Rock-11.11.24
you’re my rock-raspy voice
Seriously?
I feel hollow
propping you up
Is all that keeps me up
just empty
But what
I have is yours
don’t owe us
A thing
you get us stoned
Rock: stone · 2. a piece of crack cocaine 3. )AKA "rock'n 'roll". · 4.)to be cool. 5)you feel that you can depend on them and that they will always support you. :
Morphing into rock
Love vandals-8.11.24
fragments
rode in a pink flamingo
Tiger green eyes glowing
From a fire within
A break from
High cost of living theatre
ä Break from the reign of
ordinary
Destroying reality
Destroying space
Destroying time
To swim in
the clear light
Vandal: a person who deliberately destroys or damages public or private property 2)Germanic people that ravaged Gaul, Spain, and North Africa in the 4th–5th centuries and sacked Rome in AD 455.
Love vandals
Dia de los Muertos-02.11.24 03:00
medicine
Aways brings closer(an elixir wrought by shamans and outlaws
Give my love
To the angel of death(never takes me)
The veil
betwixt living and dead
fiction
Give us your hand
no words
needed
Angel of Death was our favourite lover
But today
Punk Orpheus and Eurydice
All Soul’s Day: Catholic holiday when the living remember our beloved deceased family and friend AKA Dia de los Muertos
redemption and resurrection
Dia de los Muertos
tired of loving blues-29.06.19
revolving doors
spinning me out
taking me nowhere
too cold here
tired of loving blues
just a sacred cow chewing poppies
demons run hot
Angel went cold
Angel
gone
tired of loving blues
too dark?
too hot?
tired of loving blues
strange vibe
Crow watches over me
crow symbol signifies wisdom. A symbol of life magic and mysteries.
tired of loving blues
message
stay sexy don’t die
safeties off
one in the chamber
tired of loving blues
arm full of medicine
head full of menace
tired of loving blues
just empty-23.10.24
03:00 wake in sweat
reaching for me pistol
This is not my survival alarm
I realise
call last year this time and day
You had left the building
first love
first face I saw
still miss you
kiss the blue saint for me.
it’s been a year I have no words
just empty place
Empty ;containing nothing; not filled or occupied.
just empty
contemplating-18.10.24
contemplating
muse
improbity of existence
mysteries of her landing strip
we communicate in dreams
blue bunny calling me
But double moon and we need to play
hot mess
Blows up
iPhone
aeries full moon she says
passion
intense
contemplating
being nothingness and the fine art of seduction
sacred journeys
to another level of consciousness
Contemplation, which is when you focus intently on a question, idea, religious concept or muse
Muse contemplates the complications of a lover
Contemplating
Psychomancy
Absurdity
Union of souls
levitating-11.10.24
love is angel
wrapped in fire
wrapped in the desire
holding us tight
until
light
Angel
Commands
feed the hunger
that has left us ravenous
That is fire
that keeps
us
alive
that has
us
Levitating: to rise or float in the air, defying gravity 2) rise above
levitating
skating
on the milky way
levitating
beyond
Carousel horses-09.10.24
U up?
When did we become
Carousel horses
Go round and round
without
Reaching the end
Racing the same creatures
We need an escape
Can’t be
Carrousel horse
Poseidon
Waves his trident
we emerge from the surf
Running free
Carousel : galloper, roundabout is a large, circular machine with seats, often in the shape of horses. People sit and go around and around
Carousel horses
never again
Coffee date
“Of course, I care, but are we a thing?” I recall one date.
“We are intimate” she answers in a low tone as if through clenched teeth.
” I just didn’t realize you thought of me that way, I am chuffed” I answer.
“I mean calls, that are long conversations of as you say, cabbages, and Kings. The other things weree nice too.” Tyler Now smiling coquettishly.
I take the coffee and a cup of drip with an espresso shot. From her hands. I turn towards the table where Jana waits.
Over my shoulder, I say, “Smoke break gorilla glue.” My phone vibes. And I don’t have to look at it yes.
“After a short conversation, Jan is off to her next stop. She shows me her calendar. I went over my allotted unit. I walk her to her car. We make plans for a trip to the museum, but that will not happen. That will never happen, no heat, no flames. I cross back to the coffee shop.
Tyler greets me” If you were fucking with me about the about the gorilla glue!
“Never my love” I answer stepping into a warm Hug.
“You smell amazing “I whisper nibbling her ear lobe.
“Right coffee and sweat, does she smell of dryer sheets & Clinique?” Tyler said cologne? Tyler said. “She looks like Bridge and Tunnel squeezing in a quickie, with punk Bukowski between breakfast and yoga, then back to Mr sensible.”
“I am not aware of her schedule I answer still laughing. “Anyway, just a coffee date, it won’t repeat, No chemistry, no point.
“You know that in 10 minutes?
“Aye, I knew the minute our eyes met.
I knew when she ordered no make-up, checking her phone constantly. On Saturday morning. I am guessing you were worked in, and Dude you’re all or nothing. Remember our first date? Tyler says smiling. ‘Followed by our first breakfast.” One minute we’re hanging out at an art show, next playing. Getting to know you.
“I remember Your flatmate asking if I was your uncle?” I answer laughing.
“She was mensing then, we went swimming., and you answered she must have a very close family,” Tyler said laughing.
“Would you fancy, a coffee date? “I ask.
“Poolside, my place? Tyler answers.v
“Sounds brilliant” answer
love vandals-24.09.24
dream? fragments
Tiger green eyes glowing
From a fire within
A break from
Hhgh cost of living theatre
ä break From the regime of
0rdinary
Destroying reality
Destroying space
Destroying time
to swim in
the clear light
Vandal: a person who damages public or private property 2)Germanic people that sacked Rome in AD 455.
Love vandals
Lunar eclipse-17.09.24
demon is underground(not sanitised for your protection)
one in the chamber safeties off ( too long on the hustle)
Playing strange games with pink spiders(sweet venom )
Daisy chains and kaleidoscopes
exploding colours
And if Muse
can’t feel your art
You can swim in the Danube( drowning in pigment and passion)
Loose exile
Upside down
Again
down
Again
coming up for air when your blue
their poisons fuel me
immune
to
the lead and steel
they
try
they can’t kill the
demon
watching the lunar eclipse
Lunar Eclipse: A partial lunar eclipse arrives. During the eclipse, you’ll notice a dark shading on a small fraction of the Moon.
Loving the dark side of the moon
Promise-03.09.24
dancing by the pool (post moderne fertility rites)
Black bikini, pale blonde
Long legs
Hips undulating
Underneath a starry desert sky
the devil hears
When you move like that
Promises made
Waking to sounds of shower
Promise: a vow that one will do or refrain from doing something specified 2) hope 3) things lovers say in the dark
Promise
orgia O’Keefe musem-03.09.24
beauty the
root addiction
Skag
Whiskey
cyanide
weak
distillations
of you
Heaven so close
You’re so far
Staggering
into
Georgia O’Keefe museum( she-sweetest shade whispers we made it)
Navigation sends me past
Bistro
to
our Lady of Guadalupe(feeling Mumsy)
how can I be
so close to Heaven
so far
from you?
Existential lovers-.09.09.24
dance with me on the next existential plane
located just past
JADES-GS-z14-0
and where we stand
we can
go
last year
or
in 7 years from today
surfing tubular , Andromeda
roller skate on the rings of Jupitar
go down the rabbit hole
come out in the 5th dimension
share transpersonal unconscious,
we will find a new way to be
Existential lovers
Defining
Being
Defining pleasure
Because we exist beyond
Space and time
beyond precepts
of good and evil
Existential: "Existence precedes essence-Sartre
A long time ago in a different country
Voyeur-1.09.24
Exhaling smoke slowly
The equation in your head calculating
wind speed from smoke
adjust sites
squeeze trigger slowly as you exhale
The bullet will hit before the sound.
Empire down but not out
Ours not to reason
the
Voyeur
Voyeur: A person who derives sexual gratification from observing the naked bodies or sexual acts of other 2) talking pleasures in suffering of others 3) spy
colours-28.08.24
mandarin coloured sun
tangerine coloured clouds
of sunrise
And the
woman with honey coloured hair
Drives towards the glow and the concrete canyon
black colour coffee and dog
blue coloured morning
Colour :the property possessed by an object of producing different sensations on the eye as a result of the way the object reflects or emits light. 2)light dancing with your eyes
Memory-03.09.24
big skies, starry night
call her by your name
cowgirl( bucking bronco)
Staring at the stars they are so bright out here
Venus shining so brightly
the scar on
Your inner thigh
Compliments
the one on my throat
A starry night so long ago
Not that the kid
used to be
the power to retain and recall information and past experiences 2) stories you tell yourself at 03:00
memory
Doors-31.08.24
Horse emerges from artic waters
10 cc’s
This should change
Colours and music
You can’t hear
This music which is a concert
By celestial bodies
One above
And
One below(Angel sleeping next to me)
Clinging to me (faraway in dreams)
Eyes closed darting under lids
Night terrors?
Reading Aldous Huxley
British library Hong Kong branch
Kicking open
Doors of perception
Doors-31.08.24
Horse emerges from artic waters
10 cc’s
This should change
Colours and music
You can’t hear
This music which is a concert
By celestial bodies
One above
And
One below(Angel sleeping next to me)
Clinging to me (faraway in dreams)
Eyes closed darting under lids
Night terrors?
Reading Aldous Huxley
British library Hong Kong branch
Kicking open
Doors of perception
eorgia O’Keefe musem-03.09.24
beauty the
root addiction
Skag
Whiskey
cyanide
weak
distillations
of you
Heaven so close
You’re so far
Staggering
into
Georgia O’Keefe museum( she-sweetest shade whispers we made it)
Navigation sends me past
Bistro
to
our Lady of Guadalupe(feeling Mumsy)
how can I be
so close to Heaven
so far
from you?
Celestial navigation-25.08.24
looking everywhere
Not even sure
When I lost it
Only
that I did
Waiting for sunset those sienna shades
as the city drops into night
Where I will
Find
her soul
my body lost
seeking
What
I
cannot name
Knowing
one way
Celestial navigation
looking everywhere
Not even sure
When I
Waiting for sunset those sienna shades
the city drops into night
Find
her soul
my body lost
seeking
What
I cannot name
Knowing
one way
using the stars(or breathing holes in this box)
. Celestial navigation: navigation by observation of the positions of celestial bodies.
Celestial na
Goofball-21.08.24
Summer day
She breaks
a pole routine long legs wrapping telephone pole
Addictive Combo
clown
And
siren dance
lover dance
Goofball: . an extremely i, eccentric, or silly person. 2. a pill containing a barbiturate or a tranquilizing drug. 2)term of endearment betwixt friends
Goofball dance
Fever dream later-03.08/24
Sunday starts slow
Cherry-flavoured lip gloss, blonde, LBD
Gone
waking
missing
Pollacks daughter
Long dark hair loose
cafe au lait tan
Paint splatters hands feet perception
He brought us together
Frenetic love
Explosive chemistry
Fucking goddess, fucking
Wrapping around my neck
Wrapping around my waist
Wrapping around my mind
Broke needle no I can’t sew?
Sweet lies to me and he( both victim and villain in this “ romance”)
to herself
nothing could keep us together
herr art went silent to me
From waking and sleeping
to her
Fever dream:a state of mental delirium experienced due to intense sickness. 2)a very strange experience or situation, that seems like a dream 3)a dream of passion
just a fever dream
Raw-31.07.24
Redeemed me
Dueling daemons of isolation and futility
I remember you then in that dress that I loved best
loved you then
loved you now
no filters
no pretence
gifting me
your truths
your pain
your ecstasy
distilled
purified
into your art
into the art of you
standing in front of me
starkers
resplendent
ravishing
resonant
Raw: f a material or substance) in its natural state; not yet processed or purified 2)powerful and emotionally charged.
raw
Siren-26.07.24
Siren guides me
Singing lež so mnou hraj sa so mnou
Swimming through the storm (walking artillery)
Straight
to
Lovers’ rock
Love on the rocks?
Pink spiders do EXACTLY what you think they do
Funeral mass of the soul
Secret rites of Heart soul
C Composed of love /pain(one in the same)
channel higher knowledge
in the realms of spirituality and mysticism
The secret lives butterflies( messengers from the other side )
Public lives of birds(spies)
coffee and smoke
the blue bunny prophecy
Talking clouds
Feral pussy
Every planet we reach is dead
still, I follow
Siren : 1)seductively beautiful or charming woman, especially one who beguiles men: 2) mythical? human like beings with alluring voices
Siren
Beyond-22.07.24
Love you girl
I said to no there(I felt you smelled your human perfume)?
I think WE exist always
Just
Not
Here
a space
Beyond
Time
Beyond
Good and evil
Beyond
Body prisons bond
Misery of human
You were
Pure light slowed down
Poured into
Flesh sculpted
By God herself
beyond
Beyond :happening or continuing after (a specified time or event 2)on the other side of
Emotion sickness-03.07.24
Nauseous
Muse
COLD(how are you alive? You’re barely on fire)
Siren song (love on the rocks)
Silent
Shaman pours me a potion( surrender to the ancient fungi, herbs, cactus flowers)
Conjuring the wild Gods and desolation Angels
levitating
torments of St. Anthony
Emotion sickness washing over me
Like a knife to
The heart(scar tissue )
disconnected { later maybe next weekend}
above
milky way(holes in the box so we can breathe)
below
heaven/hell underground poppies and pink spiders
all apologies
Emotion sickness: a common and complex syndrome that occurs in response to either real or perceived emotion. 2)When contemplating the speed and rotation of muse leaves you dizzy or light-headed. Thinking about how fast the muse is moving right now and above Milky Way makes you dizzy and nauseous
emotion sickness
pink spider venom cure?
Objects in mirror are closer than they appear-19.06.24
rendezvous is set
My back is to the door (Alberto providing special effects in the form of rain bands
Tweaking
Watching the mirror
Tanqueray comes in succession
Before I see she(object of desire/affection/lust) in the mirror
A soft hand presses on mine red nails touch lightly
Then across my back I leam in)
stopped a reflex (a collection curated from several continents)
of a glass flying over my shoulder
a kiss
a clench
a let’s get out of here
a quiet( not (much longer)
a redemption
transubstantiation
a Transfiguration
Objects in mirror are closer than they appear
Empty-01.06.24
That scar on your inner thigh( north star )
taste of your kiss(bliss)
Bittersweet(you belong to him)
Passion(a pyre)
And
Regret(do you tell him everything? anything?)
walking by so early
the place
we
shared
coffee
smoke(laughing like children)
tenderness(lust and affection)
now
empty
Empty: containing nothing; not filled or occupied
Crashing-25.05.24
I know that
Look in her eyes
I am going to its a fast ride
must get squirrel and moose
Growling in my ear
Engine revving
Whisper to as scream
from terror to euphoria
Pop the clutch!
No one’s steering
Fish tailing
Catching traction
Launching into
That wall
knew in the
Beginning
The end
Crashing : The effect you get when a stimulative substance (Drugs, alcohol, caffeine, person ) wears off/. When crashing, you'll suddenly feel very tired and/or sad. 2)it involved in an accident, usually a serious one in which the vehicle is damaged, and someone is hurt
I am always crashing
The insane beautiful car
Talk-19.05.24
Out of the blues into the pink
Pink Spider legs pulling me into her pink web
Love is sanctuary
fashionable, spoiled, sexy, emotional, and often distraught to the breaking point
Talk: give information or express ideas or feelings; converse 22)To confess, especially implicating others.
We never talked much anyway
Yet here we are 03:00
You want to
talk
Seen-09.05.24
You people
wouldn’t believe what I ‘ve seen
looking for Camus
in Algeria
smoking opium with Bedouins
blue Saint ascending into bliss
me
descending into hell
in the village
the insides
of
jails
of
hospitals
of
skies
of
hearts
ecstatic dancers conjuring divinity
sacred rivers
Thames, Spree, Tiber, Phraya, Vrishaba, Seine, Hudson
a woman on fire
have you
Seen : past participle of see c[2): it is a response you give when someone tells you something 3): to see and be noticed by important people.
seen
me?
Moody-16.04.24
your call has been forwarded to an automatic message system.
At the sound of the tone leave your message when your done
hang up or press pound for more options
we get it
you’re
in a
mood
you’re
not in a mood
leaving this morning
taking you in
as you lay across that big canopy bed
long champagne coloured hair
hair like a halo
arm reaching (for me?)
café’ au lait tan and pale patches of skin
when you’re
in you’re in the mood
Moody: When a person emotions go from extreme high to extreme low in a short period of time 2) possibly bipolar(crazy in the head crazy in the bed)
my moody mistress
Orphues-11.04.24
we were never of this world
why Angel of death
our favourite lover
you always said
we’ve been here before
Orpheus
I go
underground
to you
To hear you
Say
See
Love
We’ve been here
Before
Orpheus :a Thracian bard, legendary musician and prophet. He was also a renowned poet and, according to the legend, descended into the underworld of Hades, to recover his lost wife Eurydice.
Ritual
Candle .spoon, needle
Now I am Orpheus
Tango-02.04.24
Roses stole from a grave
I bring you
This is part of our dance
Do you want more
Than this dance?
We take 2 steps back
We take 1 forward
Ask your doctor if demonic possession
Is right for you
More than this
If you want to dance
Tango: passionate, emotional form of dance in which the dancing couple hold each other closely and make abrupt — yet graceful — movements.2) phonetic for T
Let’s Tango!
Poison girl-15.03.24
text 999( when life is on the line)-poison girl
answer
Just us
When we’re
Together
Nothing serious
delirious
Fucking
Rapture
wild joy
exuberant embrace
Spontaneous combustion
You can love me like I was loved
Temporal moments
Existential quest
We escape.
Beyond
Good and evil
Beyond
Space and time
beyond
want
to
Cook her poison
shoot it straight into my neck
feel it coursing through my arteries to centre of my brain/soul taking me higher.
Poison : substance that inhibits the activity of another substance or the course of a reaction or process. 2( my habit.
poison
Heartbroken-28.02.24
There are only 2 kinds of people
not race, nor gender
Those who have had their heart broken
those who haven’t had their heart broken
have time is marked before broken heart
and after broken heart
they be come phantasm
goad fighters (can’t kill what’s dead can’t hurt what is numb)
each blow letting pain to surface
taking solace in loose exile
playing underground swimming in secret seas
becoming urban legend
loving (no better lover than a ravenous wraith)
leaving before dawn
because nothing matters
Heart Broken: expressing sorrow especially that associated with irreparable loss 2) existential tiorture
Heart broken
Sin-19.02.24
Sweet lies\you told him
You told me
I told me self
is it a sin?
to still want you in a haze of gin, and controlled substances
desire fuelled us and leaked
on your canvas
I know better
thoughts
still your dark hair
spilling across me pillow
legs’ wrapping around me
screaming Ó Bože!
the divine pleasure
illicit trysts
Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law
is it a sin?
Sin-19.02.24
Sweet lies\you told him
You told me
I told me self
is it a sin?
to still want you in a haze of gin, and controlled substances
desire fuelled us and leaked
on your canvas
I know better
thoughts
still your dark hair
spilling across me pillow
legs’ wrapping around me
screaming Ó Bože!
the divine pleasure
illicit trysts
Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law
is it a sin?
Sin-19.02.24
Sweet lies\you told him
You told me
I told me self
is it a sin?
to still want you in a haze of gin, and controlled substances
desire fuelled us and leaked
on your canvas
I know better
thoughts
still your dark hair
spilling across me pillow
legs’ wrapping around me
screaming Ó Bože!
the divine pleasure
illicit trysts
Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law
is it a sin?
Sin-19.02.24
Sweet lies\you told him
You told me
I told me self
is it a sin?
to still want you in a haze of gin, and controlled substances
desire fuelled us and leaked
on your canvas
I know better
thoughts
still your dark hair
spilling across me pillow
legs’ wrapping around me
screaming Ó Bože!
the divine pleasure
illicit trysts
Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law
is it a sin?
Sin-19.02.24
Sweet lies\you told him
You told me
I told me self
is it a sin?
to still want you in a haze of gin, and controlled substances
desire fuelled us and leaked
on your canvas
I know better
thoughts
still your dark hair
spilling across me pillow
legs’ wrapping around me
screaming Ó Bože!
the divine pleasure
illicit trysts
Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law
is it a sin?
dreaming-21.10.22
Close my eyes words flow
Over the lids
I want to dreams
Are the only place
We exist in the same place
The conservatory gardens @105th in Central Park -where I would have a cigarette with St Jill on our way to the man in central Harlem
In dreams you join me there
The double helix the pattern
Of
Star nebula
Of
Ying and yang
Of
Sex
Wrapping my troubles in dreams
For a hot minutes long time. if you ain’t seen someone in a while or if you ain’t been someplace in a while or done something in a while it will be hot
Idiosyncratic affair 04.02.24
we come
Together
in passion-volcanic
in darkness -lost souls
Leave separately-this isn’t forever -now is good
in
darkness strangers again
Affair :act of which a person in a committed relationship or marriage isn’t faithful to their partner. It can be an emotional or sexual.
Your average volcanic
idiosyncratic affair
Symbols 03.02.24
I cry out your “secret” name
symbol of intimacy
no difference waking
or dreaming
spontaneous combustion
psychic maps
lead me to you
I make love to your essence, even as You keep a distance
symbol of fear or distaste
May this mingling of the Body and Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ bring eternal life to us who receive it?’
Symbol of faith
symbols to absorb
symbols to reject
a kiss
symbol of love
Symbol: something that is recognized to represent a certain idea generally
Walking away
A symbol of no longer giving a fuck
The janitor of absurdity-02.02.24
Night shift
Wonderland
By order of the Queen of Hearts
Mop up Aisle 3
Mop up om aisle 3! Reality bleeding all over the floor!
Go time!
REALITY IS A LEGAL TARGET
GET SOME1
Lunatic mop drawn fire upon reality
Reality turning into lightly salted popcorn
Another mess gone
Janitor: a person employed as a caretaker of a building; a custodian 2) caretaker
Janitor of absurdity
Concentration camp of desires-05.01.24
Desperation
Submerge: cause to be under water 2) you are overwhelmed by a situation 3) sink below the surface of water or any other enveloping emotion or media. Meditations on mermaids’ pink spiders
melancholy pleasure of hearing her accent-raspy
The janitor of lunacy
Seeks sirens
For this cageless aviary
Desirable contradiction
Capucine smokes a Gitane whilst French jazz plays
the holy and the absurd
submerged
in a concentration camp of desires
Sanctified-21.01.24
mouth open
speaking in tongues
arched back
eyes towards heaven
slain by the spirit
stretched across the sacrificial
inhaling her human perfume
as she slips from consciousness
I am sactified
Sanctified :literally means "to set apart for special use or purpose", that is, to make holy or sacred
Smell-16.12.23
I wanna sleep in your T-shirt
Can you hear me major Tom?
You smell right
why come back
Shadows dance and play
here in betwixt worlds
we Existential lovers
smell of love
smell of passion
Smell: power of perceiving odours or scents 2)To be aware of and emotionally affected 3) women’s radar
smell
Concentration camp of desires-05.01.23
Desperation
Submerge: cause to be under water 2) you are overwhelmed by a situation 3) sink below the surface of water or any other enveloping emotion or media. Meditations on mermaids’ pink spiders
melancholy pleasure of hearing her accent-raspy
The janitor of lunacy
Seeks sirens
For this cageless aviary
Desirable contradiction
Capucine smokes a Gitane whilst French jazz plays
the holy and the absurd
submerged
in a concentration camp of desires
