Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

26 July 2017

26.07.17-saint
walked those streets 
saint
I pass
men cross themselves
sacred boot dagger
divine payback
stigmata growing 
on my mind
 in my arms
shielded
black leather armour 
Desolation 
Angels
dark guardians
immersed in 
communion
hallowed song
Rebel 
Angels
Benediction  
in
 beauty 
Passion 
passion holy communion straight 
in me neck 
visions of heaven 
immune to your
lead
knives
Petite bourgeoisie judgments
Saint 



24 July 2017

23.07.17-gone
a younger version
leading Desolation Angels
loving  Rebel Angels
severe 
left hook
roundhouse kick
guitar 
machine gun
gone
alchemist
machine gun 
a
 guitar
Saharan sand
Berlin bier 
human pain 
relieved 
monster created
gone
chasing bliss
chasing pink spiders
writing painting raw ecstasy and pain
gone?
who
did you want
I am 
already gone



21 July 2017

21.07.17-haunted
that was another
time
place 
reality
past
so much 
broken glass
the edge
until you’ve gone over
a few
times
you have no idea
went in
strong
confident
came back
haunted
she never came back

18 July 2017

18.07.17-for Ian
different
time zones
equivalent destination
further
glimpses
ancient rites
of unknown
to know
must go past
known
herbs
acids
alchemy
the edge
lost many there
you sent
Back
free verse
bulletin’s
sacred
knowing
SHAMAN
caught that dragon

we chased

further

we will meet


17 July 2017

16.07.17-perfect stranger
Perfect stranger
Wild
Wild
Hair
Golden curls
perfect stranger
Eyes
 flashing
grey
Cafe au lait
Tan
Soft
 skin
perfect stranger
Smell
patchouli
desire
cocoa butter
Perfect stranger
Talk
Vinyl
Art
Improbability of existence
perfect stranger
action /reaction
perfect stranger
electricity 
Laws of attraction
Connexion
Perfect

Connexion
Perfect

13 July 2017

13.07.17-flower
I will bloom
watch my petals 
unfold
when I bloom
pluck me
then
I am a flower
she says

13.07.17-ascension
this always hits me
 feel coming on for days
the after shock
as well
longer than smiles can be forced
civility feigned
visions of you
blue as you ascended to heaven
visions of us
you became
patron saint of ODs and runaways
I descended into hell
watching
your ascension

12 July 2017

Scent
    My music played in the bunker in an industrial council. There’s a good buzz in the air. This is a fundraiser for an old friend and the bands have an addictive energy. The tribe
I am queuing up for a drink. I notice her she is noticing me noticing her.
She is full blown Rock Chick. Platinum blunt cut, heavy eyeliner blood red lipstick. Wearing black mini stiletto boots fishnets with a wife beater 2 sizes small

I start carrying drinks to my friends. It’s involved process I chat with everyone and Misty asks if I am ever returning.
I answer, “Enjoy this all about music and raising a few quid.  After the first other drinks come quick; secret weapon tips.
I jump the queue come back to my drink. The bartender asks what I want I’ll take whatever she’s drinking. He answers “Jack and Coke
“Make it a double,” I tell him, the drink comes back quickly,  “
Do you and your friends only drink doubles?” Bartender asks. I garb the drink and walk it over the place the drink in front of her
her saying, ”Liking the show, Nico ?”
“Clever, but easy on the ears I’ll take it. “’ She answers.  I deliver the last drink wondering how I landed this task
 I assure Angie I’ll be back She tells me Misty and she won’t wait forever. I stay for a couple I have Nico on me mind gnawing at my consciousness’; I tell them I need air walking out back, Nico follows. there are a couple of picnic tables I find the empty one sit and  Nico joins me.
“Your dates wonder where you are?” Nico asks, with a devilish smile. I  answer by putting my hand on her shoulder pull her towards me  and kiss her. She responds pressing towards me.  We attack each other. she quickly unbuttons my 501’s. I l explore her thighs and can feel her excitement
    “I need to stop,” she says. Pushing me back. “I deserve better than the quickie in a car, and you dashing to the two blondes.
“You’re right love, they deserve better too” I   stand to button my jeans. finish my drink  in one swallow, and say “good night, I should be getting back, and start  back in the club
“Erika, my name is Erika let me wipe the lipstick off your neck and chest”,” Nico says. Dabbing at me with a cocktail napkin. I give her a peck
“bonne nuit mon amour” I say walking in.
    The band is a hot great atmosphere. I  walk to the bar a round for me, Angie,  and Misty. Erika brushes against me I feel her hand in my pocket.
    “My panties, now you know what I smell taste like my numbers there too,” Erika says in a husky voice.
    “I thought we were ...” I answer gathering drinks.
    We both know better, and you know, what they say once the dogs catch the scent it’s done.”

11 July 2017

11.07.17-lost
Angel found
me 
underground
where
Angel 
left me
Angel 
forever 
finds me
when
she’s
lost 
Angel 
still
I am 
 too go
too high 
to feign 
I don’t care
guided by her luminosity 
I lead 
Angel to herself
line chopped 
drink ready
to watch her
walk away






10.07.17-RUIN
Angel swept away 
pink spider 
wrapping an arm
around demon
like she never left 
Underground
locking eyes 
she’s
looking 
for 
shelter
protection
eyes  that
are
surrender
lusty
strong
soft
sexy
It will end in ruin
she
has always 
been 
me ruin
sexy poison
I shoot 
her straight into 
me neck
no regrets
love
the 
RUSH
of
RUIN

09 July 2017

07.07.17-tell’em
tell ‘em
you’re a cold bitch
you’re all heart
tell’em
you’re hard
you break like a child
tell’em
I did you wrong
pushed away like your dying friend
tell’em
I am a soulless sod
they already know
tell’em
about the rock stars you fucked
true
tell’em
anything
look around no ones listening
tell’em
I am done
not looking back in anger 
not looking back at all



05 July 2017

04.07.17-independence
a few miles away 
millions
watch 
Kandinsky
Klimt
explosions 
crawl
across
the night sky 
like Quetzalcoatl
to 
easy listening
we 
watch 
from bed
firecrackers mimic 
small weapons fire
clothes
strewn 
an
abstract 
of independence
nation  of two




29 June 2017

29.06.17- that voice
that voice
unexpected
welcome
startling
nonetheless
comforting
that voice
escorted
devilish blue eyes 
weapons grade body
 impish smile
that voice
woke me
lulled me
that voice


27 June 2017

26.06.17-fix
the call
her
letters 
yellowing 
like a  bruise
her
photos 
like scars 
fading 
with time
her voice
desperation
want
requiring
fix
ringing in me ears
rushing 
on me run
next
numb
needing
fix

24 June 2017

24.06.17- memory
memorizing
her
laugh
her walk
eyes ablaze
curve of her breast
once she sees
me
It will be the last time
I see her
not the one
she has memories of
last memory


23 June 2017

kosher cowgirl-19.06.17-
traded her pony
chrome horse
take a ride
you won’t
be sorry
Kosher cowgirl
splits herself in 2
lets me in
then jets
I wait
down   low
kosher girl
dancing in the sky


21 June 2017

21,06.17-echoes
a friendly voice
Teeming 
with
promise
mania
in the
distance now 
the year
of
sadness
madness
shared 
solitude
sensual obsessions’ 
passions 
thousands  
of
words
then
hush
losing
us
finding me
in a bar
listening
to 
Bowie
and
 pink  spiders
trying to silence
echoes 
of
what 
was
what 
might
have been
what
absurdity
echoing

20 June 2017

20.06.17-summer
wearing only
little black dresses
bikini bottoms
stilettos
drinking
only champagne
sniffing only cocaine
Sumer
was
perfect 


Takotsubo cardiomyopathy :  also called broken-heart syndrome, is a weakening of the left ventricle that is usually the result of severe stress.
call it Takotsubo cardiomyopathy
20.06.17- Takotsubo cardiomyopathy
call it  broken heart 
call it quits
just don’t call 
us
there is no
us
distorted
myth 
of what was
there’s
you
there’s
me
there’s
2   separate
divergent
existences
altered
damaged
by 
us





19 June 2017

18.06.17-price
cut off 
me
ear
mailed it
to
Kate Moss
BEAUTY 
always worth it
always costs
passion
FIGHT
LOVE 
to the 
DEATH
passion
comes
with
a price

17 June 2017

15.06.17-end
waited
between
her thighs
and
long red nails
closed me eyes
each 
incarnation
centurion
conquistador
charlatan
same end

13 June 2017

13.06-imperative #’s
10 bullets
3  x’s pronounced
1 corpse
=
4 ever demon

12 June 2017

12.06.7 Call
Ghost
I smell
Whiskey 
Sex
Bubble  bath
ACCUSES 
NOT same 
NOT me
Jealousy screams
Dancer
Pirouettes 
Cheshire 
Smile
like an ocean of mannequins
a
feast
for 
vampyres

07 June 2017

06.06.17-D Day
Unfaithful ghost
dancing
Cowgirls parachuting
in 
dangerous daughter
I just went swimming 
free fire zone
on the beach
ghost mocks me 
swimming 
to D Day


05 June 2017

05.06.17-live
 women
I love
age too
fast 
she accuses
at least
they 
live
25.05.17-duaghter
YOUr  wilful daughter
my wanton lass
wild
beautiful
Like YOU
Benediction
Ruin
YOU
recognized
me
demon scent
Angry

Jealous
pink spiders
always devour
their mum

03 June 2017

02.05.17- drink
listening to dead city mix 
nameless bar
shameless woman
somewhere 
Ghost dances
dances
for love
dances
for life 
dances into the night
 and a 
hook-up
I need 
a shot
good kit
icy  and Chinese
I’ll get a drink
and
rebel angel 



30 May 2017

29,05.17-dancing
I think she's dancing
How
Should 
why 
should
I care
I know
too long 
since
we
danced
since
I
awoke to her
 in 
me bed
in
me head
I think
she’s dancing

28 May 2017

28.05.17-sand castles
club
destined 
that night
Rotaway
building 
a
sandcastle
that face
in 
magazines
on
runways
living in 
our
sandcastle
until
it fell into
the sea
as sand castles
forever do

26 May 2017

26.05.17-storm
Your daughter
Like you
Long blonde hair
Long legs
Pale blue eyes
Tastes
of
sorrow
Rolling
Over me
wet
wild
 storm

23 May 2017

21.05.17- higher
music’s high
are we
so is
your dress
this must be 
the place
this must be 
the time
your 
irascible  demon
my
rebel Angel
on the dance floor
3 chords of 
truth
3 chords of
beauty
2 lovers
high

19 May 2017

cowgirls-19.05.17
your history
in
Vegas?
Long Island ?
Shire ?
rinsed
one
we
crave
 in a
grave
talk
talk
action
here come
Cowgirls
riding
fast
hard
forward
reverse
round
here come
cowgirls


16 May 2017

16.05.17-walking
awaking
country
sold
given
angry rabble
Russians
early morning 
smell 
parfume
women
SO thin
SO blonde
they must be posh
 dark apparition and dog
invisible 
reeking
OF
pink spiders
sanctified sweat
sacred smoke
the world 
imploding

exploding
music art
venom
coursing in my veins 
walking

14 May 2017

13.05.17- parallels
a place
thst never intersect
a time
where
I was less damaged
you were more obtainable
we could
be together
instead
we’re
parallels

12.04.17-dirty blonde
dirty dirty 
blonde
hair
devils eyes
legs 
arms
everywhere
lurid promises
whiskey kiss
growling
moaning
dirty blonde hair 
in me mouth
on me  pillow
skin
to
skin
pink spider
STINGS
sultry  southern night
CONNEXION
waking
next 
too
dirty
dirty
blonde

07 May 2017

05.05.17-my love
love
so lush
so lovely
so clever
so could you
say
love you
sober
just once
or just not

say it
06.05.17-venom
those legs, long and strong
close around me
death 
loves me
plonking  pink spiders
can’t kill 
me
what I take  
might
coming down
pain
patiently
waiting
pain
assured
can you feel
seizures 
nausea 
coming
hear 
desperation
calling
savour
venom
let it take  you
venom
raison d'etre
venom
unswerving
venom
rushing through
viens
sweet poison
killing
pain
venom
sweet
venom

01 May 2017

01.05.17-swimming 
Hotel
Afternoon 
Demon feasting 
No pretense 
She dances
 into the flames 
Now
Coffee 
pool
Experimenting 
Ordinary
Just
Swimming