Femme Fatale- .02.11.17
Hausfrau
Frantically out-of-place
then
Lady in red
gangster Papi
looking over her shoulder
now
Lawyer
logical evolution
each time
Femme Fatale
each time
02 November 2017
01 November 2017
27 October 2017
19 October 2017
17 October 2017
rape
I am humbled today reading women’s stories. I am outraged at how commonplace this is. I had a girlfriend who was stalked by a Deputy, and I managed to put him in his place.
Mumsy was crying one day after work she swore me to z
Secrecy, The fellow unfortunately had an accident a few days later. It seems a ruffian on a motorcycle drove him off the rode fortunately the time with his arm in a cast let him see the light.
I am wishing we had “market justice” in India groups of women attack rapist with rusty knives cutting rapist genitals. Then rub chilli peppers
I am realising all the women I have known without exception have been raped. Something this endemic must be societal. The maths does not support this being done by outliers. A society holding back and brutalising 50% cannot progress. This cannot stand, be business as usual the cost is too high.
Women you are brave and humble and touch everyone reading your truths. You are exposing everyday injustices; everyday monsters and that thing cannot survive in daylight.
Mumsy was crying one day after work she swore me to z
Secrecy, The fellow unfortunately had an accident a few days later. It seems a ruffian on a motorcycle drove him off the rode fortunately the time with his arm in a cast let him see the light.
I am wishing we had “market justice” in India groups of women attack rapist with rusty knives cutting rapist genitals. Then rub chilli peppers
I am realising all the women I have known without exception have been raped. Something this endemic must be societal. The maths does not support this being done by outliers. A society holding back and brutalising 50% cannot progress. This cannot stand, be business as usual the cost is too high.
Women you are brave and humble and touch everyone reading your truths. You are exposing everyday injustices; everyday monsters and that thing cannot survive in daylight.
14 October 2017
13 October 2017
08 October 2017
06 October 2017
01 October 2017
28.09.17-moment
Bowie on the screen singing
Gin, flake fuelling
me blood
YOU
exciting
me eyes
mesmerizing
me mind
this isn’t
YOU
this isn’t
ME
a
moment
a
perfect
world
a moment
stretches
or
never happens
no
fancying alternate realities
at 03:30
absorbing
alchemy and majik
into my blood and brain
and listening to
Bowie and NIN
a
flawed world
just a moment
I’ll
take it
24 September 2017
23 September 2017
22 September 2017
20 September 2017
18 September 2017
17 September 2017
15 September 2017
07.08.15-star
when I met
you
ou
belonged to no one
and
everyone
the soul of a pink spider
morally Flexible and fluid
you
kept saying you were tired of feeling crazy
when you broke
I threw the pieces across the sky
they sparkled and became
thousands’ of stars
I still
Look into the night sky
and
try
to
hold you
my star
14 September 2017
14.09.17
torn fishnets
cocktail dress, stilettos
make up flawless
laser gaze
vicodin in her blood
cocaine in her nose
BEAUTY
costs
BEAUTY
hurts
recognise
in those eyes
pain
sorrow
that smile
holding
back
madness
sorrow
scars that revival mine
an assemblage curated over decades
a deeper
colour
of blue
here I go
tangled up in her
fishnets
tangled up
in
fishnets
in
blues
in
her
12 September 2017
07 September 2017
05 September 2017
04 September 2017
01 September 2017
30 August 2017
27 August 2017
25 August 2017
Revenge Body
Going out begins by punching a prayer into the ATM. and answered by a few ’20s. I head towards a favoured dive. Nice dark, playing Gorillaz “Clint Eastwood” as I enter I take a stool in the back.
My back to the wall all exits inline vision. I see her enter. The sunlight entering the doorway gives an almost dream-like quality. She looks familiar, but I can’t place her.
I walk over I’m dressed vaguely like a Ramone and she’s in business chic. I am sussing she’s here because no one she knows or, anyone they know would be caught dead in here.
My memory cannot find her, but I want to know her. I walk over a man in his 20's obstructing me. “Pardon, mate,” I say
“Bro what’s your hurry Bro?’ a man with a backwards hat and backwards sunglasses.
“Excuse Me,” I counter.
“Bro why so hostile?”
“If you’re done saying Bro, fucking step aside, bro,” I growl.
I grab someone’s empty Shiner Bock bottle just in case. Looking at him. “How’s your luck bro? You want to roll the dice, cunt.” The bartender comes over in a forced cheery voice here’s some shots boy’s.” Letting the air back in the room. Toss back the tequila and walk over to her,” This is the part where I say something. Witty, but I am not that clever, so how about hello, I am Marlowe, and you are?”
“That is witty,” She says.” I am Elise, and I think we both run in the same park.
“You run I walk a dog. I knew I had seen you before” I flashing on her lithe form running I gesture the bartender for drinks.
“Love, fancy going out to the patio for a chat?” I ask. She nods and follows me I brush past Bro and take her by the hand leading her into the cool spring evening. I notice an intense stare from her pale blue eyes and meet it. There’s a conversation going on. Elise speaks first, “So what’s going on Marlowe?”
“Not much I just wanted to meet you, so roll the dice, walk over,” I answer.
“Good answer can I ask another question? Elise asks.
“Shoot” I answer.
“Behind you giving me fuck you stare a stick with tits, platinum hair, heavy eyeliner, early 20’s, and I am guessing, swimming daddy issues ring a bell?” Elsie says sarcastically.
Me friend ghosted s couple of weeks ago, she always ghosts being a “good wife”, whatever the fuck that means. I ended up hanging with Katie Lyn, nothing too serious. She’s sweet and fun”
“I am sorry that was about me. I am coming out of a relationship and the bimbo was the symptom, not the disease. , We don’t know each other that well.” Elise says. “I would guess being a “good wife, would include not doing you,” she says laughing softly Respond by hugging her. She stiffens and then clutches me.
“Sure we know each other, you’re my kind,” I answer
“I don’t need warm and fuzzy, and I need to feel something tired of being numb; just be authentic and we’re friends
“I authentically need another drink, want to join me?” I answer.
“I think I’d like that,” Elise says following me inside.
I gesture for around to bartender. We both grab a drink and find a nice dark corner, wordlessly seemingly out of instinct.
“Your kind, you mean your type?” some sort of Londonesse phrase?” Elise says trying to figure me out
“Love, I meant I recognise you in some manner I am not sure of an instinctively one see’s another, same subspecies and yes my type,” I say looking her in the eyes.
She slams me against the wall when she kisses me. I grab her as she snakes around me. Grinding and moaning like a cat in heat. I pull her hair and she responds with a growl. I put my hand on her breast and her nipple stiffens under my fingers I pinch and she growls. Her hips are rocking we have the attention of about half the bar.
“You like being watched, don’t you pet?”
“You came up for air “ Bartender says handing me a cold bottle of water. I nod smile and take a drink and take the bottle to an out-breath, Elise.
“Let's bounce,” I say, “You're overdressed.” Elise takes my hand and we leave.
The cool evening air surrounds us in the car park. “ Your place,” I say
“No problem, “ Elise says sliding into driver's seat shedding her jacket putting her hair down, and unbuttoning two buttons on her blouse. She’s in full seduction mode. I just say “You’re so fucking sexy, knocking me out love.”
“Hotter, than tits on a stick?”
“Abso-fucking-lutely! so lush, so fit !” no one else in my mind, nothing else on my mind. I run my eyes over a weapons-grade body.
“So you can find happiness in a woman who is past 23?”
“She’s a girl, you're a woman,” I answer. I give her a kiss, running my hands over her body firm, with soft tanned skin.
“Let’s get out of the car park I don’t want a hot hour in the car want you all night. ”
I say.
“That’s going to happen,” She growls locking eyes.” The chemistry is palatable
I let myself admire her body even in the half-light of the dash lights I can see definition in her legs, and I wonder if she has a thigh gap.
“You like what you see, Marlowe,” Elise asks
“Dogs bollocks,” I answer.
“That’s good?” Elise asks
“The best, “ I answer
“This is all new to me I wasn’t a size 4, a few months ago.” Elise says.” I started running to relieve stress, then I was looking better I kept it up my ex-came to pick up some flash drives I saw the look in his eyes, like yours’ hunger. “
The combination of hormones’ and gin syncopated beat of ambient playing make the drive surreal. We pull into a gated cul de sac I follow her to her 3-story townhouse.
“I am keeping the house. He can start over Elise says defiantly.
She opens the door I follow inside, she locks behind us. I push her against the wall kissing her hard pushing her skirt down she wriggles out of it I pull down lacy panties Unfastening her bra her arms pull back to take blouse and bra down dropping to one knee admiring her landing strip give a quick nibble kissing my way up finding her pink nipples tan lines. I am undressing as I do this, nibbling her soft lips pulling her to the floor. She lands on me and I pull her under she and me wraps around me, legs arms, pulling me into her. Our rhythm matches. Her red nails on my back. Her hips match mine she screams. She moans growls, as she arrives.
I awake to her saying. “I’ll save you an Uber I am going to the park.”
“Want to shower?” she asks playfully taking me by the hand leading me upstairs we walk into a bedroom on a king-sized bed. My clothes are laid out. I realize we both slept on an area rug. She is a robe and I am starker’s, but then we exchanged bodily fluids she points at the bed, and says? Give me a moment to brush my teeth. “
I wait thinking my teeth are furry too I am thinking. Elise hands me a travel brush when I am done I turn on the water and slide in I look up and Elise is sliding in the bed I follow. She is growling, Ride it like you stole it. Anything you want. “
Anything, did you want to put it there? I have lubed myself and I am relaxed.
I start to enter her slowly tentatively she pushes back against me growling yowling, “Cum in me!” Grinding her hips I caress her clit as she does, fondling her breasts kissing nibbling the back of her neck. She shudders screaming “OH Fuck Oh god! shuddering sweating she collapses.
We shower I lay back on the bed I am watching her get into her running clothes.
He begged for everything you’ve had. I wouldn’t I couldn’t. there was space I could feel it.” she says, adding” I started running to burn off that, stress., then
“I enjoyed you, how was revenge.? I ask.
“Sweet, do you feel used?” Elise asks.
I feel fan fucking tastic, don’t get weird, I sussed it out at the bar.” I answer. I find my clothes and dress.
I’ll make coffee” Elise calls. I find a chair in the kitchen to check my phone.
Hi” Elise says comes in running clothes big smile. high ponytail. she grinds coffee puts it in the machine, and the aroma fills the room. We’re well beyond small talk phase.
How do you take it? She asks.
“Black and proud,” I answer. She puts on music and brings coffee. We drink it quietly.
I guess we need to get going she says. I follow. We arrive at the park quickly. “I suck at goodbye's, but I won’t forget you” I offer.
You, don’t have to say that” She says.in tone, that says I do
We’re both in the park most days, we could get kinky and talk sometime. I say getting out of the car. I walk home to grab my dog to go back to the park, for the morning walk. a car slows down I notice Elise waving. I wave back. I keep going forward she’ll catch up
Going out begins by punching a prayer into the ATM. and answered by a few ’20s. I head towards a favoured dive. Nice dark, playing Gorillaz “Clint Eastwood” as I enter I take a stool in the back.
My back to the wall all exits inline vision. I see her enter. The sunlight entering the doorway gives an almost dream-like quality. She looks familiar, but I can’t place her.
I walk over I’m dressed vaguely like a Ramone and she’s in business chic. I am sussing she’s here because no one she knows or, anyone they know would be caught dead in here.
My memory cannot find her, but I want to know her. I walk over a man in his 20's obstructing me. “Pardon, mate,” I say
“Bro what’s your hurry Bro?’ a man with a backwards hat and backwards sunglasses.
“Excuse Me,” I counter.
“Bro why so hostile?”
“If you’re done saying Bro, fucking step aside, bro,” I growl.
I grab someone’s empty Shiner Bock bottle just in case. Looking at him. “How’s your luck bro? You want to roll the dice, cunt.” The bartender comes over in a forced cheery voice here’s some shots boy’s.” Letting the air back in the room. Toss back the tequila and walk over to her,” This is the part where I say something. Witty, but I am not that clever, so how about hello, I am Marlowe, and you are?”
“That is witty,” She says.” I am Elise, and I think we both run in the same park.
“You run I walk a dog. I knew I had seen you before” I flashing on her lithe form running I gesture the bartender for drinks.
“Love, fancy going out to the patio for a chat?” I ask. She nods and follows me I brush past Bro and take her by the hand leading her into the cool spring evening. I notice an intense stare from her pale blue eyes and meet it. There’s a conversation going on. Elise speaks first, “So what’s going on Marlowe?”
“Not much I just wanted to meet you, so roll the dice, walk over,” I answer.
“Good answer can I ask another question? Elise asks.
“Shoot” I answer.
“Behind you giving me fuck you stare a stick with tits, platinum hair, heavy eyeliner, early 20’s, and I am guessing, swimming daddy issues ring a bell?” Elsie says sarcastically.
Me friend ghosted s couple of weeks ago, she always ghosts being a “good wife”, whatever the fuck that means. I ended up hanging with Katie Lyn, nothing too serious. She’s sweet and fun”
“I am sorry that was about me. I am coming out of a relationship and the bimbo was the symptom, not the disease. , We don’t know each other that well.” Elise says. “I would guess being a “good wife, would include not doing you,” she says laughing softly Respond by hugging her. She stiffens and then clutches me.
“Sure we know each other, you’re my kind,” I answer
“I don’t need warm and fuzzy, and I need to feel something tired of being numb; just be authentic and we’re friends
“I authentically need another drink, want to join me?” I answer.
“I think I’d like that,” Elise says following me inside.
I gesture for around to bartender. We both grab a drink and find a nice dark corner, wordlessly seemingly out of instinct.
“Your kind, you mean your type?” some sort of Londonesse phrase?” Elise says trying to figure me out
“Love, I meant I recognise you in some manner I am not sure of an instinctively one see’s another, same subspecies and yes my type,” I say looking her in the eyes.
She slams me against the wall when she kisses me. I grab her as she snakes around me. Grinding and moaning like a cat in heat. I pull her hair and she responds with a growl. I put my hand on her breast and her nipple stiffens under my fingers I pinch and she growls. Her hips are rocking we have the attention of about half the bar.
“You like being watched, don’t you pet?”
“You came up for air “ Bartender says handing me a cold bottle of water. I nod smile and take a drink and take the bottle to an out-breath, Elise.
“Let's bounce,” I say, “You're overdressed.” Elise takes my hand and we leave.
The cool evening air surrounds us in the car park. “ Your place,” I say
“No problem, “ Elise says sliding into driver's seat shedding her jacket putting her hair down, and unbuttoning two buttons on her blouse. She’s in full seduction mode. I just say “You’re so fucking sexy, knocking me out love.”
“Hotter, than tits on a stick?”
“Abso-fucking-lutely! so lush, so fit !” no one else in my mind, nothing else on my mind. I run my eyes over a weapons-grade body.
“So you can find happiness in a woman who is past 23?”
“She’s a girl, you're a woman,” I answer. I give her a kiss, running my hands over her body firm, with soft tanned skin.
“Let’s get out of the car park I don’t want a hot hour in the car want you all night. ”
I say.
“That’s going to happen,” She growls locking eyes.” The chemistry is palatable
I let myself admire her body even in the half-light of the dash lights I can see definition in her legs, and I wonder if she has a thigh gap.
“You like what you see, Marlowe,” Elise asks
“Dogs bollocks,” I answer.
“That’s good?” Elise asks
“The best, “ I answer
“This is all new to me I wasn’t a size 4, a few months ago.” Elise says.” I started running to relieve stress, then I was looking better I kept it up my ex-came to pick up some flash drives I saw the look in his eyes, like yours’ hunger. “
The combination of hormones’ and gin syncopated beat of ambient playing make the drive surreal. We pull into a gated cul de sac I follow her to her 3-story townhouse.
“I am keeping the house. He can start over Elise says defiantly.
She opens the door I follow inside, she locks behind us. I push her against the wall kissing her hard pushing her skirt down she wriggles out of it I pull down lacy panties Unfastening her bra her arms pull back to take blouse and bra down dropping to one knee admiring her landing strip give a quick nibble kissing my way up finding her pink nipples tan lines. I am undressing as I do this, nibbling her soft lips pulling her to the floor. She lands on me and I pull her under she and me wraps around me, legs arms, pulling me into her. Our rhythm matches. Her red nails on my back. Her hips match mine she screams. She moans growls, as she arrives.
I awake to her saying. “I’ll save you an Uber I am going to the park.”
“Want to shower?” she asks playfully taking me by the hand leading me upstairs we walk into a bedroom on a king-sized bed. My clothes are laid out. I realize we both slept on an area rug. She is a robe and I am starker’s, but then we exchanged bodily fluids she points at the bed, and says? Give me a moment to brush my teeth. “
I wait thinking my teeth are furry too I am thinking. Elise hands me a travel brush when I am done I turn on the water and slide in I look up and Elise is sliding in the bed I follow. She is growling, Ride it like you stole it. Anything you want. “
Anything, did you want to put it there? I have lubed myself and I am relaxed.
I start to enter her slowly tentatively she pushes back against me growling yowling, “Cum in me!” Grinding her hips I caress her clit as she does, fondling her breasts kissing nibbling the back of her neck. She shudders screaming “OH Fuck Oh god! shuddering sweating she collapses.
We shower I lay back on the bed I am watching her get into her running clothes.
He begged for everything you’ve had. I wouldn’t I couldn’t. there was space I could feel it.” she says, adding” I started running to burn off that, stress., then
“I enjoyed you, how was revenge.? I ask.
“Sweet, do you feel used?” Elise asks.
I feel fan fucking tastic, don’t get weird, I sussed it out at the bar.” I answer. I find my clothes and dress.
I’ll make coffee” Elise calls. I find a chair in the kitchen to check my phone.
Hi” Elise says comes in running clothes big smile. high ponytail. she grinds coffee puts it in the machine, and the aroma fills the room. We’re well beyond small talk phase.
How do you take it? She asks.
“Black and proud,” I answer. She puts on music and brings coffee. We drink it quietly.
I guess we need to get going she says. I follow. We arrive at the park quickly. “I suck at goodbye's, but I won’t forget you” I offer.
You, don’t have to say that” She says.in tone, that says I do
We’re both in the park most days, we could get kinky and talk sometime. I say getting out of the car. I walk home to grab my dog to go back to the park, for the morning walk. a car slows down I notice Elise waving. I wave back. I keep going forward she’ll catch up
24 August 2017
23.08.17-fade
I realised there
are many
of me
in your world
though none
so dark
none
so vampyric
none
so demonic
all betrayed
keep your clones
I’d rather sleep alone
I wont look back
in
anger
I won’t look back
I’ll fade to black
that's what demons do
darkness of underground
envelopes me
feeling like
a ravenous lover
23 August 2017
23.08.17-ruin
she was
beautiful music
about
terrible things
Picasso’s Guernica
Siren
Seraphim
walking past
corpses of her lovers
in her
web
oblivious
blasé’
jaded
warnings evaporated
away
knowing
she was
creation
destruction
fell
onto
her embrace
she was
always going
to
end badly
she has
always
been
my ruin
21 August 2017
19 August 2017
17 August 2017
14 August 2017
14.08.17-detonation
detonate
it
pull
the
trigger
push
the
plunger
pull
the
lever
alchemy
dark magik
rushing through me veins
to
centre
of
me
soul
brain
heart
COLURS
LIGHTS
SONG
ART
EXPLODING
EXPLODING
EXPLODING
into
visions
philosophy
prophecy
dreams
exploding
realities
fantasies
CONSCIOUS
by
explosions
taking
me
higher
CONNEXTING
to
heaven?
limbo
god
collective consciousness
this how the universe was born
explosions
07 August 2017
04 August 2017
01 August 2017
31.07.17-cherry cyanide
Cherry comes
long spindly legs and arms
close around
me
pink spiders
get me
dying and living reconciled
she follows
underground
far
from
hollowed ground
purity a stranger
to begin
dark
sacraments
my little
human sacrifice
beauty carries
karmic debt
me
penance
kisses me
I
savour
the intensity
and
recognise
flavour
cherry cyanide
29 July 2017
29.07.17-muse
elle a
obsession
for
Marilynn Monroe
Edie
perfect shade of champagne coloured hair
Elle était amoureuse
passion plays
dance floor
our girlfriend
perfect high
more covers
fetishized
hated
for her
beauty
and
casual sensuality
seeking
escape
from
things
she couldn’t name
found
in magazines
under lazy smoke rings
in our bed
denied it
but in
my heart
she was my muse
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