Heartbroken-28.02.24

There are only 2 kinds of people

not race, nor gender

Those who have had their heart broken

those who haven’t had their heart broken

have time is marked before broken heart

and after broken heart

they be come phantasm 

goad fighters (can’t kill what’s dead can’t hurt what is numb)

each blow letting pain to surface

taking solace in loose exile

playing underground swimming in secret seas

becoming urban legend 

loving (no better lover than a ravenous wraith)

leaving before dawn

because nothing matters

Heart Broken: expressing sorrow especially that associated with irreparable loss 2) existential tiorture

Heart broken

bloom -23.02.24.

little red flowers

Cloudy skies part

Surfacing for love

 

 gone-22.02.24

If phone doesn’t ring

It’s me gone baby gone

losing game you me

 stuffed animal rescue squad-21.02.24

Kicking

sugary addiction

I this was never me

It always starts  with petite mort

Ends 

A quiet death

Exquisite sadness of desire

going back to my vocation 

Stuffed animal rescue squad 

Next time he’s distant 

You’ll call

I’ll be 

Here

Stuffed animal rescue squad

 

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

A+-02.20.24

our Illicit tryst

full of shame and arousal

my scarlet letter

 dreaming-21.10.22

Close my eyes words flow

Over the lids

I want to dreams

Are the only place

We exist in the same place

The conservatory gardens @105th in Central Park -where I  would have a cigarette with St Jill on our way to the man in central Harlem

In dreams you join me there

The double helix the pattern

Of

Star nebula 

Of

Ying and yang

Of

Sex

Wrapping my troubles in dreams

For   a hot minutes  long time. if you ain’t seen someone in a while or if you ain’t been someplace in a while or done something in a while it will be hot

 Idiosyncratic  affair 04.02.24

we come

Together

in  passion-volcanic

in darkness -lost souls

Leave separately-this isn’t forever -now is good

in

darkness strangers again

Affair :act of which a person in a committed relationship or marriage isn’t faithful to their partner. It can be an emotional or sexual.

Your average volcanic

 idiosyncratic affair

Thirsty-03.03.24

Licking honey off

your mons Venus’s sweet

Drinking Ambrosia

 

 Symbols 03.02.24

I cry out your “secret” name

symbol of intimacy 

no difference waking

or dreaming

spontaneous combustion

psychic  maps

lead me to you

I make love to your essence, even as You keep a distance 

symbol of fear or distaste

May this mingling of the Body and Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ bring eternal life to us who receive it?’

Symbol of faith

symbols to absorb 

symbols to reject 

a kiss

symbol of love

Symbol: something that is recognized to represent a certain idea generally 

Walking away

A symbol of no longer giving a fuck

 The janitor of absurdity-02.02.24

Night shift 

Wonderland

By order of the Queen of Hearts

Mop up Aisle 3

Mop up om aisle 3! Reality bleeding all over the floor!

Go time!

REALITY IS A LEGAL TARGET

GET SOME1

Lunatic mop  drawn fire upon  reality 

Reality  turning into lightly salted  popcorn

Another mess gone

Janitor: a person employed as a caretaker of a building; a custodian 2) caretaker

Janitor of absurdity

Hot coffee-17.12.23

her short silky robe

her taut thighs make promises

hot coffee a friend

 Ride/27.01.02.24

white horse ran in from China

We slice with

Razor

Put in glassine bags

 can't

Kill the beast

 we ride

 Muñeca-28.01

muñeca is home

Country in her arms  and eyes

Heaven betwixt  legs

 Redemption30.01.24

Stalked By her Doppelgänger

Longing and shadow

Takes me to her web

Love, faith and porn

ecstatic  visions

most eloquent prayer of all.

Poppies on the duvet

Revelling in the fire

Washing me clean

 count on it-31.01.24
She loved the numbers
believed one plus one was two
He knew equalled one