Alone-04.14.95-later
In a bar
Next too
The place
Where my friend dances for men,
you say she sells herself
nicotine stained lungs I speak to you in tongues
And you say my life is a mix of Picasso, Kerouac
Lines, gin and women
I am too high to notice too gone to care
You say my
Madness comes from sadness
Then you
Quit saying anything
Still I miss you
All you left me
Was
Alone: having no one else present 2)Not having anybody. 3)indescribable state of being.
ALONE
Honey trap-26.04.21
you Don't admit that it's part of your agenda
I can't stop thinking
I ain't quite as daft as you think
I am sussing
Honey trap: is an investigative practice involving the use of romantic or sexual relationships for political (including state espionage 2)in cases, to capture or kill the target and gain intelligence
Honey trap
human-21.04.21
morning tangerine sky
a chill
smell of coffee
warmth that is her
human perfume
Mermaid out of water
just human
benediction
embrace
Benediction: a service in which the congregation is blessed with the Blessed Sacrament
Kiss
redemption
Redemption: the idea that humanity can be saved from sin - redeemed
redemption
human
27.03.16-second coming-later
some wait
fiery judgments’
angry condemnations
swords of vengeance
horrendous wars
rapture
a beast
heavy metal imagery
4 horseman
The four horsemen: Pestilence, War, Famine and Death; comprise the four horseman
I wait
you my lover
your soft laugh
your passionate touch
fuck the righteous
heaven was
always
where ever
you are
hell is where ever
you’re not
the dark rider of the apocalypse
waiting for
the second coming
cocktail in hand
lines on the mirror
why?-17.04.21
why she asks
everyone asks how
I am good with why
black coffee
debriefed: question (someone, typically a spy) about a completed mission or undertaking.2) direct questioning by MI6 or a woman you’ fancy.
casually debriefing me
laughing eyes
Mona Lisa smile
it’s been so long
my time at
“Combat”: clandestine newspaper of the French Resistance, editor Albert Camus
“Combat”
fighting fascism
with
absurdist armies
of
the night
fighting
with
passion
she knows the how’s, when’s
she
is
why
The last souls-16.04.21
the lost souls
infinite universe
cold
dark
one
galaxy
9
planets
2
flawed souls
step outside
of space
step outside
of time
step outside
Routine: a sequence of actions regularly followed; a fixed program. 2) cages of our own making
of your routines
step outside
your rituals
Ritual: a religious or solemn ceremony consisting of a series of actions performed according to a prescribed order. 2) building blocks of mental illness
we’re the
last souls
She-12.04.21
let me out of me grave
let slip me leash
she shouldn’t be scared
she wanted my hunger
she lit the fuse
Explosion: breaks up into more than one piece and it therefore changes its shape.2) petite mort
going to feast on her
It’s
fictional?
It’s
Mystical?
It’s
Existential?
Only in moments of
Weakness
Does she need me
now
Does she need me
Now?
Swimming-10.04.21
another mass shooting
the pain has to go some were
all they doi s eat, buy guns, and watch tele
troglodytes fired a burst in anger
you’re like that game
Frag Grenade: L109A1
grenade is a fragmentation hand grenade used by the . The HG85-ki radius 2 metres
forward firebase Julie-burning cigarette rubber band holding the spoon frag grenade pin long gone L96a1
A3 close
Spoon: the safety lever , while depressed will not expolde
fear in your eyes you woke Vampyre
yes, he will feed on you, your talent beauty
pure dope
vampyre shaking need, hunger, want
don’t run to the desert
don’t call sister
Don't give it name
call it swimming
you’re just
swimming
Fever dream-07.04.21
caught
her
vacuum of my stare
gifted her
Affliction: something that causes pain or suffering
affliction
blood throbbing in her thighs
fire in burning I her in her eyes
sweat on her heaving breasts
are
listening
to me
Fever Dreams: vivid dreams you have when your body temperature is elevated
This fever dream is everything
Hot and bothered-06.04.21
Swims to me
Breathelessly
whispering
Hot
hot: having a high degree of heat or a high temperature.2) sexually aroused; lustful sexy; attractive
same breathless voice
2 syllables
Bothered: concerned about something. Upset, anxious, or rattled.2) sexually aroused
swims to the deep end
beckoning me
she’s
Hot and bothered
3 syllables
that change everything
I go deep
Existential outlaw-05.04.21
.45 absurd auto in my belt
betwixt planes
pink spiders
hunt me
Angels
Haunt me
some seek to classify me add me to their collection
my crimes
against
reality
against
time
against
love
exiled and shunned
from
the 3 beer circus
by
General Tom Thumb: a dwarf who rose to fame as a circus performer
General Tom Thumb
underground
drink
loose exile
pink spiders
a dime
I told her
Just
How it end
No future
Only now
On the run
Wanted dead or alive
Existential outlaw
Quien es? -Billy the kid's last words answered by a bullet to the heart
a knock
I know who it is
Quien es?
Salton Sea 04.04.21
mermaids
gathered
there
American dream crashed and burned
They watch the moon
I watch them
The Salton Sea is a shallow, landlocked body of water that has a high concentration of salts and chemicals 2) a community of retirees, bikers, and eccentrics on the shores of an ecological disaster
Having a cocktail and waiting
On the edge
the Salton sea
Casablanca -21.05.20-later
the plane is on the landing strip
raining dark
Ilsa beautiful in the rain
Victor is on the plane
Ilsa runs to plane I don’t look
back
here’s looking
at you
KID
light a cigarette
dessert
after a long journey
into
night
it always ends
like this
Casablanca is the largest city of Morocco 2)a filim 3) a postmodern archetype
alone
in
Casablanca
Good Friday-02.04.21
Spring
Renewal
amidst
Jim Crow coming on strong
the incessant backbeat of mass shootings
ström troopers crucify
people of colour
impotent men with
big stomachs
and no guts
brandish weapons
doves released at the Vatican
like
JOY
Camus prophesied
Plague
Poe’s premonition
Red Masque
Cooking flowers
redemption
pink spiders-famished
Mermaids-swimming free
Angels-rebels
Poetry
Art
spoke with God,
pure love
pure beauty
she whispered
it wasn’t her fault
spoke with the devil
mirror image of me
roars
suck it up Mary
my dog
chases a ball
an attack on US capitol
Good Friday commemorates the crucifixion and death of Jesus Christ
on Good Friday
don’t pretend-28.03.21
trying to get inside of you
no matter what I do
I know
no matter what I do
I’ll never real get inside of you
and make you catch fire
the way you should
Pretend: speak and act so as to make it appear that something is the case when in fact it is not. 2) acting like this was all we ever wanted
don’t pretend
you never wanted more than the
don’t pretend
I never tried
don’t pretend
and
smile
don’t pretend
Lust-27.03.21
she reaches out
a branch
in whirlpool of self-recrimination
longer than smiles can be forced
and
troubled
emotions under lock and key
yet
Lust: very strong sexual desire 2) a strong hunger for anything,
lust screaming for satisfaction
all
i know
no eternal reward
will forgive
wasting the night
lust is life
mon guide voyage en absurdie-20.03.21
waiting night
dragon roars
dissolving into smoke
scotch-coloured skies
blue bunny was calling
pink spider
waves 8 legs
craving me
whilst
I crave you
riot of bald sopranos’
messiah
Sisyphus
Crucified
Messiah: who will change the world order in accordance with the will of God
messiah
strip
show me
your
desire
show me
your
fire
I
show
show you
mon guide voyage en absurdie
a text from Marilynn Monroe-27.02.21
-Starwood?
Madame Wong’s?
catching me eye
whirl wind: almost-vertical column of wind that moves rapidly 2) how god calls you if his iPhone has bricked
Whirl wind of blonde hair, sexy
basically, on fire
hard to miss
easy to lose
then
a text
Marilyn Monroe: Norma Jeane Mortenson 2) blonde archetype
Marilyn Monroe
how to disappear completely-26.02.21
love letter
yellowing like a fresh black eye
don’t try
don’t work
don’t force
don’t fake it
quit now
if it is
then
if isn’t
there already
it never existed
only when it
comes
from
within
not
outside
can
it
immerse you
overcome you
pull you under
until you
are
who
you were
before they told you who to be
Disappear: lecease to be visible 2) to go away or become lost
disappear
Happy Ladings-24.02.21
radar contact
Radar Contact: Air Traffic Control see you on my radar, I'll keep an eye on you
redemption
usually at
Tony
Tony
Lima
flying under radar
coming in hot
cleared for landing
Runway foamy: runways at airports being covered in foam to reduce friction
runway foamy
Air traffic control
She loves me
Happy Landings
slamming romance-22.02.21
waking
to
bright morning light
streaming through window
she walks softly sound
water and low singing
I stumble to wards the
song
watch
a moment
that beingI’m still
Discovering: gain sight or knowledge of (something previously unseen or unknown 2) a new experience
discovering
hand reaches out
pulling
me in
care
kisses
redemption
Slamming Romance
let it happen-19.02.21
come inside
to eye of your heart
might find
a better place
to sleep
starting
revolution
frommy bed
all the
things
that have been
fades away
rebel angel
can wait
it’s too
she knows
take me
to your place
that no one knows
please
don’t
it’s cool
don’t look away
from vacuum of me gaze
let it go
me
you
Happen: take place; occur. 2) used to emphasize someone's wrongdoings or to point out a ridiculous event .3) chemical reactions.
let it happen
Prometheus-18.02.21
winter so bleak
frozen
grey on grey
descending
underground
far away
from
yellow brick road
pink spiders
Mermaids
Prometheus is a culture hero and trickster figure who created of humanity from clay, and who defies the gods by stealing fire and giving it to humans
punk Prometheus ripped jeans black leather
eagle ODs
surfacing
searching for the sacred flame
I have seen it
I will have it
deadbeat poet -12.02.21
indifferent queen
celebrated
adored
whist
I am
Beat: a main accent or rhythmic unit in music or poetry 2) American social and literary movement 3) overcome 4) strike violently 5) tired
beat
looking for
joy
looking for
Love
looking for
a bliss fix
looking for
redemption in dirty streets
looking for
redemption in dirty sheets
a dead-beat poet
t:a lazy or socially undesirable person
a deadbeat poet?
us-09.02.21
flying
past evil
past good
past
time
past
space
past
knowing
Temporal anomaly: disruption in the spacetime continuum 2)) created by the rite-candles, communion hitting the spot in the Centre of me brain exploding conscious betwixt world’s
temporal anomaly
brings me to you
we dance
time means nothing
are existential tango
no
beginning
no
end
nothing else
exists
just us
heartbreak lighthouse-29.01.21
Lighthouse: a structure (such as a tower) with a powerful light that gives a continuous or intermittent signal to guide ships and mermaids
where I live
above the rocks
I was called by sirens
Siren: women or winged creatures whose singing lured unwary sailors and demons on to rocks.
who swam from the Soca
to this the last
evidence
of
Atlantis
of
love
I wait the mermaid
I will break her heart
Again
Like waves crashing
again
until it opens
Mermaid
Let’s me in
eyes turned toward heaven-23.01.21
Fast: something that reflects light) shine in a bright but brief, sudden, or intermittent way. 2) revelation
FLASH
saw you
Really saw you
pale blue eyes
turned towards heaven
the last time
saw you
pale blue skin
eyes towards
Heaven: place regarded in various religions as the abode of God (or the gods) and the angels, and of the good after death2) wherever you are
Heaven
10,000 Kisses in-19.01.21
ome to me and I’ll set you free -
we’re already
10,000 kisses in
don’t want
hold you back
want
to hold you
your passion, youth and talent
Speedball:Injected mix of heroin & cocaine a speedball
A speedball
hitting centre of me heart.
I go the places we shared
hoping you’ll walk in to the vacuum of my stare
backdown?
one way
to love
one way to
fight
to the
DEATH
do I feed on your
BEAUTY
YOUTH
your kiss breathed life
into
the place
me soul once was
10,000 kisses IN
not looking for an OUT
I am 10,000 Kisses
IN
MLK day-18.01.21
woke up loaded my gun
love was gone
no one warned
I am the chosen one
to shine
EXPLODE
burn bright
in my
sights
can’t
RUN
can’t
HIDE
judgement day
TODAY
pistol unloads easy
come
like the
Holy Ghost: Holy Ghost "proceedeth from the Father and the Son".
hit you
like the4 holy Holy Ghost
3 in the face
pray for grace
doctored bullets
ready for a fight
hoping
for peace
on
MLK day
Now-o7.01.21
she talks
reward in the sky
if we die
Now: under the present circumstances as a result of something that has recently happened. 2) all we have
all is now
rivers to cross
get over
Desolation: Desolation: state of complete emptiness or destruction
calling the desolation Angels
texting my man
skinny girl
Wants
Answers?
passion?
Release?
love?
to own?
be owned?
tomorrow?
now is fine
in her eyes-02.01.21
something
your aspect
something
your touch
something
your art
something
I have always known
your feral vibe
lavicous
lips
I must still be alive
blood goes in the need
3cc’s of truth
I
have
always
known
who
you are
what
you are
it was in your eyes
connexon: a relationship in which a person, thing, or idea is linked or associated with something else 2) finding another part of self.
Connexon
In her eyes
Beyond reach-31.12.20
western sky
Constellation of the Cowgirl mermaid
She dances on the sands of the Milky Way
myth
a jealous god threw her high in the sky
out of reach
of poets
artist
who sought
her
seduce her
Je ne sais quoi: a quality that cannot be described or named easily 2) muse
je ne sais quoi
commit to paper, canvas, soul
she dances on the sands of the skies
poets watch from underground
stars
beyond reach
Seeing other people-14.12..20
crossfire at the cathedral
old idols tumble
Kinetic: a certain place or area is violent.
Kinetic energy
forever? down underground
always same
death and glory
birth and death
betwixt
absurdity
same candles incense
holy holy
blood communion
rituals
the stigmata of my disease
you’re sex
your sex
it’s/You’re
on fire
me
never live in the future
never live in the past
no eternal reward will forgive you
for wasting NOW
I am seeing
who cares
I am seeing
who my friends are
I am seeing
Visions:; Visions are understood to be the product of God's self-communication.
visions
I am seeing
the feint within the feint
I’m seeing
art
Line of Fire: the expected path of gunfire or a missile
I am seeing
lines of fire.
I am seeing
saints
Sisters of Mercy: a programme for instructing and training poor girls, distributing food and clothing to the needy, and performing other works of mercy. 2) a band
Sisters of Mercy
care for me
don’t worry about me
I am seeing
other people
t’s you-08.12.20
It’s not me
Psychosis: mental disorder in which thought, and emotions are so impaired that contact is lost with external reality
It’s your psychosis
It’s not me
Paranoia involves intense anxious or fearful feelings and thoughts often related to persecution, threat, or conspiracy
It’s your paranoia
It’s not me
Insecurity: uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence 2) needing constant external reassurance
it’s your insecurity
It’s not me
Depression: a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest.
It’s your depression
It’s not me
It’s you
she’s Mermaid -26.11.20
she’s
in
room 575
Mermaid Hotel
she won’t like it
pool not ocean
Jonesing: Craving, desire, or need something or someone jonesing
Premonition of a soul?
the monotony of desert
assaulted blinding sun
she dances in the sand
we should go swimming
Mermaid: a half-human sea creature with the head and trunk of a woman and the tail of a fish comprising magic
Mermaid
as you were-26.11.20
before
I bored you
before
your psychosis
told you it was me
before
I gathered poppies, coca and fled underground
Before
Your madness filled the room
when
you
were me
lover
when
you
were me
muse
As you were: standard military command. It means, literally, "[return] to your previous posture" 2) before you gave into your psychosis
As you were
Stranger
Stranger -14.11.20
Young women don't kiss me goodbye
Existence improbable
There must
Be
some way out
because night
Random
Soaked
in
Gin, smoke and sex
Stranger sleeps
Name?
It’s all the same
Her body illuminating
the room
write to it
her body
dictates prose
Step outside
of time and space for 1,000 millennium
Step back into
the hellscape
Still nothing
is
known
Attachment is the source of all suffering.” Buddha
Step out
Find redemption
in
Stranger: a person whom one does not know or with whom one is not familiar. 2)unusual or surprising in a way that is unsettling or hard to understand.
A
stranger
visions-13.11.20
at the intersection
it’s St Jill
forever
beautiful
forever
Attachment is the source of all suffering.” Buddha.
in me
forever
love without exception (holy fucking)
forever
to walking on the roof of the ocean
Visions: is something seen in a dream, trance, or ecstasy 2) enlightenment
to have visions
to know that
ALL
Punks
ALL
musician
ALL
artist
in any form
are
Saints
My visions are true
Quien es-09.11.20
Existential outlaw
Existential: meaning of Being 2) the difference between being and nothingness.
on the run
reality
controll
illusion
did I
betray her
if so
because
I could
because
she said I would
I am whatever
you say
I am
gliding
betwixt planes
pink spiders
hunt me
some seek to classify me add me to their collection
General Tom Thumb: a dwarf whose rose to fame as a circus performer
exiled and shunned
from the 3 beer circus
by
General Tom Thumb
too far underground
a drink
loose exile
a dime
Quien es?-Billy the kid's last words answered by a bullet to the heart
a knock
Quien es?
Us-.09.11.20
no
don’t hate
her
no
don’t hate
him
she’s
around
when
he’s
not
around
coming
down
into
my lair
mermaid in a cowboy hat song echoes
There’s
Her
There’s
he
there’s
me
Us:used by a speaker to refer to himself or herself and one or more other people as the object of a verb or preposition. 2) an understanding betwixt lovers
There’s
No
us
Resonate-05.11.20
Ilsa forever gets
on that
plane
I forever stay
on this
plane
Here words
echo
those
words
those
emotions
aching
like
a new
drug
shelled
engines drown sound
various chemical drown the pain
stiff upper lip
Laszlo is a good person
Abomination in jeans
Abomination: I am a thing that causes disgust or hatred
yet
Resonate: 1) produce or be filled with a deep, full, reverberating sound ((her heartbeat)2) evoke or suggest images, memories, and emotions. 3) an echo in my psyche she causes through words and will
she resonates
Haunted-27.10.20
ghosts
living
dead
over
me
like a swarm of flies
walking cemetery
peaceful
the living
envy the dead
grey skies
there’s a scent in the air
don’t trust it
Mercury tipped bullets
mercury tipped bullets: explode on impact.
no mercy
no regrets
not PTSD
reflex
these
won’t be stopped by bullets
need
shaman
not
a
priest
need
a fix
not
a
hug
Haunted: Haunted: to appear habitually as a ghost 2) obsessed by memory or idea
haunted
Pieces-21.10.
these are the Pieces of
my poems my art
torn
by
her long red nails
matching
the marks on my back
I know one way to
love
I know one way to
fight
to the death
I have traveled the world
I have been o
holy places
looking for
answers
forgot the questions
Catwalk: a platform extending into an auditorium, along which models walk to display clothes in fashion shows; a runway. a rarefied place to celebrate beauty and style
she walked in with catwalk strut
I knew how this would end
from the beginning
Pieces: a portion of an object or of material, produced by cutting, tearing, or breaking the whole 2) what’s left of something after it’s destroyed
in
pieces
In the Mood
I walk into the designer donut shop and Mackenzie n asks, “Coffee black and hot like your women?” Morgan is the uber cheerful pierced inked clerk sweet and pretty. I have said, that once too many times. I smile and take the cup, wishing I was a younger version of me, but the younger me wouldn’t be caught dead here even if the sweet and pretty girl was given to dark young men with bad habits and scars
I am looking at the choices something about the fit woman in athleisure wear seems familiar and the mask isn’t helping. I shake the feeling off. There are local art and locally roasted coffee for sale several gyms and yoga studios in the area. She doesn’t stand out just seems familiar, why I am not sure.
I go to the patio and take my red X marked cornerback to the wall clear view of all entrances and exits socially distanced. That woman comes out, and sits directly across from me, her gaze is intense, even 2metres away
“Good Morning,”, I say to pale blue eyes that smile back. There’s a connection. I pick up my coffee, “Slainte”
“You don’t remember me, do you? I’ll give you a hint; I only have one of my red Jimmy Choo’s. She said.
Synapses fire, there’s something to micro-dosing I play for time. “Of course, love, of course,” I say laughing I am getting something, and it will be here in a moment.”
I am only giving you one more hint, Carmen.” she said.
It comes back to me in a wave. meeting in the gallery then, a pub, then spontaneous combustion
“I take it casual sex, is not uncommon for you.”
“Well blue jeans are allowed “I answer
“That’s clever, now tell me my name.” She says her stare is hard.
“Carmen, but do you know mine?”
“Escamillo” She answers’. I laugh.
“Why so serious,” I ask. “I think we’re past the small-talk stage. I am cool, I sussed that night I could have been any man. I woke up you were gone. I
“You woke up before I left, I saw your body go tense. Then feigned sleep. I thought you might call about my pump.”
“I didn’t get your number, love, and my friends didn’t either.”
“I wasn’t looking to be their wife's sister, and yes I was in the mood even, though I am not sure how you knew” She answers.
“I could feel tension and heat,” I answer.
“Am I in a mood now?” she asks
“Yes, but for something else, not a rematch,” I said.
“You’re good,” she said.
“My name is Marlowe; would you fancy coffee we can talk about the weather. I reckon if you wanted to put it all behind you wouldn’t stop.”
“I think I am in the mood for some conversation and coffee and moves close in, I in middle of plague pull her in. She’s in the mood and moods pass It’s now or never
Stolen moments-3.10.20
Stolen: take (another person's property) without permission or legal right and without intending to return it." thieves stole her love”
Whose moments
Are they
Not ours
Are they the others?
We belong to
Ourselves
We belong
To each
Other
How
Moments: a very brief period of time 2) appropriate time for doing something 3) an emotional reaction
Moments
anyone else’s
keeping them
from my dead cold fingers
stolen moments
Tikvah-29.09.20
a chilly morning
black coffee, blues
agent 575 left us behind
full on reality
Open fire
m203: single-shot 40 mm under-barrel grenade launcher designed to attach to a M16A1
with my surreal M203 let off desert flower grenade
followed by a full clip of Irish roses from my absurdM16A1
575
never turns
she
goes full on reality
I watch
screaming, no! fascism, and hate is there
she jumps
into
mundane
into
ordinary
I can’t
penetrate that veil
I go where we met
the
swirling sands
of
fate
where we swam
beautiful tidal pools of passion
currents of desire
Tikvah: word for hope in Hebrew 2) it also means cord or rope, which comes from a root word that means to bind or to wait 3) a precious drug, that fuels us
I will take my last shot of Tikvah
casting runes 16.06.20
I take chances
I take lives (never proven beyond a reasonable doubt)
Lakota: Indigenous people of North American western South Dakota. 2) another John Doe
Lakota
slow move
switchblade fast
quiet
slashing
gurgling coughing sound
Lakota’s baby momma
Casting Runes: Pagan traditions, divination is done by casting runes
Lakota’s baby momma
casts runes
did she know?
she looks at me
smiles
and casts runes
Walking on stars-20.09.20
morning black coffee & blue steel
an angry fix
Prophecy spray painted on the overpass
Andromeda Galaxy 537,000,000 light years from earth
walking on Andromeda
floating through the cosmos
you’re so far away
need you near
expect little
receive less
fruit of the earth work of human hands
10cc’s clear elixir
you should come
let flow to that Centre in your soul
sanctification takes place when a person enters heaven and becomes totally and irrevocably united with God in the beatific vision.
inside you
I am sanctified
Come with
Me yesterday
Tomorrow
Today
We will walk on stars
demon-18.09.20
I am fear
I am madness
Hieronymus Bosch: (1450-1516) a surrealist painter from Netherlands who depicted the world as passing through the devils’ digestive system
I am a Bosch painting
animated
I walk
betwixt
the living
that I may deliver them
Angel of Death-My crush
pink spider-my lover
woke me
I can’t
drink
medicate
her away
If I live
I will kill you
If I die, I will thank you
I live betwixt worlds
Demons: fallen angels (Revelation 12:7-9), and have the same characteristics as their angel counterparts
you have awakened
demon
Birding-15.09.20
They stared
HER
not approaching
HER
as she was
a
rare and beautiful bird
her unblinking pale blue eyes
taunted them
said
nothing
everything
beauty
HER
currency
took her from the aviary
Aviary: a large cage, building, or enclosure for keeping birds in.
Ithere’s no life
in an Avairy
I took HER
on a white stallion
down deep
underground
own deep
underground
past
the other vampyres
past
pink spiders
past
HER
Past
Redemption
Past
Judgements
Past
Zone 6
to
US
Nod.09.09.20
see your lips move
music from some different world
Pink Spider
infecting
my soul
keep talking
I am nodding along
I am on my nod
Nod: is an act of recognition and respect that is accomplished by raising and lowering your head (nodding)when you see an acquaintance in a public place 2) high. Your neck goes limp and your head just slumps down on your shoulder and just nods at things seen and unseen be4cause you’re betwixt worlds
pink spider venom surging
taking you
morphing
you
until
you a
aren’t
you
quit talking
I’ll take
you
there
can’t hear
just
nod
YES
Comfort inn car park Amarillo-30.08.20
Comfort?
left a friend
rocky mountains
going to the coast
me in
flyover country
am too heavy
to
fly
bars closed
predawn dark
HWY 66
crying the ghosts
of last chance
white knuckle runs
scrolling through photos
big brown eyes
don’t look back
love is
always an amputation
drinking
coffee
benediction commonly means a blessing of persons
benediction
upon the Angels carrying him
away
looking for comfort in
Amarillo car park
Moaning Lisa -31.08.20
seventeen syllables
not enough
Mona Lisa: half-length portrait painting by the Italian artist Leonardo da Vinci 2) an enigmatic smile betrays nothing and everything
Mona Lisa smile
Cowgirl
dancing
on
shifting sands
Mermaid
swimming through
treacherous currents
Codex: an ancient manuscript text in book form
I will search the codex
not counting syllables
Mona Lisa
Transfiguration: complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state
Eyes roll back
Shuddering
Sweet sweat
Animal sounds
into Moaning Lisa
time-23.08.20
I want some
Time: a measured or measurable period, a continuum that lacks spatial dimensions 2) a fairytale to explain how we experience “reality”
YOURS
MINE
OURS
you have more
you can swim in it
like the
Mermaid
you are
future
past
present
dance
with
me
don’t
flee
I need
YOU
more
than want
YOU
wanted
YOU
so long
so bad
you want
time
I can make more
I am alchemist
Alchemist: person who transforms or creates something through a seemingly magical process
dance with me
there’s a place
beyond
TIME
beyond
REALITY
beyond
YOU
beyond
ME
we can dance
in
OUR
time
transfiguration-21.08.20
imagine
a cater pillar waking from
the cocoon
stretching
metamorphosis:a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means. 2) a Franz Kafka novella
realizing
everything had changed
you no longer crawl
you fly
thrilling?
terrifying?
both?
painful?
all beauty comes from pain
don’t jump
don’t fall
FLY
"transfiguration:a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state.
transfiguration is at hand
song hits-18.08.20
like bullet
trust me on this
sucking chest wound
Sucking Chest Wound: happens when an injury causes a hole to open in your chest.
that cavity
pay it no mind
just
a
place
I kept
me soul
don’t miss it
miss her
it was
always going to end like this
she was always
a pink spider
heroin
cyniade
weak distillations
she
would always do what
bullets
skag
knives
coke
car crashes
multi-coloured
universe
of uppers
dreamers screamers
shaking like
the priest
the Priest: William S Burroughs
when the song hits
he one with pale blue skies
song morphs
or is it me
when the song hits
helig OS-12:43 dark-13.08.20
consciousness preceded material
material preceded consciousness
Bishop in there
church of 1 & 0’s
leads worship
cathedral of rare earths
random error
=
kitten hit by car
Bishop
betrays thing
I sussed out
heilig (comparative heiig, superlative am heiligsten) holy. sacred
sussed
helig OS
unfired field theory-:an attempt to describe all fundamental forces and the relationships between elementary particles in terms of a single theorem 2) consciousness
unified field
=
consciousness
Bishop
smiles
starts
math’s
to disprove
divine
Shadows-07.08.20
rich woman
beggar
junkie
thief
instagram celebrity
every word
silence
affront to her
sorrowful shades
comfort
me
shield
me
take
me
underground
me
sanctuary
me
solace
me
sanctifying
me ripped jeans
Aleister Crowley was an English occultist, ceremonial magician, poet, painter, novelist, and mountaineer.
Aliester Crowley
ties me off
William S Burroughs was a primary figure of the Beat Generation and a major postmodern author
Burroughs’
Hits
me vein
sending me to the polar regions
I shall live again
I shall die again
I will dwell forever
in
house of shadows
watching -08.08.20
plague
watching
fascism
watching
from the shadows
watching
no 12 steps to heaven
watching
a shot to heaven
watching
underground
watching the surface
they never loved me
watching
our lady of thousand sorrows
some begged some borrowed
some stolen
watching
Jacobs ladder
Jacobs’s ladder: Jacob did not build the ladder to reach heaven, God extended it to him.
