Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

22 November 2023

 Thanksgiving my phone is ringing amplifying the ringing from a hangover that is, screaming in my head like a siren, 08:00 it must be mumsy.  “Hello love I answer.

an enthusiastic Happy Thanksgiving!”! rings through the phone I light a cigarette.  The coffee could use a shot of something.

“Are you coming around 3?” I have a guest, and don’t know what’s happening.”

“Please! Please!

“Ask him, there’s so much food. I have veuve clicquot champagne.” My bottle was killed last night. My refrigerator has mixers OJ, and cigarettes Misty might want food. 

“Hang on Mums. I put the phone on the table. walk to the bedroom my apartment is barely furnished bed, and stereo. Table a guitar in the corner.  Albums, books random art. I hear the shower. 

“Misty,  want to go to Thanksgiving, casual my ‘rents some of the exchange  students “

“All I  have is what I had on last night and that might have your teeth marks only dress and 4-inch pumps no hose. “ Misty answers.  Wrapping a towel around her waist. 

‘don’t need hose you’re tan and waxed”

“We just met.”

“You're OK it’s casual. “I  am wearing jeans and a T, you’re pretty in anything in answer. We locked eyes across the room last night. Whilst a band cranked 3 chords at high volume. 

“Do you have a hair dryer?

In the cupboard.”

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

“No, why?” 

“There’s tampons in here.”

“For visitors’

“How many have there been? Don’t answer. None of my business. “ Misty stammers.

“Why so serious ?’ I ask.

“I am overthinking?” she asks.

Yes, if it's a  bother we won’t go”.

No, I want to”.

I’ll tell Mumsy” remembering I left herb on hold.

“Did you forget? 

“I am coming and so is Misty.

Love you cheers”.

Drive to the ‘burbs

Mumsy at the door.

“Was she waiting?” Misty asks. Relax 

The dog barks when he hears my car.” I answer.  I walk around and open her door Mumsy waving us in. There introduction table set we are seated across from each other.

Mumsy says say the blessing. Misty gives me a wink. Leans forward hands clasped in prayer ample cleavage and blonde hair spilling onto the table.

I begin, “Lord we thank you for the bounty on the table. Misty giggles, as does Mumsy. I excuse, myself for a cigarette as my father carves. Mumsy follows. 

“I can’t believe you just said that laughing. 

You can’t be mad you're still laughing.

She hugs me and goes back inside where Misty has charmed my father. Sayed is telling a chemistry joke. I just smile politely Misty gives a laugh.


18 November 2023

 The sky was Weeping -13.11.23.

Because

I can’t

But you know that

You were there when

I was born (screaming and bloody)

after died (screaming bloody  gun smoke heavy in the air))

everywhere betwixt

Weeping my way

My stiletto opens

Sorry dude I meant nothing a

Move on

Weeping: to express grief, sorrow, or any overpowering emotion by shedding tears; shed tears; cry


I can’t yet  

weeping


08 November 2023

 All-04.11.23

those

Years

All

those

Loves

All

those

moments

all

our

love

Fit in a small urn?

A million  mad thoughts

talking

to clouds

Talking

to butterflies

driving you to the house

Because

That's

used to refer to the whole quantity or extent of a particular group or thing 2) whole of one's energy or interest, love

 all 

there is


07 November 2023

 Gonna-07.11.23

need a  fix hollow

never gonna know you but

 still gonna love you


05 November 2023

 Shadow puppets-03.11.23

Surging on my rush

Songs for the deaf

Crown of thorns

Ground control calling(let it go  to voice mail)

swimming in the clouds

Pale blue skies( the colour of St Jill)

angels rage and scream

mutiny in  heaven roars

angels fall like rain

Free -take one

Waking

pistol in my hand

Shadow puppets are figures that are placed between a screen and a light. Using your hands and fingers

see your shadow (we are all shadow puppets  at 03:00)

Click the safeties on

Jackson Pollack’s daughters

Good time girl

Blue Bunny is prophecy

Voices visions

writing my disease


 Pink Spiders and coffee-05.11.23

pink spider breakfast

photo appears on my phone

ride like you stole it