Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

30 November 2016

30.11.16
I am 
a spy in
the land 
of 
living
I
 deliver them
To
DEATH

29 November 2016

28.11.16-shades
bleak day
Skies turn 
Gloomy dark
Smoke
a
 flash
So happy 
You came
You’re so light
Loveliest of my shades
I carry 
you 
EASILY
I carry
you
HAPPILY 
I carry 
you
ALWAYS
Stay  a while
my Botticelli 
my shade 

27 November 2016

27.11.16—tiger
alone
far gone
friends
camera-eyes
underground
woman
becomes
a tiger
caged too long
released
tiger
growling
yowling
clawing
biting
beautiful
free

26 November 2016

26.11.16-fuel
You can’t come there 
With me
It’s dark and dangerous
severe
no need to carry it
and you can’t
RAGE AND PAIN 
fuel
ME 
walk on 
I understand
NOT surprised
don’t  worry
it’s
fuel

25 November 2016

24.11.16-gorgeous filthy
jack & coke
coke
her cleavage
are all hitting at once
she’s gorgeous
in 
bombshell  way
filthy
in 
a  
ride it like stole it way
filthy
and 
 gorgeous
raining down 
like
sexy supernova

23 November 2016

23.11.16-Maid of Orleans
watching  Joan of Arc
getting dressed  
dark ,hair blazing eyes
bob  hair cut
ink  on her ribs-
I am not frightened
I was born for this
last night
After the screams and growls 
became
soft moans
Became sleep
she dreamt
NOT 
Being
the Maid of Orleans
la Marianne
of 
wearing white
growing her hair out
dancing at a festival 
men in   power 
Will turn on her
Men in power 
will burn her at the stake
refuge in bed
sanctuary
for
a
moment
from 
from flames
from  battles
from destiny
from sainthood


20 November 2016

19.11.16-rumour
heaven is just a rumour
when 
you live in hell
I know him
he cast me 
HERE
guilty
of
being strong
of
being intelligent
of
being attractive
of being ME
HE said 
REPENT 
still don’t
know
what he meant
loose exile
with rebel angels
I don’t 
believe
in rumour’s

18 November 2016

18.11.16- I didn’t know
I didn’t know
I was lonely
Until 
I slept with you
I didn’t know
I was starving 
Until
I tasted you
I didn’t know
I was dreaming
Until
I saw you





17 November 2016

17.11.16-under the influence
Blue bunny
Calling me
Rabbit hole 
I emerge 
So 
Welcoming
Entangling me like a new drug
Open arms and legs
NOW
Shedding 
Histories
Futures
Sweet candy
And
I am
Under the influence



15 November 2016

15.11.16-stolen
give  me words!
she pleas through tired eyes
The other 
Makes 
guttural Russian noises and writhes 
rhythmically
both
Are in heat
Both
Are feral
both
Are stolen

14 November 2016

12.11.16-broken
when they broke Angels wings
they awakened
the demon
emerging
from underground
screaming
for
BLOOD
VENGANCE
Embracing 
Angel 
stole her secrets
their weight
kissed her bloody wounds
fed her 
vampyric blood
to fill 
cracks In her 
heart
soul
eating bitterness
stole her worries
their weight
angel 
flew
high
demon
sank
underground
 a little 
broken

12.11.16-broken
when they broke Angels wings
they awakened
the demon
emerging
from underground
screaming
for
BLOOD
VENGANCE
Embracing 
Angel 
stole her secrets
their weight
kissed her bloody wounds
fed her 
vampyric blood
to fill 
cracks In her 
heart
soul
eating bitterness
stole her worries
their weight
angel 
flew
high
demon
sank
underground
 a little 
broken

09.11.16-resistance
 how long
blue steel
constant companion
 I was 
the chosen one
Best and brightest
Justified
this morning
fascists
on the streets
hate 
it in the 
air
got my gun
chambered a round 
Something changed 
I summoned
 the desolation angels
Fascist in the streets
clean kill
legal targets
training grounds
alphabet city
shepherds bush
algiers
it was always going to 
be this way
end
this way 
urban guerrillas
emerging from the mists of dawn
fading into the city
to
fight
for a new  day
we are
your neighbours
we are
your sisters
your  brothers
your hope
we are resistance 

12 November 2016

12.11.16-linger
She’s
NO
small talk
future expectations
promises in the dark
keeps her secrets close
still
kisses me
goodbye
hoping
it lingers

12.11.16-linger
She’s
NO
small talk
future expectations
promises in the dark
keeps her secrets close
still
kisses me
goodbye
hoping
it lingers

10 November 2016

 Like you hate me; not a love story in two acts.

 “I love this song! The svelte blonde tells me whiskey rocks in hand dancing in place, as” Hunger Strike” plays; “I’m Lisa ” she adds as an afterthought.
“Hi Lisa, having a good night?”
“Let’s see it’s Friday, I threw my husband Monday My kids ask for him, but I just met you so, it's a wash, “Lisa says with a sarcastic laugh. I signal for a refill I finish my drink in one long gulp
“That’s fucked.”
She laughs; you didn’t run “ she answers laughing it's a challenge she laughs.
I pass her a cocktail napkin, “these are all the things I am scared of.” I say
    She examines the napkins and flips its over. “”It’s blank,” Lisa said.
“By George, you’ve got it!” I answer “tell me about you?”
” My name is Lisa Beauchamp    “ My name is Lisa Ann Traveller I am 27 I work as an editor, and sometime writer at Nassau County News I have 3 kids, and until Monday I was married to a below average man who was an above average father.”
    That’s what you are bridge and tunnel frustrated wife, mother, now ex-wife. Conscientious mother and neighbour fit toned yoga body. I knew that when you walked in this place.  Warning; I won’t be validating emotions and feelings.  
“I didn’t drive into the city for that, She said leaning against me.
“Why did, you come?” I ask nibbling her neck.
    “I have been rationing my pussy because he didn’t deserve, I knew he was doing that fat cow.” She says going stiff then wrapping around me.
“I deserve it??” I ask,
No, but there’s a connection, and right now that’s all I need“ She answers.
“My place, which you realize is a forest of books, and art.
“My children are home, so the another option is the car and it’s a bit chilly. “ She says.
“I live around the way, ”I said she takes my hand. We walk no nervous small talk.
This is it. I say pointing at my building. She takes both my hands faces me and says” I haven’t been properly fucked in months. This is important, can you just fuck me like you hate me?”
“Ok,” I answer. We walk up to me flat.
“I have been numb so long I just want to feel something she says and kisses me at my door placing my hand on her breast. Inside is feverish undressing no conversation just raw passion. First against the wall, then the floor, then the bed. We only stop for wine. I admire her body so strong yet soft. We have undeniable chemistry. Finally, have a spliff and sleep.
I feign sleep as she dresses in the dark, and leaves

08 November 2016

08.11.16-revolution
OUTSIDE
Cheetos jesus
Screaming 
Hate
Shouting
Threats
Dreaming
Tyranny
drowned
Refugees
Awash on shore 
cops killing
brothers
INSIDE
Music
beasts
dope sick
For 
You
 woman
Come to bed
Wanton
Wicked
revolution
in bed 

06 November 2016

6.11.16-lost and found
She’s 
staggering 
under 
weight
of all the things
she said
didn’t say
tried to be 
didn’t do
shaky
in 
new heels
and 
a new  life
she walks 
an open 
path love
life
losing herself
even
she finds her voice
she

loses the 
weight
she
will
find
herself
she
was
never lost

06.11.16-madness
waking
I see it’s
losing
battle she’s 
been fighting
mad 
at 
yourself
mad 
at
 the world
when 
he 
hurt her 
pride
he hurt 
her 
soul
she’s mad
I am  mad for
her

03.11.16-purification
take me hand
I know
Ceremonies
rituals
we can 
wash off
regret
guilt
self-doubt
horrors
distance
until
you can see 
YOURSELF

04 November 2016

04.11.16-consecrated
looking for an angel under my dirty sheets
looking for redemption dirty streets.
holy communion in 10 ccs.
Urban consecration


04.11.16- safe
come
dark safe
no one
will
know
safe
he would destroy Angel
vampyric demon 
will
annihilate
safe
you need
to
shout
scream
cry
in the dark
safe
in my arms
safe

03 November 2016

03.11.16.storm
She came in wet and wild
I rode it out
Next morning she was gone 
Cup of coffee
With a memory 
and 
deep scratches on my back

02 November 2016

02.11.16-begin
come with me,
 Let’s start a new
we can baptize each other at the beach
and
go swimming

02.11.16-there
there  was something else 
once
there’s  a jukebox and a bar 
now



01 November 2016

1.11.16- day of the dead (day of the innocents)
She’s an innocent smoky eye
gazing
hot 
dancing
she’s igniting
she’s
a game
she’s 
a toy
she’s
a whore
Qui j'adore
She’s
Made me
junk  sick
for her body
first thing in the morning
innocence found 
innocence
lost