Tikvah-29.09.20
a chilly morning
black coffee, blues
agent 575 left us behind
full on reality
Open fire
m203: single-shot 40 mm under-barrel grenade launcher designed to attach to a M16A1
with my surreal M203 let off desert flower grenade
followed by a full clip of Irish roses from my absurdM16A1
575
never turns
she
goes full on reality
I watch
screaming, no! fascism, and hate is there
she jumps
into
mundane
into
ordinary
I can’t
penetrate that veil
I go where we met
the
swirling sands
of
fate
where we swam
beautiful tidal pools of passion
currents of desire
Tikvah: word for hope in Hebrew 2) it also means cord or rope, which comes from a root word that means to bind or to wait 3) a precious drug, that fuels us
I will take my last shot of Tikvah
casting runes 16.06.20
I take chances
I take lives (never proven beyond a reasonable doubt)
Lakota: Indigenous people of North American western South Dakota. 2) another John Doe
Lakota
slow move
switchblade fast
quiet
slashing
gurgling coughing sound
Lakota’s baby momma
Casting Runes: Pagan traditions, divination is done by casting runes
Lakota’s baby momma
casts runes
did she know?
she looks at me
smiles
and casts runes
Walking on stars-20.09.20
morning black coffee & blue steel
an angry fix
Prophecy spray painted on the overpass
Andromeda Galaxy 537,000,000 light years from earth
walking on Andromeda
floating through the cosmos
you’re so far away
need you near
expect little
receive less
fruit of the earth work of human hands
10cc’s clear elixir
you should come
let flow to that Centre in your soul
sanctification takes place when a person enters heaven and becomes totally and irrevocably united with God in the beatific vision.
inside you
I am sanctified
Come with
Me yesterday
Tomorrow
Today
We will walk on stars
demon-18.09.20
I am fear
I am madness
Hieronymus Bosch: (1450-1516) a surrealist painter from Netherlands who depicted the world as passing through the devils’ digestive system
I am a Bosch painting
animated
I walk
betwixt
the living
that I may deliver them
Angel of Death-My crush
pink spider-my lover
woke me
I can’t
drink
medicate
her away
If I live
I will kill you
If I die, I will thank you
I live betwixt worlds
Demons: fallen angels (Revelation 12:7-9), and have the same characteristics as their angel counterparts
you have awakened
demon
Birding-15.09.20
They stared
HER
not approaching
HER
as she was
a
rare and beautiful bird
her unblinking pale blue eyes
taunted them
said
nothing
everything
beauty
HER
currency
took her from the aviary
Aviary: a large cage, building, or enclosure for keeping birds in.
Ithere’s no life
in an Avairy
I took HER
on a white stallion
down deep
underground
own deep
underground
past
the other vampyres
past
pink spiders
past
HER
Past
Redemption
Past
Judgements
Past
Zone 6
to
US
Nod.09.09.20
see your lips move
music from some different world
Pink Spider
infecting
my soul
keep talking
I am nodding along
I am on my nod
Nod: is an act of recognition and respect that is accomplished by raising and lowering your head (nodding)when you see an acquaintance in a public place 2) high. Your neck goes limp and your head just slumps down on your shoulder and just nods at things seen and unseen be4cause you’re betwixt worlds
pink spider venom surging
taking you
morphing
you
until
you a
aren’t
you
quit talking
I’ll take
you
there
can’t hear
just
nod
YES
Comfort inn car park Amarillo-30.08.20
Comfort?
left a friend
rocky mountains
going to the coast
me in
flyover country
am too heavy
to
fly
bars closed
predawn dark
HWY 66
crying the ghosts
of last chance
white knuckle runs
scrolling through photos
big brown eyes
don’t look back
love is
always an amputation
drinking
coffee
benediction commonly means a blessing of persons
benediction
upon the Angels carrying him
away
looking for comfort in
Amarillo car park
Moaning Lisa -31.08.20
seventeen syllables
not enough
Mona Lisa: half-length portrait painting by the Italian artist Leonardo da Vinci 2) an enigmatic smile betrays nothing and everything
Mona Lisa smile
Cowgirl
dancing
on
shifting sands
Mermaid
swimming through
treacherous currents
Codex: an ancient manuscript text in book form
I will search the codex
not counting syllables
Mona Lisa
Transfiguration: complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state
Eyes roll back
Shuddering
Sweet sweat
Animal sounds
into Moaning Lisa
time-23.08.20
I want some
Time: a measured or measurable period, a continuum that lacks spatial dimensions 2) a fairytale to explain how we experience “reality”
YOURS
MINE
OURS
you have more
you can swim in it
like the
Mermaid
you are
future
past
present
dance
with
me
don’t
flee
I need
YOU
more
than want
YOU
wanted
YOU
so long
so bad
you want
time
I can make more
I am alchemist
Alchemist: person who transforms or creates something through a seemingly magical process
dance with me
there’s a place
beyond
TIME
beyond
REALITY
beyond
YOU
beyond
ME
we can dance
in
OUR
time
transfiguration-21.08.20
imagine
a cater pillar waking from
the cocoon
stretching
metamorphosis:a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means. 2) a Franz Kafka novella
realizing
everything had changed
you no longer crawl
you fly
thrilling?
terrifying?
both?
painful?
all beauty comes from pain
don’t jump
don’t fall
FLY
"transfiguration:a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state.
transfiguration is at hand
song hits-18.08.20
like bullet
trust me on this
sucking chest wound
Sucking Chest Wound: happens when an injury causes a hole to open in your chest.
that cavity
pay it no mind
just
a
place
I kept
me soul
don’t miss it
miss her
it was
always going to end like this
she was always
a pink spider
heroin
cyniade
weak distillations
she
would always do what
bullets
skag
knives
coke
car crashes
multi-coloured
universe
of uppers
dreamers screamers
shaking like
the priest
the Priest: William S Burroughs
when the song hits
he one with pale blue skies
song morphs
or is it me
when the song hits
helig OS-12:43 dark-13.08.20
consciousness preceded material
material preceded consciousness
Bishop in there
church of 1 & 0’s
leads worship
cathedral of rare earths
random error
=
kitten hit by car
Bishop
betrays thing
I sussed out
heilig (comparative heiig, superlative am heiligsten) holy. sacred
sussed
helig OS
unfired field theory-:an attempt to describe all fundamental forces and the relationships between elementary particles in terms of a single theorem 2) consciousness
unified field
=
consciousness
Bishop
smiles
starts
math’s
to disprove
divine
Shadows-07.08.20
rich woman
beggar
junkie
thief
instagram celebrity
every word
silence
affront to her
sorrowful shades
comfort
me
shield
me
take
me
underground
me
sanctuary
me
solace
me
sanctifying
me ripped jeans
Aleister Crowley was an English occultist, ceremonial magician, poet, painter, novelist, and mountaineer.
Aliester Crowley
ties me off
William S Burroughs was a primary figure of the Beat Generation and a major postmodern author
Burroughs’
Hits
me vein
sending me to the polar regions
I shall live again
I shall die again
I will dwell forever
in
house of shadows
watching -08.08.20
plague
watching
fascism
watching
from the shadows
watching
no 12 steps to heaven
watching
a shot to heaven
watching
underground
watching the surface
they never loved me
watching
our lady of thousand sorrows
some begged some borrowed
some stolen
watching
Jacobs ladder
Jacobs’s ladder: Jacob did not build the ladder to reach heaven, God extended it to him.
