ruin-31.12.19

Desperation starts

Desperation: state of despair, typically one which results in rash or extreme behaviour 

at dawn

History is made

night

relentless: that does not relent; unyieldingly severe, strict, or harsh; unrelenting 2) harsh morning light 3) pink spiders

rentless light

refuse to

merely exist

Exist:1. to be, or to be real: 2. to live, or to live in difficult conditions 3) absurdity that links being 

pink spider

so sweet

Sweet: pleasant taste characteristic of sugar or honey; not salty, sour, or bitter. 2) generous, kind person

so naive

Naive: showing a lack of experience, wisdom, or judgment 2) denoting art produced in a straightforward style

says

she is me ruin

Ruin: the physical destruction or disintegration of something or the state of disintegrating or being destroyed.

spent too many years

perfecting

ruin

disease

disease: disorder of structure or function in a human, animal 2) carefully curated behaviours' and habits

ruin

so sweet

so sexy

I’ take ruin every time

Rebel Angel-17.12.19
fell from grace
Grace: the free and unmerited favor of God
Down
Down: To be friends with someone or to spend time
underground
down
demon arms
down
twisted
dark
affair
down
taboos
down
Down:  toward, into

 catwalks
down
Down: to the bottom of

 my heart
suddenly
looking
into
her eyes
she went
 into
light
as Angels do
I ran
Down
Down:
knock or bring to the ground

dark
as demons do
Down:  sad or depressed.

down

fade to black-16.12.19
Fade to Black: is the most dramatic transition found on this list. A fade to black is essentially a dissolve in or to black. 2) signaling completion, or end of the narrative.
you found me
I am sussing
in a moment
weakness wants
naturally
vampyric demon
fades away
you’re tired of being
all things
to all people
I am happy
being nothing
to all
no need for dramatic music
no need for explanations
no need for apologies
no need to second guess
no need to look back
I fade to black

going down12.12.19
underground
Underground:the surface of the ground2) secretive  3)outside of  society
come angel
not heaven
not hell
both
low,  nowhere to go
demonic liar
no meetings
just those fallen from grace
Grae: grace is favour, the free and undeserved help that God gives us to respond to his call to become children of God 2) a bartender I knew
in this place
whatever keeps me high
I take
I’ll take you down
when I go numb
fly  with me
might  we
crash together
Crash: collide violently with an obstacle or another 2) falling into bed
going down

Melancholy-06.12.19
Ring-a-ring-a-rosies
A rosy rash, they allege, was a symptom of the plague,
A pocket full of posies
Some diseases require a lifetime to perfect
awaking
Melancholy: a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause 2) also everything imaginable and coming down                                                                                                                                                                          
A pocket full of posies
Posey: small bouquet of flowers, was supposed to help ward it off

Falling
further
ashes ashes we all fall down
falling
Ashes ashes we all fall down’s ashes the burning corpses
underground black
 We all fall down: deaths from the plague 2) when you come down
NyQuil : the nighttime, sniffling, sneezing, aching, coughing, stuffy-head, fever, so you can rest medicine. 2) last ditch treatment  for being dope sick.

Melancholy

I want the Angel-29.11.19

Angel: The existence of the spiritual, non-corporeal beings that Sacred Scripture usually calls "angels" is a truth of faith 2)) the one that never comes 

I want

the Angel

who 

takes what I give

I want the Angel

who 

takes me higher

I want the Angel

who stays

when everything

adds

up to

zero

I want the Angel

who sees my pain

but doesn’t flinch

Pain: physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury. 2)  fuel for art

I want the Angel

Who knows 

I have the devils blessing

Devils Blessing: a curse, misfortune

I want the Angel 

who will 

Lay with me 

Dream: series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep.  2) goals 3) life

And dream