Dreams-16.06.23

she lays down with me

last night dreamed someone loved me

woke up on my own

 Spoons

Svetlana calls, “Is me Svetlana Popachex “in an accent that says must get squirrel and moose. Picturing her last time, we were together a little black dress smoldering bedroom eyes long leg. It’s been a while.

“Cheers, love. I answer. She’s usually to the point not sure if it’s the language barrier or her personality. On que. 

 

“I need favour, are you alone?” Svetlana asks.

“” Just me and Bowie (my pup) “

“Bowie is girl?” She asks. 

“Bowie is my dog remember; he stole your pump.”

Svetlana giggles and says. I need favour.

“How can help?” I answer.

“Can stay tonight.”

“OK” I answer my night just got better pictures of her stepping out of her dress flash across my mind. 

“Yes” I answer. tonight’s looking up.

I give her the full address. Whilst cleaning. The fridge has mixers and not much else I can order when she arrives.  Put a pillow and sheet on sofa her tone didn’t say, seduction, but more I need a friend. Still the image of her fills my head. I wonder why me; we had a moment nothing serious. Running from or towards?

Bowie barks   I open the door Svetlana cut-offs, halter, and sunglasses a ruck on wheels and a hobo handbag a pouty expression She bites her lip and comes for a hug.  I usher her in Bowie watches us.

” Are you hungry?  I can order whatever you fancy, please sit relax. “I said gesturing towards the sofa.

She sits closes her eyes as she sits on the sofa, and say’s “Ďakujem láska “in her raspy voice.  I remember. She fancied Miles Davis. I put on  “Ascenseur pour l’échafaud” pour her a glass of white Bordeaux.  She takes the glass with a smile twirling a strand of long blonde hair. I don’t ask anything. I don’t need to know. If someone follows, I will sort it then, now she needs peace.  We chat about nothing she looks through my vinyl and selects” Pretty Reckless Death by Rock N Roll” I’ll play as I am queuing album up, she puts the cover next to her face. And said “Ako ja.” 

“Yes, I see Taylor in you” say hoping that’s what she meant. She’s smiling in a way haven’t seen since she came in. n One glass of wine turns into an empty bottle singing along to Pretty Reckless. She looks tired.

 I show her to the bedroom. today was wash so clean sheets clean towels., and robe.  She sits on the bed and kicks off wedge espadrilles and lays back.

“If you need anything I’ll be on the sofa “

“No, she pats bed. ”OK We make spoons?” She says for the first time there’s need in her voice. 

“I can do that.” I answer there a lot worse things in life than, laying next to a beautiful woman. I might take a cold shower first. She points at the bathroom opens her ruck extracts some things   walks to bathroom. I let Bowie out and walk back she’s coming out of the bathroom she’s wearing panties. Looking every bit 30 something Taylor. I lay in bed she lays down. She scoots next to me. I put my arms around her she presses against me. He warmth feels good. This lasts a while in dark quiet. Laying the smell of her and the soft feel of her skin. She spins around.  

“Enough spoon!  rob ma ako kurvu!” 

I have no idea what she’s   saying but the panties are gone, and she put my hand on her breast and working her way down me moans turn to growls turns to screams until we’re exhausted sweaty and crash.

” Kava! wakes me Svetlana is holding a cup of coffee. “The morning light gives her an ethereal glow like a nude angel. Strange waking up to someone other than Bowie. Would you like to like to shower?”

“Ja” she takes me by the hand. Leading me adjusting the water we wash each slowly with tenderness we towel. Each other dry we kiss gently. I watch her dress apply make-up. Silence save for Coltrane’s A Love Supreme. The silence isn’t uncomfortable. She packs her ruck I offer to carry to her car; she waves me off at the door. She pauses and says” One day I tell you everything thank you.”

“No, I take you as you come Bowie and I keep secrets. Come by anytime.  Bowie and really like you I say. The door closes I take my coffee to the sofa and start writing.

I like you.

“

 Alfie-22.06.23

what are we doing?

what do we call this thing  love?

how about Alfie?

 silent voyeur-24.06-23

the arched hallway

Graceful stretches

graceful poses

leg hold

Pointe

voyeur

my lover in an unguarded moment

last night

Me shoulders barre

Years  of practice

By  the Danube

Body’s strong

beauty

Passion

Voyeur: a person who gains pleasure from watching others 2  50 metres away calling  coordinates for mop up

silent   voyeur ( lest I break the spell)

 heretics  in heaven-14.06.23

Jesus wept

A joy bang would sorted  it

Heretics  R us

derelict

vagabonds

Staggering

Bound to

Us

Bound

fly

flying

High

Let’s get higher

desire

Your fire long legs pulling me

Into the inferno

Flames consume

Us

Clouds assume

us

Heretics : person who differs in opinion from established religious dogma  nonconformistmist

heretics in heaven

 Waiting room-16.06.23

hear that voice,

rifles on rock n roll

If it moves it's a legal target if it doesn't it's a legal target

God has mercy we don’t

fuck its mine

would rather be there

Than missing you

That hollow ache

That nothing can fill( have tried )

Waiting room for heaven

Is

Hell

DMZ’s

ER’s

Shooting galleries

Crackteria

Waiting Room is the virtual limbo of seemingly never-ending muzak you are often sent to when at a doctor’s office or Government agency.

Miss you girl( whispered prayer)

Waiting room

spinning vinyl 

scotch rocks 

hollow

 My kind 10.06.23

angels, true love obsession

Passion always in fashion

Cowgirl rode me in reverse

A mermaid swim away

Deadly love letters

Eyes lock

Recognise her

A primal contract

Eyes lock

Recognise her(in clouds?)

A primal contract

Primal contact

devouring  each other

Come

where

Vinyl plays

Let it happen!

Light house?

I see

into the dark

running down

This was nothing

This is EVERYTHING

Mona Lisa thighs

yoga limber

growls

Screams

Long red fingernails   claw my back

Heaven arriving

Little deaths

Sexy , Seraphim

Celestial pleasure

Kind: quality of being friendly, generous, and considerate. People or things having similar characteristics.

She’s my kind

 Stigmata-03.06.23

lover in me bed

gun to me heart

falling apart

becoming a part of

share me disease

you’ll soon be perfect

just like me

stigmata can’t be covered with filers, Botox, or yoga

high street we should meet

Ravenous heat

So fucking sweet(life force)

Sweet fucking(life force)

Stigmata : 1)bodily marks, scars, or pains corresponding to those of the crucified Jesus 2) a mark of disgrace 

stigmata

 Shelter-31.05.23

stand behind me

I’ll take the hit

stop fists

stop knives

Stop bullets

Stop lives

Can’t kill

What’s dead

you’re so small in  my arms

Wet hair

Pumps in hand

So tiny

Baby baby

Though you have your own

Eyes moist, hazel , vulnerable

you’re  strong

Lean on me

I am here

Catch you if you fall

Have your 6

Shelter: a place giving temporary protection from bad weather or danger

I am shelter