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Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

15 November 2025

 Eulogy for Jim Carroll & Charles Bukowski-15.11.25

Pink spider slides

Out of her T and cutoffs 

her back resplendent

A mermaid tattoo the length of her spine you like Papi?

Took months

Magic is this night

Sainte Sirène

Must love me (sensual saint swimming in this poem)

Angels sing

As foretold

By artists, poets & prophets (literally same thing)


 Ride-15.11.25

Papi why you wait

ride it like you stole it love

me bucking bronco


06 November 2025

 spells-5.11.25

Pink spider Casting spells

Fog

Maybe salvation doesn’t come in white robes

But

LBD and stilettos’

Last night’s potions

The rituals of lust

have faded

angry glaring at me casting evil spells

Envious of my crown of thorns and scars

This shot hits

I step into a dream

Cutting through fog

Blocking spells

I go betwixt this world the next Andromeda

Swimming in absurdity

Spells letters that form (a word) in correct sequence. 2)words, actions, or symbols used to invoke supernatural forces,       spells


 spells-5.11.25

Pink spider Casting spells

Fog

Maybe salvation doesn’t come in white robes

But

LBD and stilettos’

Last night’s potions

The rituals of lust

have faded

angry glaring at me casting evil spells

Envious of my crown of thorns and scars

This shot hits

I step into a dream

Cutting through fog

Blocking spells

I go betwixt this world the next Andromeda

Swimming in absurdity

Spells letters that form (a word) in correct sequence. 2)words, actions, or symbols used to invoke supernatural forces,       spells


 enchanted-6.11.25

throwing spells at me

long legs spreading wide open

enchanted or love


01 November 2025

 Touch and go-29.10.25

flying high

Big spiral circles

Guided by stars and fallen

Floating

Betwixt worlds

Another

Resplendent

Surreal

One brutal savage

Troops attacking cities

Pink tower

This is  space wing Demon 7

coming in fast, hot

Tango Tango Lima

Touch and go

I don’t want to come down

It’s too low


 • Buzzed-26.10.25

pink spider lays down

this limited time offer

passion buzz


Melancholy lover-25.10.25


Humiliation in darkness and seclusion you stagger home into your bedroom

Practised smile

Hides

As

Much as it

Reveals

Join the prophet of absurdity

Your own personal demon

The C Suite is a prison

I’ll guide through this hell

Smells

of

Chanel Comette and smoke

you don’t have love me, lover

let me hold 

you

 we can talk it out

it will be alright

I’ll fight the monkey with you

Beauty and success 

expensive thing 

Pressure creates 

diamonds and pain

perfection the enemy

I adore your flaws (every perfect thing the monotonous)

I cherish your tears (human is beautiful)

Melancholy lover





 • tragic love-20.10.25

tragic my tragic lover

love that hurts you  as  it heals


cinematic love


 Stormy-5.10.25

outside storms raging


stay in dark sanctuary


can’t rain forever


22 October 2025

 Refugee-22.10.25

that song comes on

Teleports me

She’s 

undulating to music

Lost and found at once

Wet from shower

Shining like a human neon

singing 

A siren song of beauty

Passion

Refuge

in

In an embrace

From

savage

Brutal

Place

Refugee:  forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, savage  and brutal reality of pain and heartbreak

refugee


19 October 2025

 Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

defiance so beautiful

·      tragic,  divine love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Lover-16.10.25

glimmers with quiet

·      defiance so beautiful

·      tragic,  divine love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Havoc-01.10.25

She slipped my leash

Crying havoc

My name

Chaos

I was born for this

The match

Lit her snatch

Together

Erotic riot

Havoc: widespread destruction 2) my new friend


 Mermaids-14.10.25

mermaid blows a kiss

then turns  swims  out to  the sea

watching the  mermaids


 Laisons-14.10.25

There is fire for us

There will be a time for us

It won’t last

But will

Be

Beautiful inferno

Heart

We kiss 

you taste danger

I taste your Shame

Melancholy of   rented room( tastefully decorated and sanitized for your protection

Your midlife antichristis


you’re not protected for this fantasy

fear not

Take this

Liaison: colouring and activities  book

Liaison: 11)a close bond 2)3.Secret sexual relatrionship 


Laison


 Echoes-18.10.25

Beauitiful, tragic, and divine

Us

You want me tobe the hero 

Thats alive at the

End of the movie

I want you redemption your embrace

tonight

 

Echoes of what will never

 be

Echoes: the reflection of  sound 2.) a  parallel or repetition of a, feeling

echoes

 • About last night-19.10.25

echoes of last night

leaving before   the first light

the echoes ringing


12 October 2025

 ·      Musing-16.09.25

·      somehow I know her

 

·      Somebody I never met

 

·      mad bohemian

  Starvibg-13.09.25

· gives herself to him
· whilst starving I am starve here
· she gives it away

 side peace-02.10.25

my weapons armor 

outside

find serenity in your embrace

sanctuary in your bed

lost and found 

in

My beautiful side peace


 Havoc-01.10.25

She slipped my leash

Crying havoc

My name

Chaos

I was born for this

The match

Lit her snatch

Together

Erotic riot

Havoc: widespread destruction 2) my new friend


 The dark cocktail hour of Soul-7.10.25

l here is a loneliness 

so strong it has no name(it

The sadness that screams so loudly

it causes mermaids to weep

I have heard nothing I drink 

I stare into  

the emptiness 

the  cold

of space

put a record on the turntable

pour another drink

dark cocktail hour

of 

soul



 Flashing-07.10.25

a flash of kismet

a flash of cool connexon

flashes lighting the night


 


Absurd love 11.10.25

The prophet Absurdity calls you

Comfort and safety

Of your bougee life

Suffocate your soul

Come to me Angel

Your demon lover

See’s past

Your long legs

See’s past

World class pussy

Sees into your 

Soul that glistens like a star

Hitting me like a new drug

Denounce thy name

If only for a night

Absurdity: the quality or state of being ridiculous or wildly unreasonable  2) a philosophy 



30 September 2025

 Swim-30.09.25

Past Euston station

Where mermaids traded fins for long legs

Swim with me  dolly