Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

31 July 2015

31.08.15
Your madness
perfume below your belly
Like a rare
tropical flower
warm and inviting
behind your forehead 
dreams and visions wait
like  
a flock of beautiful 
birds waiting to take flight
under your breast a heart so 
strong 
passionate
bursting
like a star gone s
supernova
in 
my bed you’re 
a revelation
of raw sensuality, and passion
I wish to caress your affliction
This madness 
of yours
has
me 
in 
a trance

30 July 2015

Such an early episode 
Rockaway 
not even the flacos  in Tompkins’ 
aren’t  holding 
Nyquil in queens 
Purgatory
Angelic eyes plead
Just hold 
Me
And I
 will hold you 
tonight its 
Nyquil 
And
Love 
Tomorrow
May never come

30.07.15
let me play you like
a telecaster
no blues riffs
today 
yes 
I know they’re there
today
I am picking and strumming
Rock riffs, and jazz  riffs
and
Something 
a
Little 
romantic

28 July 2015

28.07.15 later
Dyslexic poems
random seduction 
a disease 
it takes
a
lifetime to perfect 
tragically
strategically
Fatally 
flawed




26 July 2015

25.07.15
Revelation
Your soul calls to me
Your  talent
Is
Sex
Shock
I am experienced
Angry raised scars   
Truth
I am 
Living on
Reflexes 
And instinct
I see you
And 
I
Know
You don’t have to 
Talk
I appreciate
Why
You
Pull
Away
I understand 
why 
You
Call me

22 July 2015

22.07.15
This is 
not 
a love poem 
This is not about 
You 
I need 
you 
More than I want 
You
I want you 
With the heat of
of
10,000 super novas
This is  absolutely
the part
Where 
You fuck me
Or
Fuck off
This is the truth
I don't 
Do 
Love
This is the freedom 
Of 
Being underground
This is 
all 
All there is

20 July 2015

20.07.15
Starving
that look
I’m giving you
Devouring you with my eyes
A sexy meal
I told who and what
I was
No pretence
Here
Yes
The vampyre is starving
fangs start to  show
and you’re
such a pretty meal
sorry to be so blunt
but
I am starving
And
You’re so pretty and sexy

18 July 2015

In progress

He felt like a malevolent disembodied apparition, as he waited outside her home. He felt for his .45.   A reflex, as he tried to remember how long he had carried a weapon.  There was of course his public school. It  was probably in his teens. Algiers maybe working the black market smoking opium, living on cigarettes unreasonably strong tea, and tourist women.  The tea was   more addictive, than the opium. He was a Kaffir; the protection was needed as it was in the Bowery. Now it was   part of getting dressed. 10 round clip, which he didn’t need tonight.
She challenged him at every turn  “I don’t think you’re strong enough to accept to accept my love.”  She taunted.
He pointed at the scar on his throat, his mind going back to that, night, in Hunts point South Bronx The fight, Cass helping him into her car driving like an Algerian taxi driver, while cooing sweet things to him. Shirt pressed to throat. Finally Saint Vincent’s hospital Sister of charity running toward him, then it going black.
He answered by saying I have seen “Helicopters a blaze, my love coughing Technicolor blood in her last moments I travelled around thee world, around the block and back again. I have rarely seen anything more beautiful, than you.”
She just held him, not saying a word shaking a little at first, and then just pressing as to melt with him.
Mumbling something incomprehensible before kissing him. Next she casually invited him to her house for the night. Somehow through coincidence, Happenstance, and random chance. He is now sitting outside her house at 3 AM smoking a cigarette trying decide to call, and see if she wants company. “I crave she says in a manner, that is carnal, with no pretence if she’s in the mood.  The other possibility Start the bike hope the Ducati’s growls went unnoticed, and go to his flat, which is smiling like a flock of beauty  pageant contestants, but secretly sad, and blue.


16 July 2015

16.07.15
you hit me like
China White
A new ritual
I want more of 
Of  you
Than a syringe 
Can hold
Let me 
Hold you
I
Already tied off 
When we 
Kiss
I am injecting you straight into my 
Soul
I will hold  you through my
nod

A Kiss
It’s a given, that you party for a living. A raspy voice says come here and go away at the same time.  Long blonde hair, and a gravity defying cleavage, a cafĂ© au lait   tan. Long strong legs that must be he stairway to heaven An accent that speaks of mother Russia, and the bad girl” in a Bond film.
You have my attention smoky bedroom eyes. You’re someone different every time I see you.  I watch morph before my eyes. I will never get a glimpse of you.
You my friend, no?  She asks in her whiskey and honey voice. Hitting me with   those eyes, and pouty lips
“ I think so, am I?” I ask
“You come, with me leave, talk.”  She says kissing me.
“You are my friend, I would rather die, than kiss without love, “ She says. Opening doors that I will never be able to close. I step into the abyss holding her and, and smiling. Knowing it will end in disaster

14 July 2015

14.07.15
pull your hair
want to
see your 
eyes
I want to go beyond 
your lips
your hips
put away everything
I want to know
you

13 July 2015

13.07.15
Jill Patron Saint of OD’s and 
Runaways 
Heavier than heaven
Lighter than air
still carry you
the first shade
lost innocence
first love death
widower at 
16
forever one
forever separated
occasionally   
I am you 
Waiting for the man 
Going through the ritual 
Until I am closer, to you


09 July 2015

09.07.15
we talk
just
 the   two of us
all the time
then today
the
whisper
turns
to
a scream

08 July 2015

08.07.15
Wary of me
like a skittish colt
smart girl
take my hand
come with
me
I can show the next room
We won’t stay
I know
You
Already
You can’t hide
beat

02 July 2015

02.07.15
You know 
I am 
nearly  human
So 
tonight
while
you’re making 
excuses
she’s
making love 
to me
while 
you’re
not talking
she’s screaming 
my name
while 
you’re sleeping
she’s becoming
my world