vealpen Z

Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

30 August 2025

 Thunder-21.08.25

Dry y lighting tonight

followed  soaking rain

waiting on thunder

 low-22.08.25

driving this flesh suit

always in shadows

nnver seeing the light

it’s low

low

low

Wanna break out right now

break through

the other side

So low 

Demon chasing

angels

myths

joy

Toss this flesh suit

Ravaged

By

Highs

Lows

Only

 Cry to heaven-27.08.25

Rifle fire through a stained-glass window

children’s bodies

Litter church

Horror splattered

On screens

Repeated

Over

And over

A country

Loves guns more than children

Makes a demon cry to heaven

 Rendezvous-24.08.25

we  were  to go swimming

I dreamt of us at the 105th street conservatory

Going uptown

me you in the light

I woke to the shadows

Thinking of

Our next rendezvous

  I fixed

waiting for

just a little joy

rendezvous : pre-arranged meeting, often romantic or clandestine, between two people

 

 

 Off-29.08.25

You won’t know

demon eyes-dead

Medicine-numb

Heart wounded

Staggering

Staring at the night sky

Fancying truth and existence

Other unknowns in

The beauty of night

Want underground

6 ft deep

Just off

Off: feeling worse than usual; unsatisfactory or inadequate. 2)something  having gone bad

 

 

 

 Firing squaud-30.08.25

not  alone

I smile at her like a forest of mannequins

Just lonely

echo won’t call my name

Muse just a memory-the flame that guides

’Tension!

only

Ready!

love

Aim!

can save me

Fire!

Love is the only strategy for survival


21 August 2025

 nausea and funk-17.07.25

Feels like  a hole

torn asunder

time and space continuum

motion sickness( no Dramamine® 

 strong enough)

betwixt planes

blue mermaid’s

pink spiders

black dog

white China

nausea

nausea: a feeling of sickness or queasiness, a strong feeling of disgust or revulsion, and figurative uses related to unpleasant experiences or situations


 


Dreamer-21.07-,25

Real enough to touch

Beautiful , sexy cool enough to dream about

dreaming


 Coma-30.06.25

 days coma

Chatting with blue and my Botticelli

3 days on the other side

Feeling Mumsy pushing back

Waking

Psychedelic tiger fur pulsing

Nurse like pinup

Coma :unconsciousness where a person is alive but unable to move or respond  to their environment  2 ) a place betwixt worlds

coma


 junky’s 2.5.24

Think us romantic

We’re just addicted love

Mainlining sex  each other


 psychologist hedonic-17.08.25

long hair and high dress


sweet and salty taste


she's high as her dress and  heels

Dreams

Come

From

Such early songs

A left that would lift

A telecaster

That guided

Some where

Betwixt

Eaven and h


 Cosmic-18.08.25

Cosmic waves bring us together -

That song

You dancing

Like  Venus in LBD

Somewhere. in the cosmo’s

Those versions of us

Exists

 will always exist

Lost and found in each other

cosmic: immeasurably extended in time and space; vast 

 Dragon-19.08.25

Enter the dragon

gripping pink dragon hot  wet

your night  stands ready


 Miracle?-19.08.25

Do Angels exist?


Seeing you I think maybE


kiss me miracle


07 June 2025

 swimming on  D-day-06.06.25

Muse is on the beach(waiting to be stormed)

laughing

rearranging

me words

rearranging

me colours

maniacal laughter

Like stars in the Milky Way

breathless  passion 

Swimming

in

Stars

Swimming

in

absurdity

Swimming

in

joy

swimming

in

Each other

Because

We can’t

Say love

We’ll

Name it

Swimming: propelling oneself through water 2) going  through different things

swimming


24 May 2025

 fixing-264.05.25

her tanned toned taught thighs

already  know how  it ends

so here we again

14 May 2025

 Relapsing-14.05.25

Here you come again

I know better

Pavlovian response(flashing on us kitchen floor )

How we came together(ravenous)

How we came apart( blue bunny prophesied)

Now a fix then back to him

Relapse: relapse: break up with someone, only to have sex  2) person who's trying to stop using drugs  start using again

Relapse is part of recovery

relapsing


08 May 2025

                                                           C suite confessional-cinco-25

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

Her heart pierced by t traitorous fools

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

 Stormy morning-07.05.25

Artillery sounds

waking different space place

she pulls me back here

03 May 2025

 Smoking-18.05.25

as I am smoking

end of my pipe dragon forms

I can never catch


 Gravity-mayday-25

spiralling  towards

andromeda

This galaxy

Has me

Low low

benediction absolution

In a bikini( the dream made flesh)

Free  

Ground control 

learned for take off( never fancied your type, anyway

Slagging off gravity

Brings me

Gravity: the force that attracts a body toward the centre of the earth 2) gravitas ‘weight, seriousness’, from gravis ‘heavy’.

down

down

no gravity 

falling


leash slipped( cry havoc!)


flying 

wrapped up 


 Sphinx-25.04.25

sphinx in underground


not protected fantasy


riddle me love


 Musing-02.05.25

Layer cake on Pluto

Muse hits like China White

skin on skin sin on sin

flying

swimming

Through space,  time,  traffic lights

Like gases becoming stars