don’t pretend-28.03.21

trying to get inside of you

no matter what I do

I know

no matter what I do

I’ll never real get inside of you

and make you catch fire

the way you should

Pretend: speak and act so as to make it appear that something is the case when in fact it is not. 2) acting like this was all we ever wanted

don’t pretend

you never wanted more than the

don’t pretend

I never tried

don’t pretend

and

smile

don’t pretend

 Palm Sunday-28.03.21

waking cool spring morning

woman on fire

long legs

long hair

spread

overs

sheets

my mind

ravenous she growls

tigress

in heat

giving me

Impure thoughts impure thought only becomes sin when it is willed

Impure thoughts 

on

 Palm Sunday

 Lust-27.03.21

she reaches out

a branch

in whirlpool of self-recrimination

longer than smiles can be forced

and

troubled

emotions under lock and key

yet

Lust: very strong sexual desire 2) a strong hunger for anything,

lust screaming for satisfaction

all

i know

no eternal reward

will forgive

wasting the night

lust is life

 fishing-25.03.21

seeking

mermaid

Lure: tempt seduce to lead astray

lure

Mermaids

beat poetry?

clever words?

abstracts?

strong coffee?

nothing?

sign

at lighthouse

fishing

 Ravenous-22.03.21

Blind need

want

DESIRE

shaking

a pain

everything else

else than nothing

NEED

would cook

, mermaid

mainline

into me

soul

if we had one

jonesing junk sick

HUNGER

I am

Ravenous: extremely hungry. 2)starved not necessarily for food. 3) bind desire, that must be satisfied

Ravenous

 mon guide voyage en absurdie-20.03.21

waiting night

dragon roars

dissolving into smoke

scotch-coloured skies

blue bunny was calling

pink spider

waves 8 legs

craving me

whilst

I crave you

riot of bald sopranos’

messiah

Sisyphus

Crucified

Messiah: who will change the world order in accordance with the will of God

messiah

strip

show me

your

desire

show me

your

fire

I

show

show you 

mon guide voyage en absurdie

 

Dark cocktail hour of the soul -13.03.21

gutted

lost

can’t remember not

knowing

loving you

I’ll make a drink

to fill an empty

place inside

gutted

Purgatory: process, or place of purification or temporary punishment in which, souls are made ready for heaven.

purgatory

cocktails

 dream-11.03.21

going down

underground

going

deep

letting

darkness

wash over me

diving down

deeper

can’t

stand the light

Dreams:The dream :most secret recesses of the soul, opening into that cosmic night-Jung

dreams

are born

in the dark

come dream with me

lucid dreams

illicit dreams

mystic dreams

just dream

 Fire -01.03.21

Fire:1) a chemical reaction that gives off light heat 2) order to discharge weapon 3) mojo  

in

your eyes

sweat

betwixt

your thighs

say

everything

want

swim

in

fire

until

I

drown

kos

only

then

I’m

alive