Last night started watching Orange is the new Black. I thought after why do I like this show so much? It occurs to me , that Piper Chapman is every woman I have ever been involved with gutsy, smart attractive, felonious,(more than couple of you) has an ex girlfriend(of course.)I love you all, crazy , cool , sexy women make this veil of tears bearable

Sweet one, friend, lover, and comrade in arms.’ Just walk away from posers’, sycophants, and self-important, self-righteous old fucks. They are not worthy of your attentions.
You haver lived the life, and continue to live, dream, and be it. You recognise the sacred music. You both, create it and savour it. You and both have experienced the stigmata and screamed in ecstasy as it appeared on our arms and in our souls.
One day we will storm heavens gates armed with sacred switchblades, clothed in blessed black leather. Punks’ mobs, looking like a cross between the nomads of the “Mad Max,” and “Sid and Nancy.” Refusing to pay cover and demanding, drink tickets. Walking back stage, and chopping heavenly lines. Don’t be angry, but instead pity them, as they have not your grace, beauty, and talent.

30.01.15

I’ve more secrets than MI6

And I thought that had been declassified 

So sorry

Loose lips  sink

hearts

29.01.15

Cold war

Ice cold room, hot coffee

No ones winning here

There’s no heat just ice

And loathing 

Heat I get it’s what we used to be

Cold, detached loathing 

This is just 

An old war

When I leave

Not surrender 

Just acceptance

28.01.15

Am I 

Still your favourite mistake?

Are we still cool?

Actually we have always been

Volcanic

Spontaneous combustion

No quiet longing

Sweaty chemical reaction

I love that about us

I love that we 

Don’t have to talk

Am I still your favourite mistake?

27.01.15

I think of you

Your eyes

It’s a day’s work 

Looking into them

I see who you used to be

Who you’ve become 

People in-between

I see you changing as I watch

Speaking to me in the silence

When you look back 

What do you see?

Who I was?

Who I am?

Are you attracted?

Are you frightened?

Are you repulsed?

Can you see me?

Do you care?

Your eyes 

It’s a day’s work looking into them

26.01.15

It’s not that you love my demons

You don’t it’s that

Sometimes your voice can calm 

All 

Of them

Good Friday 18.04.14

Charleston Heston frees' my ancestors

The Angel death passes me over.

Does she not know how much I love her?

Her beauty flawless, skin perfect, and though she's embraced me many times, I always wake up and she's gone.

13.06 on our anniversary

I remember this day so well

Because I thought this time

You would stay

You held me for days 

kissed me deeply 

Gave me the lead jewel's I still carry

Alas I awoke to cacophony of tubes machines and crying people.

But you were gone!

Death 

the only face I wanted to see

And you abandoned me

I

24.01.15 on 25.01.15

This is when I come awake

Dark from dark

True Night from true night   

I never hid this

I wouldn’t  even if I could 

Don’t worry

The really

Cool thing

Is 

I fade to black 

Quick

I don’t look back 

In anger

I am who you think I am

Adieu Papillion

24.01.15

I hoped

Even though 

I’m  a picture

Of excess

I celebrate my darkness

Yes

I know the choicest parts of hell

I guess you’re frightened

I am not judging

I get it

I just 

As 

Faded and jaded as I am, hoped 

You wouldn’t

And  

Hoped you knew this Vampyre 

Doesn’t harm those he 

Loves

24.01.15 on the morning of 25.01.15 over coffee

I hoped,

Picture excess,

And whispered rumours

I celebrate my darkness,

I hoped you didn’t care

Yes

I know the choicest parts of hell

I hoped you weren’t frightened

I hoped you knew

That, I don’t judge and 

I hoped you didn’t either

I get it

I just 

As 

Faded and jaded as 

I am, hoped 

You wouldn’t be

And  

Hoped you knew this Vampyre 

Doesn’t harm those he 

Loves

I hoped 

That you would see this 

And 

Understand

I hoped you were
really 

My 

Friend

23.01.15

Check mutual attraction

Check the pieces of our pain march

Check our politricks match 

Check  music, and art

Check we’re both cool

Check we’re both twisted

Cool can we just skip the rest

And 

Fall in bed

21.01.15

I know you know

But this just isn’t

A good

Idea

It’s

Not even romantic

Probably

Because

Jaded and faded describes us

Volcanic, and possibly 

Satanic

Does too

Yes, I am a little

Vampyric

A cautionary tale

Of excesses

You

The stunner

Carnivorous

That woman

Both of us unrepentant 

this is a 

Bad idea

20.01.15 later

Heart breaker

Life taker 

You’ve  been warned about me

Some of tat shiat  they talk on E 10th Ave. &

Kings Cross,

It was true.

Do you

Still want

To 

Play?

20.01.16

Who do you think,

I am, 

Because I am not

Sure

Meself

A Miracle

Or

A curse

I’ve

Been 

accused 

of both

Maybe you  could, 

Just  tell

Me

I’ll

Be 

Gone

By morning

anyway

18.01.15

I love 

The way

You greet me

Like

I am some beautiful, talented creature

The way 

You call me an angel headed hipster

With no hint of irony, or sarcasm

The way 

You take me hand

The way

You’re as bright and open

As

I am dark

And obscure 

The way 

You walk with me

As if 

It was a rare honour 

The way 

You’re a little melancholy

As I walk a way

16.01.5 later

I need a drink 

But something stronger would be nice

Moody reading Joyce

Listening to 

Billy Holiday, and Nine Inch nails

If I go out 

My fist might collide

With something or someone

16.01.15

I don’t own you

You Bloody don’t own me

You need him

You want me?

Now practise this 

Wave as I walk by

We’re neighbours in the same 

Manor 

Wave hello

And walk by

Don’t look back

It’s much easier 

Than you think

Love

15.01.15

Sick days

Meant something different

But

Nyquil still works

I laugh and think of

Tube  station Oxford ,

Walk to Soho

09.01.15

Cold, and grey

and I

walk with you again

Through steel and glass canyons

a sick day

Holding each other

In urban armour

Black leather, and sunglasses

Past scathing gazes of

Bare chested amazons 30 stories up

Past nervous tourist

Home to

us

Secret Agent Man-07.03.15

I kept your secrets, and then I keep them now

I loved you, and then I love you now

No, he doesn’t need to know

Not about where you danced, that you danced

Your girlfriend, our girlfriend

I see you

I taste your kiss

Her kiss 

Vodka and gauloises

I hear loud angry music

And I nod and keep walking

A stranger pretending

Your secrets

Safe

05.01.15

never so alone as I’m

with you

Ice

Berlin in winter was warmer

Looks, and word you give me

I have been in friendlier battles

Never so

Isolated

Never so

Sad 

Never so 

In need of drink

Never so in need 

Of a fix 

Never so gone

As I’m with you

father

Our father's--.01.15

heavy smokers

hard drinkers

combat ribbons