vealpen Z

Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

14 December 2025

 silence 13.11.25

sweet screaming

breaking the silence

silence like the vacuum of space

cold and empty

bringing warmth

Silence :1)complete absence of sound 2)supress or prevent the expression

breaking the silence


13 December 2025

 value-22.09.20

no

mirror

just close your eyes

feel your

POWER

feel your

BEAUTY

feel your

SOUL

from depth of underground

where poppies are the only light

art the only love

I see you shining

you could never stay

here

it’s dark

the judgements

like my shots

final

you’re too good

for us

for one

day

for one

night

I would

give

all      I have

the

theatre of pain

smiling like  a field of mannequins

in reality chambering round

in defence from reality

I  know what

you don’t


Value: he importance, worth, or usefulness of something  or someone

Your value


  

Beauty marks-03.02.25

Red scratches

Line me  back

Proof of our passion

linch in the shower  a sting   awake

Every love

Leaves a mark

Ink

Is getting off easy

I will cherish the

Abstract of  the night

When you fucked me

Like it was my last night on earth

Beauty  marks

 

 C suite confessional-cinco-25

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

Her heart pierced by t traitorous fools

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

12 December 2025

 cause Jim Hatchett blocked us-20.11.25(even though he didn’t)

The doctor/shaman I shared much

Pollack’s daughter

A belief in art and things unseen

Visions

Lust for life

Love of art

A working knowledge of has operated recoilless semi-auto rifles

Pouring a drink to fill the empty

Needing a dime bag


 


Limerence -30.11.25

RAW desire

bleeding

billion torches burning for unrequited love

that never comes

losing game

some bougie bird thinks she know’s

 don’t want to come down

this kit better than her

Limerence: A state of intense, involuntary romantic obsession 2)RAW desire


 • Bambina-05.12.25

Statuesque lover

signora  Avant garde  style 

ciao bambina bella


 Memories  and scars-8 12.35


Sipping my methadone

Under a brutally bright sun

Back against a wall

Habits reflexes die  hard

You people

Never been in a fire fight


Flashes in the night


Smell of gunpowder hanging heavy in the night air

Taste of blood  bullets find

Me again and again

Memories included with scar’s ( pay only shipping)


 Fire dancer-9.12.25

weapons grade body

dancing for desire

fire blazing warms me


 Siren-11.12.25

I heard your voice

lifting me challenging me

to be better  me


 Snapshot-11.12.25

Your picture

I already have it

Big warm soul

Dancing green eyes

A fire burning brightly

And yes, shell is sexy pretty

And that is a favorite snapshot

Snapshot: capturing a real, unfiltered moment 2) An unplanned picture taken quickly, like a "point-and-click" photo


15 November 2025

 Eulogy for Jim Carroll & Charles Bukowski-15.11.25

Pink spider slides

Out of her T and cutoffs 

her back resplendent

A mermaid tattoo the length of her spine you like Papi?

Took months

Magic is this night

Sainte Sirène

Must love me (sensual saint swimming in this poem)

Angels sing

As foretold

By artists, poets & prophets (literally same thing)


 Ride-15.11.25

Papi why you wait

ride it like you stole it love

me bucking bronco


06 November 2025

 spells-5.11.25

Pink spider Casting spells

Fog

Maybe salvation doesn’t come in white robes

But

LBD and stilettos’

Last night’s potions

The rituals of lust

have faded

angry glaring at me casting evil spells

Envious of my crown of thorns and scars

This shot hits

I step into a dream

Cutting through fog

Blocking spells

I go betwixt this world the next Andromeda

Swimming in absurdity

Spells letters that form (a word) in correct sequence. 2)words, actions, or symbols used to invoke supernatural forces,       spells


 spells-5.11.25

Pink spider Casting spells

Fog

Maybe salvation doesn’t come in white robes

But

LBD and stilettos’

Last night’s potions

The rituals of lust

have faded

angry glaring at me casting evil spells

Envious of my crown of thorns and scars

This shot hits

I step into a dream

Cutting through fog

Blocking spells

I go betwixt this world the next Andromeda

Swimming in absurdity

Spells letters that form (a word) in correct sequence. 2)words, actions, or symbols used to invoke supernatural forces,       spells


 enchanted-6.11.25

throwing spells at me

long legs spreading wide open

enchanted or love


01 November 2025

 Touch and go-29.10.25

flying high

Big spiral circles

Guided by stars and fallen

Floating

Betwixt worlds

Another

Resplendent

Surreal

One brutal savage

Troops attacking cities

Pink tower

This is  space wing Demon 7

coming in fast, hot

Tango Tango Lima

Touch and go

I don’t want to come down

It’s too low


 • Buzzed-26.10.25

pink spider lays down

this limited time offer

passion buzz


Melancholy lover-25.10.25


Humiliation in darkness and seclusion you stagger home into your bedroom

Practised smile

Hides

As

Much as it

Reveals

Join the prophet of absurdity

Your own personal demon

The C Suite is a prison

I’ll guide through this hell

Smells

of

Chanel Comette and smoke

you don’t have love me, lover

let me hold 

you

 we can talk it out

it will be alright

I’ll fight the monkey with you

Beauty and success 

expensive thing 

Pressure creates 

diamonds and pain

perfection the enemy

I adore your flaws (every perfect thing the monotonous)

I cherish your tears (human is beautiful)

Melancholy lover





 • tragic love-20.10.25

tragic my tragic lover

love that hurts you  as  it heals


cinematic love


 Stormy-5.10.25

outside storms raging


stay in dark sanctuary


can’t rain forever


22 October 2025

 Refugee-22.10.25

that song comes on

Teleports me

She’s 

undulating to music

Lost and found at once

Wet from shower

Shining like a human neon

singing 

A siren song of beauty

Passion

Refuge

in

In an embrace

From

savage

Brutal

Place

Refugee:  forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, savage  and brutal reality of pain and heartbreak

refugee