can

Taste

Your kiss

If 

Ican  hear

Your laugh

How can you be gone

01.05.16-tortured narcissist

you call

you need me

I

told

how this ended

Whilst

It started

Narcissism 

is

your, sole

inspiration

you

could own

me

conceit

that

you’re unforgettable

like no other

a

vanity

that

that can never be filled

unique

no

just another

tortured narcissist 

30.04.16-hot mess

 short platinum blonde

smoky green eyes

micro mini

all the trouble

all the fun

in the world

compacted into

 90  pounds

rocking

4 inch pumps

a feral

vibe

savagely  snogging

this  is going 

to get LOUD

this is  going 

to be MESSY

this is going

to be HOT

29.04.16-story of us

I can’t

remember

When 

the

story

began

before

we 

locked eyes

before

we

spoke

before

We

fucked 

continues

after

wehave a cigarette

after

we part

we go

to our

worlds

I will

tell

you 

This 

story

Again it only changes

No ending just 

US

27.04.16-cutoff’s 

cool spring morning 

sunny

walking towards me 

hiden behind 

mirror shades

my secret

friend

honey coloured 

skin

soft 

warm

scotch  coloured 

hair 

thick

long

bikini  top

breasts

small

nipples hard

ruby belly ring

toned

innie

cutoff levis faded and tight 

like 

secrets held close

like

our secret

cutoff

from the world

22.04.16-awake

how long

did 

I sleep

does 

It matter you woke me

does he know

what you

have evoked

it was prophesied

in the book of Nods

the second  coming of the 

vampyric  demon

does he know

feeding

on 

your beauty

on

your passions 

on

your soul

I grow stronger

does he know

The dark rituals

You wrought

invoking

demon

you began 

this ritual

how did you imagine

it ends’

you 

 my little

human sacrifice

I’m 

Wide awake

Ravenous

impatient

20.04.16-close

You’re so close

I can almost taste you now

We dream when

We’re

awake

Skin so soft

Skin so hot

Sweat slick your body glides 

against me

straining against 

cuffs

Back arched

Head thrown back

Hips

Rising

Falling

Frantic rhythm

A new

Language

of moans

 language

a screams

dreams happen

when were close

18.04.16-raw like sushi

weapons grade body

angelic face

RAVENOUS

taste of 

a

 kiss 

the feel of 

a 

breast

long tanned 

legs

encircling

pulling

me in

you’re 

me whore

that

I

 ADORE

need  you

crave you  

FAMISHED

want you

raw 

like sushi

15.04.16-real me

you want

to

know

the

real me

sincerely

know me

peel back the layers

darker

darker

still

darker

If

I

had a soul

the colour

darker

Not even pretty

on the inside

This is the

real me

14.04.16-take this

walk away

run away

just take this

I won’t follow 

if you

 need me

look underground

just this one thing 

and 

I won’t worry

Just take it

Don’t look

Back

Here it is

Love is he only strategy for survival

Walk on

Don’t look back

You’re   

Not there

I am 

not there

we’re not there

Just take

That

Everything else

is

Noise

Love is the only strategy for survival

13.04.16-fuck off

I get it

I am not 

appropriate

it was a good run

Nirvana show

Too much

Beer

Music

laughter

with

RESPECT

LOVE

I’ll FUCK-OFF

12.04.16-beyond

in the space

beyond

life and death

good and evil

love and hate

reality and fantasy

I await you

beyond

10.04.16- close the door 

night

never has to end 

close the door

he/she

all the noise

close the door

don’t 

label 

close the door

only

we exist

close the door

tomorrow 

just some other time

we

never  end

close the door

09.04.16-Rasputin

I arise from

 the

frozen river every time

immune

to

bullets, knives

poisons

even

suicide blondes

I arise  every time red hair

Aflame

exterminating  mortals

With a glance

Drinking  women

Like water

Shooting

Art

Prose

Straight into

Me neck

I

am

Rasputin 

06.04.16-dark cocktail hour of the soul

driving a dark highway

those words

kill

pass me the bottle 

music’s 

perfect

chase that dragon

those words

kill 

take her home

and 

drive further

from what we

were

we tried 

to be

finish this alone

dark cocktail 

of 

the soul

01.04.16-crave

she’s staring at me

staring at you

I walk in 

Gypsy leathers

women 

stare

crave

me

why 

don’t you

crave 

why

do I 

crave

.03.04.16-visions of heaven

shade

vision

hallucination

gigawatt smile

pale blue eyes

torn fishnets

paradise 

on stilettos’

Visions of heaven

• 2016: Trump can’t be elected
• 2017: President Trump can’t violate the constitution
• 2018: I hope my district win’s the hunger games
• BERNIE!

28.03.16-mystrey

sexy sphinx

erotic enigma

now your secrets 

left exposed

on me bedroom 

floor 

like

all the

others

and that’s more

than

you can imagine

I’ll walk

not looking back

NO 

MYSTERY

27.03.16-second coming

some wait 

fiery judgments’ 

angry condemnations

swords of vengeance

horrendous wars

rapture

a beast

heavy metal  imagery

4 horseman

I wait 

you my lover

your soft laugh

your passionate touch

fuck the righteous

heaven was

always 

where ever

you are

hell is where ever

you’re not

the dark rider of the apocalypse

waiting for 

the second coming

cocktail in hand

26.03.16-crucified

Capitan’s bars

jump wings

best and brightest

lead guitar

spirals  full of songs

Outlaw

Urban legend

crucified

resurrected

Mary Magdalene hooked up 

with Pontius   Pilate

Disciples

stared 

mute revulsion

Pariah Saviour

flawed

repulsive

another

crucifixion

Resurrection

EXILE

Gitane’s

gin

suicide blondes

until  

anew

crucified

25.01.16-us
music blaring
coffee strong and black
blue dog
in midst of the storm
you came to me
beautiful
strong
sexy
salvation
I realize
We always exist
before
YOU
ME
there
was
US

24.03.16 storms and shades

sharing coffee

loveliest of shades

strong coffee

 strong music 

beast one side

shade on the other

grey morning

lost souls

storms and shades 

22.03.16-money hungry

she says 

nothing is free 

especially 

me 

you can’t buy 

me

with poetry

who says you can have it all

devushka

she’s

money hungry

21.03.16-missing

rituals don’t change 

razor 

mirror

chemical Ouija board

calling 

Angelic succubus

heaven 

is

only rumour

hell quite real

lived there for years 

demon

can’t erase

touch her

on this plane

come

here

speaking  in tongues

dreaming

beatifically

she’s

missing

Such an early song-abstract

me fist

into mirror

cracks 

spider webs of 

blood

self-loathing

disgust

despair

a

perfect

abstract

18.03.16-private hell

I know 

In your eyes

your own

prison

self

recrimination’s

mirror accuses

things 

said

things not 

said

regrets

powerless

to change

a 

arbitrary

situation

no 

time

time

so 

slow

time

so 

fast

greedily

missing  you

when you 

surface

me

or

waiting

if you just need 

company

in 

your private hell

11.03.16- silver platter
the way

you lick those lips

grind those hips

visions of ectasy

7 veils

a 

prophets head

no worries

I’ll deliver

on

a

Silver platter 

10.03.16-doll

on a shelf

next to trophy’s

photos

his world

you held him 

in 

your palm

now

on a shelf

doll

escaping 

to me

when

he wearies of his toy

old game

Thought

Mermaid

But

only

doll

08.03.16-mists

you 

at 

Batcave

dancing

Danceteria

Fashion week

Starwood

having  a drink

the souk

haggling 

On me nod

A beautiful dream

you

disappear

into 

the mists

you

exist

only

in the

mist

between worlds

04.03.16-dance

I watch her

Aphrodite’s temple dancer

see him

awaiting mercy

in her embrace

salvation

in her eyes

he ‘s

GONE

he gazes

Strung-out

DESIRE

she dances

not to 

some modern deity

but lusty decadent gods

dark rituals

dance calling 

PASSION

FERVOR

SEDUCTION

FERTILITY

TEMPTATION

He watches 

ABSOLOVED

Silent worship

Of 

dancer 

 DANCE

01.03.16-Summer

summer 

still

legal

you owed 

monkey man

demanded 

BEAUTY

MISTRESS

I

paid

FEAR 

PAIN

You

Stayed 

Wearing only 

bikini bottoms 

little black dresses

drinking only

champagne

coffee

a

perfect 

summer