Haunted-27.10.20
ghosts
living
dead
over
me
like a swarm of flies
walking cemetery
peaceful
the living
envy the dead
grey skies
there’s a scent in the air
don’t trust it
Mercury tipped bullets
mercury tipped bullets: explode on impact.
no mercy
no regrets
not PTSD
reflex
these
won’t be stopped by bullets
need
shaman
not
a
priest
need
a fix
not
a
hug
Haunted: Haunted: to appear habitually as a ghost 2) obsessed by memory or idea
haunted
Pieces-21.10.
these are the Pieces of
my poems my art
torn
by
her long red nails
matching
the marks on my back
I know one way to
love
I know one way to
fight
to the death
I have traveled the world
I have been o
holy places
looking for
answers
forgot the questions
Catwalk: a platform extending into an auditorium, along which models walk to display clothes in fashion shows; a runway. a rarefied place to celebrate beauty and style
she walked in with catwalk strut
I knew how this would end
from the beginning
Pieces: a portion of an object or of material, produced by cutting, tearing, or breaking the whole 2) what’s left of something after it’s destroyed
in
pieces
In the Mood
I walk into the designer donut shop and Mackenzie n asks, “Coffee black and hot like your women?” Morgan is the uber cheerful pierced inked clerk sweet and pretty. I have said, that once too many times. I smile and take the cup, wishing I was a younger version of me, but the younger me wouldn’t be caught dead here even if the sweet and pretty girl was given to dark young men with bad habits and scars
I am looking at the choices something about the fit woman in athleisure wear seems familiar and the mask isn’t helping. I shake the feeling off. There are local art and locally roasted coffee for sale several gyms and yoga studios in the area. She doesn’t stand out just seems familiar, why I am not sure.
I go to the patio and take my red X marked cornerback to the wall clear view of all entrances and exits socially distanced. That woman comes out, and sits directly across from me, her gaze is intense, even 2metres away
“Good Morning,”, I say to pale blue eyes that smile back. There’s a connection. I pick up my coffee, “Slainte”
“You don’t remember me, do you? I’ll give you a hint; I only have one of my red Jimmy Choo’s. She said.
Synapses fire, there’s something to micro-dosing I play for time. “Of course, love, of course,” I say laughing I am getting something, and it will be here in a moment.”
I am only giving you one more hint, Carmen.” she said.
It comes back to me in a wave. meeting in the gallery then, a pub, then spontaneous combustion
“I take it casual sex, is not uncommon for you.”
“Well blue jeans are allowed “I answer
“That’s clever, now tell me my name.” She says her stare is hard.
“Carmen, but do you know mine?”
“Escamillo” She answers’. I laugh.
“Why so serious,” I ask. “I think we’re past the small-talk stage. I am cool, I sussed that night I could have been any man. I woke up you were gone. I
“You woke up before I left, I saw your body go tense. Then feigned sleep. I thought you might call about my pump.”
“I didn’t get your number, love, and my friends didn’t either.”
“I wasn’t looking to be their wife's sister, and yes I was in the mood even, though I am not sure how you knew” She answers.
“I could feel tension and heat,” I answer.
“Am I in a mood now?” she asks
“Yes, but for something else, not a rematch,” I said.
“You’re good,” she said.
“My name is Marlowe; would you fancy coffee we can talk about the weather. I reckon if you wanted to put it all behind you wouldn’t stop.”
“I think I am in the mood for some conversation and coffee and moves close in, I in middle of plague pull her in. She’s in the mood and moods pass It’s now or never
Stolen moments-3.10.20
Stolen: take (another person's property) without permission or legal right and without intending to return it." thieves stole her love”
Whose moments
Are they
Not ours
Are they the others?
We belong to
Ourselves
We belong
To each
Other
How
Moments: a very brief period of time 2) appropriate time for doing something 3) an emotional reaction
Moments
anyone else’s
keeping them
from my dead cold fingers
stolen moments
Tikvah-29.09.20
a chilly morning
black coffee, blues
agent 575 left us behind
full on reality
Open fire
m203: single-shot 40 mm under-barrel grenade launcher designed to attach to a M16A1
with my surreal M203 let off desert flower grenade
followed by a full clip of Irish roses from my absurdM16A1
575
never turns
she
goes full on reality
I watch
screaming, no! fascism, and hate is there
she jumps
into
mundane
into
ordinary
I can’t
penetrate that veil
I go where we met
the
swirling sands
of
fate
where we swam
beautiful tidal pools of passion
currents of desire
Tikvah: word for hope in Hebrew 2) it also means cord or rope, which comes from a root word that means to bind or to wait 3) a precious drug, that fuels us
I will take my last shot of Tikvah
casting runes 16.06.20
I take chances
I take lives (never proven beyond a reasonable doubt)
Lakota: Indigenous people of North American western South Dakota. 2) another John Doe
Lakota
slow move
switchblade fast
quiet
slashing
gurgling coughing sound
Lakota’s baby momma
Casting Runes: Pagan traditions, divination is done by casting runes
Lakota’s baby momma
casts runes
did she know?
she looks at me
smiles
and casts runes
Walking on stars-20.09.20
morning black coffee & blue steel
an angry fix
Prophecy spray painted on the overpass
Andromeda Galaxy 537,000,000 light years from earth
walking on Andromeda
floating through the cosmos
you’re so far away
need you near
expect little
receive less
fruit of the earth work of human hands
10cc’s clear elixir
you should come
let flow to that Centre in your soul
sanctification takes place when a person enters heaven and becomes totally and irrevocably united with God in the beatific vision.
inside you
I am sanctified
Come with
Me yesterday
Tomorrow
Today
We will walk on stars
demon-18.09.20
I am fear
I am madness
Hieronymus Bosch: (1450-1516) a surrealist painter from Netherlands who depicted the world as passing through the devils’ digestive system
I am a Bosch painting
animated
I walk
betwixt
the living
that I may deliver them
Angel of Death-My crush
pink spider-my lover
woke me
I can’t
drink
medicate
her away
If I live
I will kill you
If I die, I will thank you
I live betwixt worlds
Demons: fallen angels (Revelation 12:7-9), and have the same characteristics as their angel counterparts
you have awakened
demon
Birding-15.09.20
They stared
HER
not approaching
HER
as she was
a
rare and beautiful bird
her unblinking pale blue eyes
taunted them
said
nothing
everything
beauty
HER
currency
took her from the aviary
Aviary: a large cage, building, or enclosure for keeping birds in.
Ithere’s no life
in an Avairy
I took HER
on a white stallion
down deep
underground
own deep
underground
past
the other vampyres
past
pink spiders
past
HER
Past
Redemption
Past
Judgements
Past
Zone 6
to
US
Nod.09.09.20
see your lips move
music from some different world
Pink Spider
infecting
my soul
keep talking
I am nodding along
I am on my nod
Nod: is an act of recognition and respect that is accomplished by raising and lowering your head (nodding)when you see an acquaintance in a public place 2) high. Your neck goes limp and your head just slumps down on your shoulder and just nods at things seen and unseen be4cause you’re betwixt worlds
pink spider venom surging
taking you
morphing
you
until
you a
aren’t
you
quit talking
I’ll take
you
there
can’t hear
just
nod
YES
Comfort inn car park Amarillo-30.08.20
Comfort?
left a friend
rocky mountains
going to the coast
me in
flyover country
am too heavy
to
fly
bars closed
predawn dark
HWY 66
crying the ghosts
of last chance
white knuckle runs
scrolling through photos
big brown eyes
don’t look back
love is
always an amputation
drinking
coffee
benediction commonly means a blessing of persons
benediction
upon the Angels carrying him
away
looking for comfort in
Amarillo car park
Moaning Lisa -31.08.20
seventeen syllables
not enough
Mona Lisa: half-length portrait painting by the Italian artist Leonardo da Vinci 2) an enigmatic smile betrays nothing and everything
Mona Lisa smile
Cowgirl
dancing
on
shifting sands
Mermaid
swimming through
treacherous currents
Codex: an ancient manuscript text in book form
I will search the codex
not counting syllables
Mona Lisa
Transfiguration: complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state
Eyes roll back
Shuddering
Sweet sweat
Animal sounds
into Moaning Lisa
time-23.08.20
I want some
Time: a measured or measurable period, a continuum that lacks spatial dimensions 2) a fairytale to explain how we experience “reality”
YOURS
MINE
OURS
you have more
you can swim in it
like the
Mermaid
you are
future
past
present
dance
with
me
don’t
flee
I need
YOU
more
than want
YOU
wanted
YOU
so long
so bad
you want
time
I can make more
I am alchemist
Alchemist: person who transforms or creates something through a seemingly magical process
dance with me
there’s a place
beyond
TIME
beyond
REALITY
beyond
YOU
beyond
ME
we can dance
in
OUR
time
transfiguration-21.08.20
imagine
a cater pillar waking from
the cocoon
stretching
metamorphosis:a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means. 2) a Franz Kafka novella
realizing
everything had changed
you no longer crawl
you fly
thrilling?
terrifying?
both?
painful?
all beauty comes from pain
don’t jump
don’t fall
FLY
"transfiguration:a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state.
transfiguration is at hand
song hits-18.08.20
like bullet
trust me on this
sucking chest wound
Sucking Chest Wound: happens when an injury causes a hole to open in your chest.
that cavity
pay it no mind
just
a
place
I kept
me soul
don’t miss it
miss her
it was
always going to end like this
she was always
a pink spider
heroin
cyniade
weak distillations
she
would always do what
bullets
skag
knives
coke
car crashes
multi-coloured
universe
of uppers
dreamers screamers
shaking like
the priest
the Priest: William S Burroughs
when the song hits
he one with pale blue skies
song morphs
or is it me
when the song hits
