Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

30 June 2018

on edge-28.06.18
otherworldly   beauty
felt
like 
sin
tasted
like
love

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on the edge

her face
obscuring
light
her face
becoming 
light
on the edge
by denying 
entry 
to
hell

on the edge

queen of hell
refuses 
heaven
on the edge
I dwell
with
exiled monsters
east of Eden
on the edge

underground
nodding: a semi dreamlike state where a person on skag slips in and out of time and space
land of nods
her face
leaving me 
on the edge
betwixt 
heaven and hell
on the edge

betwixt
living and dead
on the edge

betwixt 
worlds
The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.-Hunter S Thompson
on edge


26 June 2018

storming-25.06.18
storming
in
Stockholm
Storming:  an events taking  a peaceful individual into a state of chaos

crackling online calls
Black ops
Black ops: covert military or political operations that may employ measures not generally 

authorized
cry havoc!

storming
in
Stockholm
 needing
flesh
storming
in
Stockholm
desolation Angels
can’t get me away
storming
in
Stockholm
storms
born
Mom, why did they put the kids in cages? One day adults will have to explain the shamechicagotribune.com
of
HUNGER
RAGE
ISOLATION 
Fixing with 
Fix:  satisfying an addiction.
me
shades
good wife went ghost
shades remained
storming
in
Stockholm
recriminations
forced smiles
a cold wet night
looking 
for words
finding
a .45
I am not even here
storming
in
Stockholm

18 June 2018

Coffee
“Vegan iced coffee,” I say
Coconut milk with an extra espresso shot, this is Tyler your girl Tyler says.
I just smile flattered 20 something attractive, sun-streaked hair perfect cafĂ© au lait tan, pale blue ey3es and a sarcastic sense of humour that melts my heart.  She probably also has enough Daddy issues to find me attractive. Take the coffee Tyler adds, “Sit in the patio I have a break coming.”
     On the way out I stop to get a pound of coffee. A woman asks the “Coffee is good here?”
    “Actually yes, roasted in town.” I pick a flavour to take it to my table. The woman from coffee asks, “Can I join you and do you know the wifi password.”
    I take her all in long blonde hair nice tan, grey eyes. “Of course, decaf is evil all lower case no spaces. I am Marlowe, you are”
    “I am sorry, I am Kathy”, thank you she says taking a chair to my left,  over her shoulder I see Tyler waving me over. I like this conversation actually the Beats, the resistance, and the new Gorillaz album I excuse myself Kathy ‘ll be back, I need a refill can I get you anything?”
     ‘No, I am all set. “ Kathy answers.
    I am barely through the door
Tyler demands, “What’s, with the old woman?”
“I am just talking,” I answer.
“I remember our first chat, do you?” Tyler asks adding,  “I’ll clear up for you it ended in a shower,”
    “Why are you so angry, love?” I ask.
That old woman is my mother.”
 “I am sorry” I start.
“Think about what comes out of your mouth next, because I can tell you what won’t be going in it if you don’t get it right. Tyler says.
    I am going to shop for vinyl across the street, and you know I wouldn’t hurt you.
Tyler says, “Good answer, and I know a lot of things like that’s not Tabaco you’re vaping tobacco do you want me to go on?”
    “I get it ping me later if you feel it, oh and if you could tell the guy in the vest with the curled handlebar moustache an vest, who looks like the Capitan of a cotton candy dirigible looks at me one more time I will pluck out his fisheye.
“Bob’s crushing on me, he’s harmless.” Tyler answers
I am going to pay for the coffee and bounce.
I am being a bitch, I am sorry Tyler says.
You’re OK, “ I say distractedly. I pay for the coffee, go to the table tell Kathy, I have some business I must attend too. I miss when coffee was simple

17 June 2018

ride -17.07.18
purple dragon
looking for
pink spider

digital roar
Digital; data expressed as series of the digits 0 and 1
I could have been anyone

except
the
Crowd
Crowd: the herd, mob rabble
captivated

making love to her
like
China White
venom surging in me veins
and I just
hit some medicine
so I’ll
ride
just
ride

13 June 2018

haunted-13.06.18

our anniversary
today
miss you most of all
Angel
the night
10 bullets
DOA
DOA: Dead on arrival
coma
Coma: a state of deep unconsciousness that lasts for an indefinite period, caused especially by severe injury or illness. Where the person is betwixt worlds of living and dead.
Angel of Death
Angel of Death: Angel of Destruction of the Hebrew Bible. The Hebrew name translates to "Angel of God", "Help from God", or "One Whom God Helps". 

so beautiful
so sexy
thighs  covered
the dried tears
of a crucified Christ
awaking
My Stigmata
growing and angry
Stigmata is a term Catholic faith to describe body marks, sores, corresponding to the crucifixion wounds Also denotes wounds of demon

My Angel 
taste of your
kiss
haunted
Haunted: having or showing signs of mental anguish or torment

08 June 2018

Dead worlds-05.06.18
awakening
struggling
for
poetry
effortless
lethal reflexes
stop
battle
quickly
pitilessly
sand castles
Sand Castle: a model of a  castle built by children or lovers playing on the beach
fall into the sea
stars die 
released from time
I have 
nothing
I have
no one
Time: an interval separating two points of this quantity; a duration
Star: a luminous body in the sky 
every world
I
reach
is
dead

06 June 2018

black hole-06.06.18
this day pulling me
down
down
gravity
Gravity: extreme or alarming importance; seriousness
pulling
me
Guatemala volcano: Almost 200 missing and 75 dead abc.com
sucking
Down
Down
Below  underground 
Black Hole: a place where people or things, especially money, disappear without
a trace   2) gravity into which no light can enter                                                    
Black hole
how did you want to dispose of him? cremation?

04 June 2018

desperate-04.06.18
Pink spider laying
down
feast!
Adriatic  tan skin
meets
faded indigo
open those silver buttons
with teeth
kurva ma tvrdo!
kurva ma tvrdo: Slovak-fuck me hard pink spider 
screams
becoming
moans 
ravenous
hunger
becoming
satiated-Latin enough 2) post orgasmic females
kitten snores 
long hair 
becoming
abstract on me chest
night 
becoming
desperate
love
desperate
coupling
desperate
for a present
desperate: tried in despair or when everything else has failed; having little hope of success.

desperate
living


02 June 2018

tell her-02.06.18
If you see St Jill
tell her
Saints are humans who lead exemplary lives, and have performed 
at least 2  miracles after death
I need
a shot
angry  raised pink snakes
scars
that occupy
me
don't fill the 
hole
she left 
If you see St Jill
Saint Jillian patroness of ODs and runaways fatal beauty devotees sometimes develop her stigmata on their arms
tell her
I  had 
vision
sky turned black 
smoke filled the room
it was the ritual
and I held
her
If you see St Jill
tell her
I love her