deadbeat poet -12.02.21
indifferent queen
celebrated
adored
whist
I am
Beat: a main accent or rhythmic unit in music or poetry 2) American social and literary movement 3) overcome 4) strike violently 5) tired
beat
looking for
joy
looking for
Love
looking for
a bliss fix
looking for
redemption in dirty streets
looking for
redemption in dirty sheets
a dead-beat poet
t:a lazy or socially undesirable person
a deadbeat poet?
us-09.02.21
flying
past evil
past good
past
time
past
space
past
knowing
Temporal anomaly: disruption in the spacetime continuum 2)) created by the rite-candles, communion hitting the spot in the Centre of me brain exploding conscious betwixt world’s
temporal anomaly
brings me to you
we dance
time means nothing
are existential tango
no
beginning
no
end
nothing else
exists
just us
heartbreak lighthouse-29.01.21
Lighthouse: a structure (such as a tower) with a powerful light that gives a continuous or intermittent signal to guide ships and mermaids
where I live
above the rocks
I was called by sirens
Siren: women or winged creatures whose singing lured unwary sailors and demons on to rocks.
who swam from the Soca
to this the last
evidence
of
Atlantis
of
love
I wait the mermaid
I will break her heart
Again
Like waves crashing
again
until it opens
Mermaid
Let’s me in
eyes turned toward heaven-23.01.21
Fast: something that reflects light) shine in a bright but brief, sudden, or intermittent way. 2) revelation
FLASH
saw you
Really saw you
pale blue eyes
turned towards heaven
the last time
saw you
pale blue skin
eyes towards
Heaven: place regarded in various religions as the abode of God (or the gods) and the angels, and of the good after death2) wherever you are
Heaven
10,000 Kisses in-19.01.21
ome to me and I’ll set you free -
we’re already
10,000 kisses in
don’t want
hold you back
want
to hold you
your passion, youth and talent
Speedball:Injected mix of heroin & cocaine a speedball
A speedball
hitting centre of me heart.
I go the places we shared
hoping you’ll walk in to the vacuum of my stare
backdown?
one way
to love
one way to
fight
to the
DEATH
do I feed on your
BEAUTY
YOUTH
your kiss breathed life
into
the place
me soul once was
10,000 kisses IN
not looking for an OUT
I am 10,000 Kisses
IN
MLK day-18.01.21
woke up loaded my gun
love was gone
no one warned
I am the chosen one
to shine
EXPLODE
burn bright
in my
sights
can’t
RUN
can’t
HIDE
judgement day
TODAY
pistol unloads easy
come
like the
Holy Ghost: Holy Ghost "proceedeth from the Father and the Son".
hit you
like the4 holy Holy Ghost
3 in the face
pray for grace
doctored bullets
ready for a fight
hoping
for peace
on
MLK day
Now-o7.01.21
she talks
reward in the sky
if we die
Now: under the present circumstances as a result of something that has recently happened. 2) all we have
all is now
rivers to cross
get over
Desolation: Desolation: state of complete emptiness or destruction
calling the desolation Angels
texting my man
skinny girl
Wants
Answers?
passion?
Release?
love?
to own?
be owned?
tomorrow?
now is fine
in her eyes-02.01.21
something
your aspect
something
your touch
something
your art
something
I have always known
your feral vibe
lavicous
lips
I must still be alive
blood goes in the need
3cc’s of truth
I
have
always
known
who
you are
what
you are
it was in your eyes
connexon: a relationship in which a person, thing, or idea is linked or associated with something else 2) finding another part of self.
Connexon
In her eyes
Beyond reach-31.12.20
western sky
Constellation of the Cowgirl mermaid
She dances on the sands of the Milky Way
myth
a jealous god threw her high in the sky
out of reach
of poets
artist
who sought
her
seduce her
Je ne sais quoi: a quality that cannot be described or named easily 2) muse
je ne sais quoi
commit to paper, canvas, soul
she dances on the sands of the skies
poets watch from underground
stars
beyond reach
Seeing other people-14.12..20
crossfire at the cathedral
old idols tumble
Kinetic: a certain place or area is violent.
Kinetic energy
forever? down underground
always same
death and glory
birth and death
betwixt
absurdity
same candles incense
holy holy
blood communion
rituals
the stigmata of my disease
you’re sex
your sex
it’s/You’re
on fire
me
never live in the future
never live in the past
no eternal reward will forgive you
for wasting NOW
I am seeing
who cares
I am seeing
who my friends are
I am seeing
Visions:; Visions are understood to be the product of God's self-communication.
visions
I am seeing
the feint within the feint
I’m seeing
art
Line of Fire: the expected path of gunfire or a missile
I am seeing
lines of fire.
I am seeing
saints
Sisters of Mercy: a programme for instructing and training poor girls, distributing food and clothing to the needy, and performing other works of mercy. 2) a band
Sisters of Mercy
care for me
don’t worry about me
I am seeing
other people
t’s you-08.12.20
It’s not me
Psychosis: mental disorder in which thought, and emotions are so impaired that contact is lost with external reality
It’s your psychosis
It’s not me
Paranoia involves intense anxious or fearful feelings and thoughts often related to persecution, threat, or conspiracy
It’s your paranoia
It’s not me
Insecurity: uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence 2) needing constant external reassurance
it’s your insecurity
It’s not me
Depression: a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest.
It’s your depression
It’s not me
It’s you
she’s Mermaid -26.11.20
she’s
in
room 575
Mermaid Hotel
she won’t like it
pool not ocean
Jonesing: Craving, desire, or need something or someone jonesing
Premonition of a soul?
the monotony of desert
assaulted blinding sun
she dances in the sand
we should go swimming
Mermaid: a half-human sea creature with the head and trunk of a woman and the tail of a fish comprising magic
Mermaid
as you were-26.11.20
before
I bored you
before
your psychosis
told you it was me
before
I gathered poppies, coca and fled underground
Before
Your madness filled the room
when
you
were me
lover
when
you
were me
muse
As you were: standard military command. It means, literally, "[return] to your previous posture" 2) before you gave into your psychosis
As you were
Stranger
Stranger -14.11.20
Young women don't kiss me goodbye
Existence improbable
There must
Be
some way out
because night
Random
Soaked
in
Gin, smoke and sex
Stranger sleeps
Name?
It’s all the same
Her body illuminating
the room
write to it
her body
dictates prose
Step outside
of time and space for 1,000 millennium
Step back into
the hellscape
Still nothing
is
known
Attachment is the source of all suffering.” Buddha
Step out
Find redemption
in
Stranger: a person whom one does not know or with whom one is not familiar. 2)unusual or surprising in a way that is unsettling or hard to understand.
A
stranger
visions-13.11.20
at the intersection
it’s St Jill
forever
beautiful
forever
Attachment is the source of all suffering.” Buddha.
in me
forever
love without exception (holy fucking)
forever
to walking on the roof of the ocean
Visions: is something seen in a dream, trance, or ecstasy 2) enlightenment
to have visions
to know that
ALL
Punks
ALL
musician
ALL
artist
in any form
are
Saints
My visions are true
Quien es-09.11.20
Existential outlaw
Existential: meaning of Being 2) the difference between being and nothingness.
on the run
reality
controll
illusion
did I
betray her
if so
because
I could
because
she said I would
I am whatever
you say
I am
gliding
betwixt planes
pink spiders
hunt me
some seek to classify me add me to their collection
General Tom Thumb: a dwarf whose rose to fame as a circus performer
exiled and shunned
from the 3 beer circus
by
General Tom Thumb
too far underground
a drink
loose exile
a dime
Quien es?-Billy the kid's last words answered by a bullet to the heart
a knock
Quien es?
Us-.09.11.20
no
don’t hate
her
no
don’t hate
him
she’s
around
when
he’s
not
around
coming
down
into
my lair
mermaid in a cowboy hat song echoes
There’s
Her
There’s
he
there’s
me
Us:used by a speaker to refer to himself or herself and one or more other people as the object of a verb or preposition. 2) an understanding betwixt lovers
There’s
No
us
Resonate-05.11.20
Ilsa forever gets
on that
plane
I forever stay
on this
plane
Here words
echo
those
words
those
emotions
aching
like
a new
drug
shelled
engines drown sound
various chemical drown the pain
stiff upper lip
Laszlo is a good person
Abomination in jeans
Abomination: I am a thing that causes disgust or hatred
yet
Resonate: 1) produce or be filled with a deep, full, reverberating sound ((her heartbeat)2) evoke or suggest images, memories, and emotions. 3) an echo in my psyche she causes through words and will
she resonates
