vealpen Z

Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

16 October 2024

 contemplating-18.10.24

contemplating 

muse 

improbity of existence 

mysteries of her landing strip

we communicate in dreams

blue bunny calling me

But double moon and we need to play

hot mess 

Blows up

iPhone

aeries full moon she  says

passion

intense

contemplating  

being nothingness and the fine art of seduction

sacred journeys

to another  level of consciousness 

Contemplation, which is when you focus intently on a question, idea, religious concept or muse

Muse contemplates the complications of a lover

Contemplating 

Psychomancy

Absurdity

Union of souls



13 October 2024

 Magic and muse-13.10.24

musing on mermaids

meditations on magic

wishing  an angel

12 October 2024

 levitating-11.10.24

love is angel

wrapped in fire

wrapped in the desire

holding us tight

until

light

Angel

Commands

feed the hunger

that has left us ravenous

That is  fire

that keeps

us

alive

that has 

us 

Levitating: to rise or float in the air, defying gravity 2) rise above

levitating

skating 

on the milky way

levitating

beyond


09 October 2024

 Carousel horses-09.10.24

U up?

When did we become

Carousel horses

Go round and round 

without

Reaching the end

Racing the same creatures

We need an escape 

Can’t be 

Carrousel horse

Poseidon

Waves his trident 

we emerge from the surf 

Running free

Carousel : galloper, roundabout is a large, circular machine with seats, often in the shape of horses. People  sit and go around and around


Carousel horses

 never again


06 October 2024

 Coffee date


“Of course, I care, but are we a thing?” I recall one date.

“We are intimate” she answers in a low tone as if through clenched teeth.

” I just didn’t realize you thought of me that way, I am chuffed” I answer.

“I mean calls, that are long conversations of as you say, cabbages, and Kings. The other things weree nice too.” Tyler Now smiling coquettishly.

I take the coffee and a cup of drip with an espresso shot. From her hands. I turn towards the table where Jana waits.

Over my shoulder, I say, “Smoke break gorilla glue.” My phone vibes. And I don’t have to look at it yes.

“After a short conversation, Jan is off to her next stop. She shows me her calendar. I went over my allotted unit. I walk her to her car. We make plans for a trip to the museum, but that will not happen. That will never happen, no heat, no flames.  I cross back to the coffee shop.  

Tyler greets me” If you were fucking with me about the about the gorilla glue!

“Never my love” I answer stepping into a warm Hug. 

“You smell amazing “I whisper nibbling her ear lobe.

“Right coffee and sweat, does she smell of dryer sheets & Clinique?” Tyler said cologne? Tyler said.  “She looks like Bridge and Tunnel squeezing in a quickie, with punk Bukowski between breakfast and yoga, then back to Mr sensible.”

“I am not aware of her schedule I answer still laughing. “Anyway, just a coffee date, it won’t repeat, No chemistry, no point.

“You know that in 10 minutes? 

“Aye, I knew the minute our eyes met.

I knew when she ordered no make-up, checking her phone constantly. On Saturday morning. I am guessing you were worked in, and Dude you’re all or nothing. Remember our first date? Tyler says smiling. ‘Followed by our first breakfast.”  One minute we’re hanging out at an art show, next playing. Getting to know you.


“I remember Your flatmate asking if I was your uncle?” I answer laughing.

“She was mensing then, we went swimming., and you answered she must have a very close family,” Tyler said laughing.

“Would you fancy, a coffee date? “I ask.

“Poolside, my place? Tyler answers.v

“Sounds brilliant” answer 
















 Cemetery-06.10.24

driving past the cemetery

the one

where we 

Made love

On a lost afternoon 

Just before we lost each other

only find each other

Different times

Different places

And in the 

Cemetery: a tract of land used for burials 2( Something that people are dying to get into

cemetery


24 September 2024

 love vandals-24.09.24

dream? fragments 

Tiger green eyes glowing 

From a fire within 

A break from

Hhgh cost of living theatre

ä break From the regime of 

 0rdinary

Destroying reality

Destroying space 

Destroying time 

to swim in 

the clear light

Vandal: a person who damages public or private property 2)Germanic people that sacked Rome in AD 455.

Love vandals


23 September 2024

 baked-23.09.24

she pinged you?

My slag tag as   you say 

type 

She will smell 

US

Musky  smoke

Sheets 

Hearts 

Catch a fire in the night


survival alarm my body goes tense 

wrapped in  arms.

After the fire

Waking 

Baked :cooked in an oven. 2)under the influence of a drug(or lover)

baked