Smell-16.12.23
I wanna sleep in your T-shirt
Can you hear me major Tom?
You smell right
why come back
Shadows dance and play
here in betwixt worlds
we Existential lovers
smell of love
smell of passion
Smell: power of perceiving odours or scents 2)To be aware of and emotionally affected 3) women’s radar
smell
Concentration camp of desires-05.01.23
Desperation
Submerge: cause to be under water 2) you are overwhelmed by a situation 3) sink below the surface of water or any other enveloping emotion or media. Meditations on mermaids’ pink spiders
melancholy pleasure of hearing her accent-raspy
The janitor of lunacy
Seeks sirens
For this cageless aviary
Desirable contradiction
Capucine smokes a Gitane whilst French jazz plays
the holy and the absurd
submerged
in a concentration camp of desires
Kiss-9.12.23Mermaid remix
You close your eyes and fall into me ravenous embrace
Eyes closed complete
Surrender
You put my hand on your breast
I feel your nipple stiffen
Your scent fills my head the heat of your body warms me being
your heart races under me bed
Nothing else matters
This kiss
My love
My world
This all we have
Kiss: when couples kiss, gently entwining their tongues with one another, there is an increase in the production of oxytocin, which is a hormone associated with building bonds with someone special 2) a sign of affection, respect.
A kiss
You close your eyes and fall into my savage embrace
Eyes closed complete
Surrender
You put my hand on your breast
I feel your nipple stiffen
Your scent fills my head the heat of your body warms my being
your heart races under my hand
Nothing else matters
This kiss
My love
My world
This all we have
Kiss: when couples kiss, gently entwining their tongues with one another, there is an increase in the production of oxytocin, which is a hormone associated with building bonds with someone special 2) a sign of affection, respect.
A kiss
Broken angel-1.12.23
Found her on the sea bottom of the desert
an hour out from Notre dame DE Afrique( or was it Joshua tree?)
She ultimately found life
without any spiritual solace unendurable
She was looking for that ecstatic space
I knew the way
Next day under my coffee mug
I am killer
I am clown
My shots are final
I knew that when I laid down
My crown of thorns hanging
From the sights of a C8 carbine
Needing a fix
wander
to the desert
to meet
that
Broken : having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order 2)Something/Someone that is so good in a particular context that it eclipses second place 3) wonky or conked out
broken angel
she would save my soul tonight
if I had one
Thanksgiving my phone is ringing amplifying the ringing from a hangover that is, screaming in my head like a siren, 08:00 it must be mumsy. “Hello love I answer.
an enthusiastic Happy Thanksgiving!”! rings through the phone I light a cigarette. The coffee could use a shot of something.
“Are you coming around 3?” I have a guest, and don’t know what’s happening.”
“Please! Please!
“Ask him, there’s so much food. I have veuve clicquot champagne.” My bottle was killed last night. My refrigerator has mixers OJ, and cigarettes Misty might want food.
“Hang on Mums. I put the phone on the table. walk to the bedroom my apartment is barely furnished bed, and stereo. Table a guitar in the corner. Albums, books random art. I hear the shower.
“Misty, want to go to Thanksgiving, casual my ‘rents some of the exchange students “
“All I have is what I had on last night and that might have your teeth marks only dress and 4-inch pumps no hose. “ Misty answers. Wrapping a towel around her waist.
‘don’t need hose you’re tan and waxed”
“We just met.”
“You're OK it’s casual. “I am wearing jeans and a T, you’re pretty in anything in answer. We locked eyes across the room last night. Whilst a band cranked 3 chords at high volume.
“Do you have a hair dryer?
In the cupboard.”
“Do you have a girlfriend?”
“No, why?”
“There’s tampons in here.”
“For visitors’
“How many have there been? Don’t answer. None of my business. “ Misty stammers.
“Why so serious ?’ I ask.
“I am overthinking?” she asks.
Yes, if it's a bother we won’t go”.
No, I want to”.
I’ll tell Mumsy” remembering I left herb on hold.
“Did you forget?
“I am coming and so is Misty.
Love you cheers”.
Drive to the ‘burbs
Mumsy at the door.
“Was she waiting?” Misty asks. Relax
The dog barks when he hears my car.” I answer. I walk around and open her door Mumsy waving us in. There introduction table set we are seated across from each other.
Mumsy says say the blessing. Misty gives me a wink. Leans forward hands clasped in prayer ample cleavage and blonde hair spilling onto the table.
I begin, “Lord we thank you for the bounty on the table. Misty giggles, as does Mumsy. I excuse, myself for a cigarette as my father carves. Mumsy follows.
“I can’t believe you just said that laughing.
You can’t be mad you're still laughing.
She hugs me and goes back inside where Misty has charmed my father. Sayed is telling a chemistry joke. I just smile politely Misty gives a laugh.
The sky was Weeping -13.11.23.
Because
I can’t
But you know that
You were there when
I was born (screaming and bloody)
after died (screaming bloody gun smoke heavy in the air))
everywhere betwixt
Weeping my way
My stiletto opens
Sorry dude I meant nothing a
Move on
Weeping: to express grief, sorrow, or any overpowering emotion by shedding tears; shed tears; cry
I can’t yet
weeping
All-04.11.23
those
Years
All
those
Loves
All
those
moments
all
our
love
Fit in a small urn?
A million mad thoughts
talking
to clouds
Talking
to butterflies
driving you to the house
Because
That's
used to refer to the whole quantity or extent of a particular group or thing 2) whole of one's energy or interest, love
all
there is
Shadow puppets-03.11.23
Surging on my rush
Songs for the deaf
Crown of thorns
Ground control calling(let it go to voice mail)
swimming in the clouds
Pale blue skies( the colour of St Jill)
angels rage and scream
mutiny in heaven roars
angels fall like rain
Free -take one
Waking
pistol in my hand
Shadow puppets are figures that are placed between a screen and a light. Using your hands and fingers
see your shadow (we are all shadow puppets at 03:00)
Click the safeties on
Jackson Pollack’s daughters
Good time girl
Blue Bunny is prophecy
Voices visions
writing my disease
betwixt-13.07.23
secret rites of Heart soul
composed of love pain
wrought from agony and ecstasy
higher knowledge
in the realms of spirituality and mysticism
flying
betwixt worlds
betwixt
pink spiders
the secret lives of butterflies
betwixt
coffee and smoke
talking with clouds
betwixt
Dreaming on you
Betwixt: between two people or things
Missing you
