Lilith-24.05.21

holding onto Lilith

Lilith, female demonic figure of Jewish folklore. 2)She is the ex-wife (first wife) of Adam, the first human, wife of Lucifer, queen of hell

Old soul

Mystical woman-child

couldn’t

hold on

too

So

Went

Underground

So low

So high

Rebel angel

asked me for

Smoke

Said call me Nico

no cash

She produced a match

You don’t need any smiling

What pulls me

To Lilith

Is what pulls

me to madness

Nico says

GO

where

Day before yesterday

Laying back wings spread

To whom you were

To whom you will be

Lilith can wait

 Mean 19.05.21

mean can describe someone who's stingy, angry and cold  2)importance to (someone/mermaid/pink spider), object of affection. 3) signify

Mean

So much

To

MEAN

So little

To her

Covax, the global vaccine-sharing program, will receive about 200 million doses of the Johnson and Johnson vaccine

Intoxicated

I read the Holy books

I contemplated n existence & nothingness

I found God and all of the devil's inside of her.

Intoxicated

I let her swim away

liberated

If you know

what

I mean

 Copping-17.05.21

Waking

Not at peace

Rockets and airstrikes light the skies over Gaza-genocide

HOLLOW

Coughing

RAW

NEED

Monkey screaming

Cop: to get hold of catch, capture also: purchase

Needing to cop

A fix

Dope: a drug taken illegally for recreational purposes, typically heroin. 2) you think something, or someone is cool

A hand pulls me into the shower

My dope

Pulls me inside

RAVENOUS

Steam from her fire

Water splashing

Erotic baptism

Kiss

embrace

The monkey quits 

screaming 

clawing

biting

Blood surging

oxytocin

endorphins

redemption

straight 

to

dope 

centre 

of the

soul

copping my fix

 Redemption prayer-09.05.21

looking for answers on a Sunday morning 

looking for a   fix in this underground existence

Redemption: belief in the idea that humanity can be saved from sin - redeemed

seeking redemption in these dirty sheets

Transfiguration: 1) a change in form or appearance:2) metamorphosis. 3) an exalting, glorifying, or spiritual change. 4)  climax of sexual encounter characterized by feelings of pleasure, dopamine, epinephrine

looking for transfiguration in betwixt sweaty thighs

 watch-04.05.21

It’s fact

on the day my lover   left  for the other side

seagulls

plucked her eyes out and flew them

to Paris showing her

Notre Dame

the Louvre

then flew

over the pyramids

flew them over the Vatican

to the coast leaving

them

Watch: watching or observing someone or something closely; alert and vigilant

to watch over

dolphins

watch over

artist

watch over

children

watch over

me

 Gone-01.05.21 

funeral pyres turn the Indian night into day

never wanted to be your part-time   lover

I only wanted to be some kind of friend

Love

 could never steal you from another 

come to  me

when you feel me

flee me when you don’t

feel me

love me when I am 

Gone:no longer present; departed 2)  completely high and/or intoxicated to a point of no return 3)lost in love/ cool /art/music

gone