Good Friday 18.04.14

Charleston Heston frees' my ancestors

The Angel death passes me over.

   Does  she not know how much  I love her?

Her beauty flawless, skin perfect, and though she's embraced me many times, I always wake up and she's gone.

13.06.14 on our anniversary

I remember this day so well

              Because I thought this time

You would stay

You held me for days 

kissed me deeply 

Gave me the lead jewel's I still carry

Alas I awoke to cacophony of tubes machines  and crying people.

But you were gone!

Death  

the only face I wanted to see

And you abandoned me

29.05.16-beauty and the beast

they stare

they whisper

they point

not of your world

immune to bourgeoisie    

judgements 

contempt

beauty

kisses

ice queen

sweet

like 

ice cream

melting fast

archetype

talk about it

shout about it

you can’t deny the beauty and the beast.

26.05.16-gruff, sexy , hitman

ay love

we  like your lips

MORE!

ay love

we like your kiss

MORE!

ay love

we like your hips

ay love

MORE!

Ay love

We’re feeling you 

Tonight

MORE!

You say 

I’m gruff

Sexy

Hitman

MORE!

Ay love 

it’s you I’m hitting tonight

25.05.16- last living soul

sun drenched sultry morning

far 

far

from home

foggy mornings, black tea

coffee black and sweet

dashing out 

pup at my side dodging 

douche coupes 

huge military vehicles

athliesure  wear

trophy wife

trading my sneer

for a comely smile

come hither walk

flipping hair

I drop the jawbone of an ass

It mutates 

HOA approved flora

here east of Eden

I miss 

Land of  Nods

I take her hand

suddenly

I am 

Not

the 

last living soul 

11.04.16-god and queen

I believe I will soon jump 

into 

the dark

I believe 

that

There 

Are 

2 

ways home

VICTORY/BOX

I believe

in unit and regiment

GO

GO

GO

I don’t  believe

In

God and queen

21.05.15 night blind

hysterical night blindness

panic

blind fear

can I see for you

I see better at night

Than 

day 

which  is unreasonablly 

bright 

harsh

my eyes accustomed to the 

darkness of 

underground

nuance

of shadows

I will

guide 

you 

through 

darkness

19.05.16-vampyric demon

rain comes 

down

down

hard

and 

it’s low

low

low

you come to me

underground

conjure  me 

on your knees

 on your beauty

Vampyric demon  feeds

19.05.16-how to be extraordinary

Be 

flawed

Be

fragile

Be

tough

Be 

a
hot mess

17.05.16-man

women 

he takes 

age  fast

I see you

fading fast

spark gone

voice lost

you mean less

to him

to me?

everyday

don’t call him a man

I’m Übermensch

I know about these things

chap

not 

a 

MAN

no SCARS

no K.I.A.’s

no ART

no SOUL

menasche

not a 

MAN

17.05.16-man

women 

he takes 

age  fast

I see you

fading fast

spark gone

voice lost

you mean less

to him

to me?

everyday

don’t call him a man

I’m Übermensch

I know about these things

chap

not 

a 

MAN

no SCARS

no K.I.A.’s

no ART

no SOUL

menasche

not a 

MAN

18.05.16 –you look like rain

past the rebel Angels

with their catwalk swagger

Vogue Paris  aspect

pink spider glides 

invisible to rebel Angels

who are drinking champagne, as they scrutinize

each other

ignoring other species

here again

underground

to

the demon 

here 

nothing  is true

everything is permitted

pink spiders find me 

nevertheless

don’t speak

have some wine

undress

I know why you’re here

To feed

the emptiness

know

don’t care

every time

I see you

You look like 

rain

16.05.16-Elegy

dreaming of you

awaking

missing you

visions of you

looking for heaven /you

  friend mourns

lie

And hold her

Some wounds

don’t heal

don’t fear hell

seek heaven

elegy

for

you 

15.05.16-Mermaid

Mermaids hanged

in 

soulless 

Leicester square

tourist 

snapping pictures

flooding   in Paris

Girlfriend 

agency flat 

wrapped in 

my Television T

can’t get

 through

Can’t get

past

The mermaid

13.05.16-it catches up to you

Kings Cross

Algiers

Hereford

Alphabet city

Spandau

training grounds

genetic memories

Prussian  cuirassiers

Conquistador

Centurion

flow through me

cold

calculating

 coming hard

twisted face

 Twisted Walk

omen

danger

Mistakes

Celebrate

or

bury

at times both

scars

bullets

and muscle

I have become 

It catches up to you

11.05.16-tears

your kiss 

salty from tears 

I gave you 

LOVE

to the death

PROTECTION

to the death

you gave me

your FEARS

I’m the mongoose immune to the

Fear cobra, that I eat

your BAGGAGE 

I put it with the rest 

I faded

To black

When we’re 

introduced

smile  politely

I won’t let on

Vis-à-vis  your death 

by a

million

self-inflicted cuts

I’ll just walk

kiss her

Hers’  taste like

lust

Yours’  taste like 

tears

10.05.16 –no where/now here

doodles

love  is

now here

love is

 no where

it is both

love

dichotomy

of

lust

and

nausea

09.05.16 –love

your doodles

love  is

now here

love is

 no where

it is both

dichotomy

of

lust

and 

nausea

09.05.16-disease

 Don’t try to hand me 

tracts

eternal reward

soul 

SHINY 

CLEAN

I

Have no 

soul

perfecting my 

disease far too long

fatally 

strategically

gloriously

FLAWED

I’ll

just

stay SICK

It sets me soul on FIRE

07.05.16-confused

you call out of the blue

its not confusing

you just haven’t 

been laid on 

a bit

old man 

was mean

the roar of your empty

soul

scares you 

the  hole

which can never be filled

no

its not 

love

its

need

but

whats a woman

to do

not confused

05.05.16-gone

how can you be gone

if

I can 

feel 

you  Holding me

if

I can 

Smell 

your human perfume

if

I can

Taste

Your kiss

If 

Ican  hear

Your laugh

How can you be gone

01.05.16-tortured narcissist

you call

you need me

I

told

how this ended

Whilst

It started

Narcissism 

is

your, sole

inspiration

you

could own

me

conceit

that

you’re unforgettable

like no other

a

vanity

that

that can never be filled

unique

no

just another

tortured narcissist 

30.04.16-hot mess

 short platinum blonde

smoky green eyes

micro mini

all the trouble

all the fun

in the world

compacted into

 90  pounds

rocking

4 inch pumps

a feral

vibe

savagely  snogging

this  is going 

to get LOUD

this is  going 

to be MESSY

this is going

to be HOT