Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

29 February 2016

29.02.16 desire
can you 
hear me
above the roar
of 
desire
pink spider
sting
heroin, cyanide
weak distillations
not
immune
gets me high too
pink venom
addicting
sweet
coming
down
kicking
a serious 
motherfuck
day’s of rolling pain
trying to score one last 
hit
screaming
desire


29.02.16-Rebel Angels
rolling in
on well oiled hips
Catwalk 
swaggers
vampyres
watch
Practiced blasĂ©’
thirsty
craving 
needing 
one 
fix
of 
rebel Angels

27 February 2016

27.02.16-funeral pyre
glance
SPARK
kiss
FIRE
Sex
EXPLOSION
Now
FUNERAL  PYRE

26 February 2016

26.02.16-I am not there
YOU called
underground 
MY protection
MY devotion
MY passion
You said
I didn’t 
understand 
I
How much
I
 meant
To 
YOU
For
YOU
I understand 
YOU
underground
don’t  call
I am not there

25 February 2016

25.02.16-trip
mad
melancholy
mastermind
mother
vodka drinking
mighty woman
speaking in tongues
speaking in  lispy Spanish
another trip around the sun
you
are
a
mad
lovely
trip 
22.02.16-art
a movie star’s stage
now a studio
images exploding 
created
gestation
processes
histories
masters course
in
life
love
ART 


25.02.16-good times
young incarnations
torn and faded
jean’s
soul’s
sounds
roller skates
3-chord anger
3-chord beauty
practiced distortion
sex 
cigarettes
beer
black tar 
love
Reverbing joy
good times

24 February 2016

24.02.16-Swan
lovely
graceful
knows
Vampyre
shows him
the land
east of the sun,
west of the moon
Masquerading
as  a lady
the grace 
and beauty
wont be obscured
Swan

23 February 2016

23.02.18-designed to kill 
when I see
a kitten 
hit by
errant amazon delivery 
vans
should I 
send a screen shot
or is 
it 
functioning as 
designed
to 
kill

22 February 2016

22.02.16-next room
take me hand
love
I’ll keep you 
on the way 
no, no far
when 
you reach  it
let go
touch it
it will
embrace
you
the 
love
is still
there
waiting
in the next room 

21.02.16-blonde on blonde
We dance
Her, her 
me
Slowly
Feverishly
Blindly
Mindlessly
Passionately
deliciously nuanced
 erotic ballet
sensual mosh pit
blonde on  me
me on blonde
blonde on  blonde


20 February 2016

20.02.16-guided
AWAKE
Pre-dawn dark
GUIDED 
by 
voices
Hunter & Kerouac
Patti
Buk & Burroughs
Lorca
GUIDED 
by
Scent
yours
Still on me 
musky 
sweet
sex and sweet
GUIDED 
By
Dreams
siren’s call

GUIDED

19 February 2016

18.02.16-shame
no
shame
he’s 
can’t
touch 
you like
me
no 
shame 
 you
crave
pain
he
can’t 
fuck
you like
me
no
shame
you
are 
this
game 
no
shame
you’re
escaping boredom
18.02.16-shame
no
shame
he’s 
never 
going 
to touch 
you like
me
no 
shame 
 you
crave
pain
he
can’t 
fuck
you like
me
no
shame
you
are 
this
game 
no
shame

18 February 2016

Wishful thinking-such an early song
Nighttime
finds me
screaming
daytime
finds me
dry
I am
lean
fast
And breezy
By the time I am
25
I’ll die
Wishful thinking?


17 February 2016

16.02.16-hell
yes
Demon
Vampyre
Your love
HELL 
I cannot
bear 
don’t 
care
your fears 
lay down
be here
you 
Sleep
you don’t 
DREAM
kiss you
taste 
HIM
lover
Yours, 
a HELL
I can’t bear
Forget 
Everything
SACRED 
Everything
PROFANE
Everything 
I said
I have
 me own 
HELL 

13 February 2016

Judas Goat
She’s at the end of the bar looking bored, and lonely. Make no mistake this is a dive, and little black dress pumps stand out.  This place isn’t sanitised for your protection not a faux dive in the mall     I walk up to her.
“Fancy a bit of company?” I ask pulling up a stool.
She nods a yes.
“Hello” I say then turn to order Tanqueray tonic, 2 limes squeezes, and what ever she’s drinking.” I turn to her your name is?”
“Holly, and you’re a cocky bastard, are you sure I am not here with, a huge boyfriend?”
“I am Marlowe; you arrived with several friends, not as attractive as you, who one by one disappeared, with men who had come over here.  Leaving you alone, and to me the one eyed monster, if I am wrong fighting a large person not a problem for me.”
“I like the eye patch, how do you know this, I noticed you walking in maybe 5 minutes ago before you came over.
“Holly, I have been around the manor, and around the world.  I earned the scars the eye patch is functional, big boyfriends; not a problem.” I answer.
“What’s your game?“ Holly asks, but she’s not really trying to figure me out.
“You can’t play someone unless they want to be played, I have done the research.”  I answer, watching her flip her long red hair.
“My friend’s played me?” Holly asks.
: You’re the Judas goat.” I answer
“A Judas goat is….”Holly asks.
“The goat you tie to a stake, when hunting tiger. The tiger comes for goat you take your shot. When men came to talk to you they took their shot. Think about this evening, and you might find I am right.”
“I was right you’re a cocky bastard.” Holly commented.
I signal for another round, and take a good look at Holly, a real red head nearly as pale as me, which to say very pale, Green eyes, heartbreaker. “So if nobody shoots the tiger what happens to the Judas goat?” Holly asks with a wary smile.
We have options, 1) the Judas goat is dinner, 2) We take the goat to dinner or my personal favourite E all of the above.” I signal bartender
“Do I get a vote?” Holly asks “ coyly.
“Think about, I’ll close the tab.” I say heading to bar. I get my debit
“Of course come back to Holly, and say, “Let’s roll”
“Cocky bastard.” Holly says zipping up her jacket.
“Let’s discuss in car, we can talk about cabbages and kings, or not all. “ I say. She take’s my arm. I am feeling her strong now, so I kiss her, and there is definitely chemistry.   Holly kisses me pressing against me, a raspy whisper in my ear who’s the tiger now?”
“”You’re going to be fun to play with” I answer.  Holly smiles we walk out to my car.
“I want to be adored comes on as I start car. Holly claps, “You’re too smooth.”
“I have an iPod with 20,000 songs; karma?” I answer.
“You didn’t ask if I have a boyfriend,” Holly said.
“I don’t care, this about me and you, this moment, this place anything else is so much noise; your place?”
“OK Holly said, and starts giving directions. I have a place for tonight.
She puts in the code to get us past gate.  In the lifts, Holly wraps herself around me. By the time we reach the 3rd floor were half undressed. . The fumbling with keys just made things more urgent.
Inside Holly turns on music, and we just go back to ravishing each other.
Holly is passionate, responsive, and creative. In short a great lover.  After I find myself on a sofa I am just staring at her body long lean small firm breasts pierced nipples, legs that went on forever. And a small crimson landing strip.
“Let’s try the bed,” Holly says taking my hand leading me to the bedroom.  I watch her walk gracefully see our clothes scattered on floor. I notice the tattoo on that heart shaped arse, biker ink.  I don’t care her walk is all I am noticing. This is only about this moment, this time nothing before or after matters.
We fall in bed rolling  on each other. She climbs on top facing away. Screaming like a cat in heat, and grinding on me cock to orgasm. She stretches out next to me, and is fast asleep. I get up quietly as possible. Slip into her shower for a quick rinse, I dress in the living room finding my clothes.
I look at her asleep. Tap her “need a ride to your car baby?” I ask softly, as seeing me when you wake up can be disturbing.
“Car’s here code is 1986”a groggy answer.  I pull the covers over her and give her a kiss.
This was a good moment I will tuck it away, and keep it for when I need a little light underground. A wee bit of spring in a long winter.

12 February 2016

.02.16-magazines
I am
Tired
So tired
Of 
Looking 
For you in 
Magazines
Little screens
I know
What’s behind
The “PERFECT”
SMILE
I have 
Seen 
PAIN
LONELY
Toss
Your status
Deny
Those who 
WONT/can’t
See 
YOU
Come 
Underground
Your eyes
know 
Darkness
Not in
magazines

11 February 2016

11.02.16- counterfeit deity’s
go to him
your
 counterfeit deity
Don’t come
back
don’t look
back 
strong 
lusty
demon
destroy
weak
insidious
counterfeit deity’s
priestess
passing fancy
too early
take your
sweet
sweet 
lies
go to 
your 
counterfeit deity




10 February 2016

10.02.16-ashes to ashes
ashes to ashes
dust to dust
chanted
priest 
her  father
handful of dirt
screaming  beneath
me practiced cool
thinking of washing her hair 
holding her face
heaven within reach
 now banished
from heaven 
for eternity

10.02.16-Ash Wednesday -40 days
40 nights

40 days
40 nights
drinking only Tanqueray and quinine 
40 days
40 nights

sniffing only cocaine
40 days
40 nights
with a Danish model
entering Ash Wednesday
emerging from 
Chelsea Hotel
After 
40 days
40 nights
into the diesel fumes staggering toward  
E10th Ave 
After 
40 days
40 nights
pure
in  the 
promised land

07 February 2016

07.02.16-altar
a good
place 
as any
off your knees
lay down 
across
the altar
the ritual
must begin
 me willing 
human 
sacrifice
on 
demon 
altar

04 February 2016

.04.02.16-30 pieces of silver
beauty is  
 a costly thing
it’s charges more interest 
than
loan shark
or even
pay day loan

I’m still paying for the 3 minutes
I was attractive
Your pills, powders, and poison’s 
Can’t hold back  the
Debt
Your soul 
Resents your face 
Body
You resent 
hungry 
envious
eyes 
quietly
violating

destroying
your book
of covers
all smiling 
secretly
sad lonely
 sycophants’
bookers
hookers
agents
 hedge fund  managers
pimps
coke dealers
all
who sold you
for 
30 pieces of silver

03 February 2016

03.02.16-epithany
the blue light flashes
filling the room
exploding in my mind
waiting for a threesome 
of angels dancing 
in a circle
bringing
the holy grail
holding it over the candles
at the altar 
inhaling deeply  of the incense
finally drawing the mixture
and dosing me soul
nodding into epithany



03.02.16-sex and cigarettes
this is 
 what you wanted
what I wanted
what we wanted
last night
so here we are
sharing 
Gitanes
Strong coffee
and a warm 
morning
You belong to another
‘I don’t care
it was
just 
sex
and this
just cigarettes
ain’t bad
sex and cigarettes



03.02.16-sex and cigarettes
this is 
 what you wanted
what I wanted
what we wanted
last night
so here we are
sharing 
Gitanes
Strong coffee
and a warm 
morning
You belong to another
‘I don’t care
it was
just 
sex
and this
just cigarettes
ain’t bad
sex and cigarettes



02 February 2016

02.02.16-ballet
discovered you hitchhiking 
me prendre Ă  son  père
you pleaded
it’s 
 so late
I’ve
Been fighting 
So long
5CC’s to heaven
dance for  me 
Pirouette
Spin the world 
away
in bed
ouverte
sissonne en avant.
dance with me
monster in your bed 
Still  kills the monsters 
Under your bed
And in the 
closets
viola!
I love 
this ballet
of US

01 February 2016

01.02.16-come to me
when everything 
is
dark and cold
come to me
when everything 
is
come to me
when everything 
is
shattered
when everything 
is
come to me
when everything 
is
obscene
come to me
when everything 
and 
everyone
shut off
come to me
when everything 
is
musical
when everything 
is
when everything 
is
magical

come to me