Materialize-28.07.22

come to me

this waiting 

so very Kafkaesque lust dance

Godot may never come

need twisted romance

Let this materialize

Materialize: become fact; happen. 2) a spirit, or similar entity) appear in bodily form

Create it

In concert

Let me carry

That weight

For you  

Fear self-doubt

Weigh you down 

Saint: a person heroic sanctity” is holy 2) biker nickname

Maybe the saint

You need 

the one 

We 

Become

We

 materialize

 Night swim-31.07.22

really cheating

called her your name mermaid love

sensual night swim

 You look like rain-24.07.22

losing war

not a hot war

just a Cold War 

Fagged and shagged I stumble into bodega stagger into   

Stumbled

Walking these streets 

Cigarette soggy in the rain 

Needing a fix or a dream

Nobody’s going to save 

Me soul

ainn’t got one

I stumble into a bodega point at the cigarettes slide crumpled bills the young clerk (I was that young yesterday, next year)

She speaks 

tu ressembles à la pluie 

head scarf, smoky eyes

accent say Algiers (land of Camus)

 song-25.07.22

Kurt Cobain

Amy Winehouse

Are alive 

And well

Exploring the universe

They will

Bew going out far 

Beyond the prying eyes of the James Webb Telescope

To the origins of the universe (God? Flying Spaghetti Monster? The Dude)

They will report back in 1000 years 

In song

 Absolved 26.05.22

Sobs gently

Staring at

Photo

of me

Of what I was?

Who I Was?

We were?

I hold her 

Tears salty holy water  

Absolved: confession, or penance, is a sacrament. The power to absolve lies with the priest, who can grant release from the guilt of sin to sinners who are truly contrite, confess their sins, and promise to perform satisfaction to God.

Absolving me 

for becoming monstrous

 Recon by fire-2.07.22

Don’t Know what I 

hunger for

Scream for

Dream for 

Scheme for 

Know how to get it

1 step forward

2 steps back

Lacks passion 

Games we can’t win

Reconnaissance by fire is a warfare tactic fire on likely enemy positions to have enemy reveal itself by returning fire toss a grenade see what comes out

Recon by fire

 Morning hakui-19.07.22

She gives us a taste

Anxiety fear  hold her

I want more more more

 Burn-18.07.22

I will burn

Burn :produce flames and heat while consuming material

Your fire

Draws me

Like a junkie moth

Seeking a purple wife

Turn your flames on me

I dive in

Because everyone dies

I dive in

Because not everyone lives (zombie’s going through the motions)

Better to burn

 Love story-10.07.22

Marry; not likely

Kill; impossible

Fuck; your fire conjured me 

a

love story

Marry Kill or fuck: “rules" of the game included an understanding that the player cannot have sex with the person they marry, and that the person they do choose to have sex with, they can only have sex with one time. 

 Sunday morning haiku 10.07.22

Her body is everything

Transcending sobriety

Absurd sensual love

 Valhalla-30.06.22

My love 

My sex

my heart

my cowgirl

my mermaid

my goddess

Valkyrie means "chooser of the slain who guide the souls of deceased.

My Valkyrie

she’s on fire 

 fixing standing in her fire

madness and crazy in the head

crazy in the bed

she’s burning

with desire

she’s burning

with talent

she’s burning

with beauty

she’s burning with passion

Viking Funeral: Cremation (often upon a funeral pyre) 

a Viking funeral

Valhalla

I am coming