vealpen Z

Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

22 October 2025

 Refugee-22.10.25

that song comes on

Teleports me

She’s 

undulating to music

Lost and found at once

Wet from shower

Shining like a human neon

singing 

A siren song of beauty

Passion

Refuge

in

In an embrace

From

savage

Brutal

Place

Refugee:  forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, savage  and brutal reality of pain and heartbreak

refugee


19 October 2025

 Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

defiance so beautiful

·      tragic,  divine love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

·      defiance so beautiful

·      tragic,  divine love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Havoc-01.10.25

She slipped my leash

Crying havoc

My name

Chaos

I was born for this

The match

Lit her snatch

Together

Erotic riot

Havoc: widespread destruction 2) my new friend


 Mermaids-14.10.25

mermaid blows a kiss

then turns  swims  out to  the sea

watching the  mermaids


 Laisons-14.10.25

There is fire for us

There will be a time for us

It won’t last

But will

Be

Beautiful inferno

Heart

We kiss 

you taste danger

I taste your Shame

Melancholy of   rented room( tastefully decorated and sanitized for your protection

Your midlife antichristis


you’re not protected for this fantasy

fear not

Take this

Liaison: colouring and activities  book

Liaison: 11)a close bond 2)3.Secret sexual relatrionship 


Laison


 Echoes-18.10.25

Beauitiful, tragic, and divine

Us

You want me tobe the hero 

Thats alive at the

End of the movie

I want you redemption your embrace

tonight

 

Echoes of what will never

 be

Echoes: the reflection of  sound 2.) a  parallel or repetition of a, feeling

echoes

 • About last night-19.10.25

echoes of last night

leaving before   the first light

the echoes ringing


12 October 2025

 ·      Musing-16.09.25

·      somehow I know her

 

·      Somebody I never met

 

·      mad bohemian

  Starvibg-13.09.25

· gives herself to him
· whilst starving I am starve here
· she gives it away

 side peace-02.10.25

my weapons armor 

outside

find serenity in your embrace

sanctuary in your bed

lost and found 

in

My beautiful side peace


 Havoc-01.10.25

She slipped my leash

Crying havoc

My name

Chaos

I was born for this

The match

Lit her snatch

Together

Erotic riot

Havoc: widespread destruction 2) my new friend


 The dark cocktail hour of Soul-7.10.25

l here is a loneliness 

so strong it has no name(it

The sadness that screams so loudly

it causes mermaids to weep

I have heard nothing I drink 

I stare into  

the emptiness 

the  cold

of space

put a record on the turntable

pour another drink

dark cocktail hour

of 

soul



 Flashing-07.10.25

a flash of kismet

a flash of cool connexon

flashes lighting the night


 


Absurd love 11.10.25

The prophet Absurdity calls you

Comfort and safety

Of your bougee life

Suffocate your soul

Come to me Angel

Your demon lover

See’s past

Your long legs

See’s past

World class pussy

Sees into your 

Soul that glistens like a star

Hitting me like a new drug

Denounce thy name

If only for a night

Absurdity: the quality or state of being ridiculous or wildly unreasonable  2) a philosophy 



30 September 2025

 Swim-30.09.25

Past Euston station

Where mermaids traded fins for long legs

Swim with me  dolly

27 September 2025

 Disintegration 17.9.25

Spiraling

Black

Lost

Pain high

Being put in car

waking

NICU

IV’s (I could done better)

Where you are?

In limbo


do you know your name ?

My name is disintegration

disintegration: nucleus or other subatomic particle emits a smaller particle or divides into smaller particles.2) falling apart


 Blue on blue-26.09.25

my indigo heart

because I can't lose your touch

bleeding blue for you


                                                               Fly-26.09.25

I heard a rumour

ATC not going  let us land

sussing fly higher

30 August 2025

 Thunder-21.08.25

Dry y lighting tonight

followed  soaking rain

waiting on thunder

 low-22.08.25

driving this flesh suit

always in shadows

nnver seeing the light

it’s low

low

low

Wanna break out right now

break through

the other side

So low 

Demon chasing

angels

myths

joy

Toss this flesh suit

Ravaged

By

Highs

Lows

Only

 Cry to heaven-27.08.25

Rifle fire through a stained-glass window

children’s bodies

Litter church

Horror splattered

On screens

Repeated

Over

And over

A country

Loves guns more than children

Makes a demon cry to heaven

 Rendezvous-24.08.25

we  were  to go swimming

I dreamt of us at the 105th street conservatory

Going uptown

me you in the light

I woke to the shadows

Thinking of

Our next rendezvous

  I fixed

waiting for

just a little joy

rendezvous : pre-arranged meeting, often romantic or clandestine, between two people

 

 

 Off-29.08.25

You won’t know

demon eyes-dead

Medicine-numb

Heart wounded

Staggering

Staring at the night sky

Fancying truth and existence

Other unknowns in

The beauty of night

Want underground

6 ft deep

Just off

Off: feeling worse than usual; unsatisfactory or inadequate. 2)something  having gone bad

 

 

 

 Firing squaud-30.08.25

not  alone

I smile at her like a forest of mannequins

Just lonely

echo won’t call my name

Muse just a memory-the flame that guides

’Tension!

only

Ready!

love

Aim!

can save me

Fire!

Love is the only strategy for survival


21 August 2025

 nausea and funk-17.07.25

Feels like  a hole

torn asunder

time and space continuum

motion sickness( no Dramamine® 

 strong enough)

betwixt planes

blue mermaid’s

pink spiders

black dog

white China

nausea

nausea: a feeling of sickness or queasiness, a strong feeling of disgust or revulsion, and figurative uses related to unpleasant experiences or situations


 


Dreamer-21.07-,25

Real enough to touch

Beautiful , sexy cool enough to dream about

dreaming


 Coma-30.06.25

 days coma

Chatting with blue and my Botticelli

3 days on the other side

Feeling Mumsy pushing back

Waking

Psychedelic tiger fur pulsing

Nurse like pinup

Coma :unconsciousness where a person is alive but unable to move or respond  to their environment  2 ) a place betwixt worlds

coma


 junky’s 2.5.24

Think us romantic

We’re just addicted love

Mainlining sex  each other


 psychologist hedonic-17.08.25

long hair and high dress


sweet and salty taste


she's high as her dress and  heels

Dreams

Come

From

Such early songs

A left that would lift

A telecaster

That guided

Some where

Betwixt

Eaven and h


 Cosmic-18.08.25

Cosmic waves bring us together -

That song

You dancing

Like  Venus in LBD

Somewhere. in the cosmo’s

Those versions of us

Exists

 will always exist

Lost and found in each other

cosmic: immeasurably extended in time and space; vast 

 Dragon-19.08.25

Enter the dragon

gripping pink dragon hot  wet

your night  stands ready


 Miracle?-19.08.25

Do Angels exist?


Seeing you I think maybE


kiss me miracle