Strip-26.08

remove everything 

no pretense or subterfuge

strip for me

 

 

 Celestial navigation-25.08.24

looking everywhere

Not even sure  

When I  lost it

Only

that I  did 

Waiting for  sunset those sienna shades

as the city drops into night

Where I will  

Find 

her soul 

my body  lost 

seeking

What 

I 

cannot name

Knowing

one way 

 Celestial navigation

looking everywhere

Not even sure  

When I 

Waiting for  sunset those sienna shades

the city drops into night

Find 

her soul 

my body  lost 

seeking

What 

I cannot name

Knowing

one way 

using the stars(or breathing holes in this box)

. Celestial navigation: navigation by observation of the positions of celestial bodies.

 Celestial na

 Goofball-21.08.24

Summer day 

She breaks

a pole routine long legs wrapping  telephone pole 

Addictive Combo

clown 

And

siren dance

 lover dance

Goofball: . an extremely i, eccentric, or silly person. 2. a pill containing a barbiturate or a tranquilizing drug. 2)term of endearment betwixt friends

Goofball dance

 Blonde-19.08.24

Haute tart on me arm

Out of blue into the pink

 and the band plays on

 Fever dream later-03.08/24

Sunday starts slow

Cherry-flavoured lip gloss, blonde, LBD 

Gone

waking 

missing

Pollacks daughter

Long dark hair loose

cafe au lait tan

Paint splatters hands feet perception

He brought us together

Frenetic love

Explosive chemistry

Fucking goddess, fucking

Wrapping around my neck

Wrapping around my waist

Wrapping around my mind

Broke needle no I can’t sew?

Sweet lies to me and he( both victim and villain in this “ romance”)

to herself

nothing could keep us together

herr art went silent to me

From waking and sleeping

to her

Fever dream:a state of mental delirium experienced due to intense sickness. 2)a very strange experience or situation,  that seems like a dream 3)a dream of passion

 just a fever dream

 landing strip-06.08.24

Air Traffic Control  guide me

foam path coming in hot/fast

love fighter bomber

 

union-03.08.24

let it happen love

every sensual pleasure explored

the union of souls

 Swim-.01

Plunge in  cool water

redemption and renewal

diving deep  swimming

 Raw-31.07.24

Redeemed me 

Dueling  daemons of isolation and futility 

I remember you then in that  dress that I loved best

loved you then

loved you now

no filters 

no pretence 

gifting me 

your truths

your pain

your ecstasy

distilled 

purified 

into your art 

into the  art of you

standing in front of me

starkers

resplendent 

ravishing

resonant

Raw: f a material or substance) in its natural state; not yet processed or purified 2)powerful and emotionally charged.

raw

                                                                 Raw-26.07.24

Straight outta my dreams

into your legs and essence

devouring  you raw

 Siren-26.07.24

Siren guides me

Singing lež so mnou hraj sa so mnou

Swimming through the storm (walking artillery)

Straight

to

Lovers’  rock

Love on the rocks?

Pink spiders do EXACTLY what you think they do

Funeral  mass of the soul

Secret rites of Heart soul

C Composed of love /pain(one in the same)

channel higher knowledge

in the realms of spirituality and mysticism

The secret lives  butterflies( messengers from the other side )

Public lives of birds(spies)

coffee and smoke

the blue bunny prophecy 

Talking clouds

Feral pussy

Every planet we reach is dead

still, I follow

Siren  : 1)seductively beautiful or charming woman, especially one who beguiles men: 2) mythical? human like beings with alluring voices

Siren

 NyQuil -25.07.24

got her message

underground

Tyranny of passion

lawless lust

Chaos of coupling

Love

Or

black tar

Rainy morning

Amy on the turntable

NyQuil: a common over-the-counter medication which treats the symptoms of the flu, the common cold 2) help’s then you’re junk sick

NyQuil 

 Beyond-22.07.24

Love you girl

I said to no there(I felt you smelled your human perfume)?

I think WE exist always

Just

Not

Here

a space

Beyond

Time

Beyond

Good and evil

Beyond

Body prisons bond

Misery of human

You were

Pure light slowed down

Poured into

Flesh sculpted

By God herself

beyond

Beyond :happening or continuing after (a specified time or event 2)on the other side of

 reflex-19.07.24

all my reflexes

hell's is   just 'round the corner

heaven so  distant

                                                                       reflex-19.07.24

all my reflexes

 

hell's is   just 'round the corner

 

heaven so  distant

 Done-20.07.24

f the phone doesn’t ring

it’s me

Fuck off

done

done

plastic surgery

can’t

Fix

What

afflicts you

So

Wishing you well

walking

Away

Not looking back

Removing meself

so

Mean you no harm

But

If the phone doesn’t ring

It’s me

 Coffee and mermaids-16.07.24

it’s very lonely

coffee shop mermaid sits down

red head flashes a  smile

  

Love me to death-12.07.24

The taste of your  kiss

Cyanide flavour lip gloss

                                                       Coffee and consideration-14.07.24

 

Have her all I have

 

She hate me obviously

 

Coffee  travel ache

 

 Bloom-16.07.24

I test the limits

Of

free refills

Of

Reality

Of

space and time

My thoughts turn

A wounded Angel

Half her soul(resplendent in its own beauty, and kindness)

She searches

ways to heal it

Angel

Yourself

Cast off this sadness

It's summer

Like

Your garden

You can

Bloom

And that heals

You

And those who love you

 Beast-07.07.24

On your birthday

Going to the places you loved

Our coffee shops, parks, art, the beach 

making something to fill the

empty

You know that critical space

you filled it  with love laughter smoke

Remembering you

without

beauty

Beast: an animal as opposed to a human

I am only

 a

beast

 Emotion sickness-03.07.24

Nauseous

Muse 

COLD(how are you alive? You’re barely on fire)

Siren song  (love on the rocks)

Silent

Shaman  pours me a potion( surrender to the ancient fungi, herbs, cactus flowers)

Conjuring the wild Gods and desolation Angels

levitating

torments of St. Anthony

Emotion sickness washing over me

Like a knife to 

The heart(scar tissue )

disconnected { later maybe next weekend}

above

milky way(holes in the box so we can breathe)

below

heaven/hell underground poppies and pink spiders

all apologies

Emotion sickness: a common and complex syndrome that occurs in response to either real or perceived emotion. 2)When contemplating the speed and rotation of muse  leaves you dizzy or light-headed. Thinking about how fast the muse is moving right now and above  Milky Way makes you dizzy and nauseous

emotion sickness

pink spider venom cure?

 Nodding -28.06.24

I was  on my nod

She tosses   Her heels bra devices

Poppies and passion

 Filthy-26.06.24

there's some one like me

in your filthy dreams  desire

filthy dreams come true

 Tango 24.06.24

this intervention

passion cannot be ignored

dance heartbreak tango

 

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear-19.06.24

rendezvous is set

My back is to the door (Alberto providing special effects in the form of rain bands

Tweaking

Watching the mirror

Tanqueray comes in succession

Before I see she(object of desire/affection/lust) in the mirror

A soft hand presses on mine red nails touch lightly

Then across my back  I leam in)

stopped a reflex (a collection curated from  several continents)

of a  glass flying over my shoulder 

a kiss

a clench

a let’s get out of here

a quiet( not (much longer)

a redemption

transubstantiation

a Transfiguration

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear

 Voicemail.com-10.24

chambering a round

I  heard just cut me in half

vision of the void

 Obliterated-09.06.24

Walking(catwalk strut)  over 

All art is pain

Life is suffering

She speaks 

She slides glasses onto table(single malt rocks round ice cubes)

Still here we are 

Again

Obliterated :: to remove from existence

0bliterated

To rise

 Close .08.06.24

 

when I close my eyes

 

are we still close I don't know

 

 

because I see you

 Shadow play-06.06.24

Laying here sharing a Gitane (only shoplift the best)

shadow puppets by candle light

Living

in shadows of the city

On

Cigarettes

coffee

Music

Art

And

each other

Shadow puppets : are figures that are placed between a light and a screen.

Shadow puppets  in the night

 Sound-02.06.24

beautiful  music

it’s not playing so  you say

wow how sad for you

Empty-01.06.24

That  scar on your inner thigh( north star )

taste of your kiss(bliss)

Bittersweet(you belong to him)

Passion(a pyre)

And

Regret(do you tell him everything? anything?)

walking by so early

the place

we

shared

coffee

smoke(laughing like children)

tenderness(lust and affection)

now

empty

Empty: containing nothing; not filled or occupied

 Stormy—31.05.24

to the  rendezvous

thunder and lightning sound

the storm is coming

 Crashing-25.05.24

I know that

Look in her eyes

I am going to its a fast ride

must get squirrel  and moose

Growling in my ear

Engine revving

Whisper to as scream

from terror to euphoria

Pop the clutch!

No one’s steering

Fish tailing

Catching traction

Launching into

That  wall 

knew in the

Beginning

The end

Crashing : The effect you get when a stimulative substance (Drugs, alcohol, caffeine, person ) wears off/. When crashing, you'll suddenly feel very tired and/or sad. 2)it involved in an accident, usually a serious one in which the vehicle is damaged, and someone is hurt

I am always crashing

The insane beautiful car

 Need a double-25.05.24

that damn  song comes on

a gut punch   every fucking time

yes. wish you were here

 Colours-24.05.24

Shit is hitting hard

Music got vivid  Colour

I have a some soul

 Swim free-23.05.24

Raise your trident high

Mermaid liberation  cell

Mermaids swimming  free

 Talk-19.05.24

Out of the blues into the pink

Pink Spider legs pulling me into her pink web

Love is sanctuary

fashionable, spoiled, sexy, emotional, and often distraught to the breaking point

Talk: give information or express ideas or feelings; converse  22)To confess, especially implicating others.

We never talked much anyway

Yet here we are 03:00

You want to 

talk

Seen-09.05.24

You people 

wouldn’t believe what I ‘ve seen

looking for Camus

in Algeria

smoking opium with Bedouins

blue Saint ascending into bliss

me

descending into hell

in the village 

the insides

of

jails

of

hospitals

of

skies

of

hearts

ecstatic dancers  conjuring divinity

sacred rivers

Thames, Spree, Tiber, Phraya, Vrishaba, Seine, Hudson

a woman on fire

 have you

Seen : past participle of see c[2): it is a response you give when someone tells you something 3): to see and be noticed by important people.

seen 

me?

 That flavour-05.05.24

I can still taste lips.

I never should have tasted

don't hunt love it’s there

 vidi vici veni-03.05.24

why are you worried?

Your element

Tall  buildings 

Holding back 

AI

Miscalculating 

futures

causing 

Lorries to

Run over ducklings

consulted the oracle 

magic eight ball

“as I see it yes”

vidi vici veni

 unky’s 2.5.24

Think us romantic

We’re just addicted love

Mainlining sex  each other

 Désiré1.5.24

Panties and a tank

Laying in  Fantasy  guilt

Flesh faith and desire

 Rain on wedding-20.04.24

PERFECT!

Rain isa life

Rain in spring 

Is a  kiss 

That renews

That resurrects 

Sleepiing earth

That

Nourishes earth

V tonight 

Starts a new life

May your love

Renew you

As rain renews the earth

 Fix-21.04.24

ravenous vampyre

feeding  on your sweet nectar 

you're my fix  lover

 

Moody-16.04.24

your call has been forwarded to an automatic message system. 

At the sound of the tone leave your message when  your done 

hang up or press pound for more options

we get it

you’re 

in a 

mood 

you’re 

not in a mood 

leaving this morning

taking you in 

as you lay across that big canopy bed

long  champagne coloured hair

hair like a halo

arm reaching (for me?)

café’ au lait tan  and pale patches of skin

when you’re 

 in you’re in the mood

Moody: When a person emotions go from extreme high to extreme low in a short period of time 2) possibly bipolar(crazy in the head crazy in the bed)

my moody mistress

                                                                        Just-14.04.24

Just getting higher

Just Coming in  slow  flying

Just Dreaming aloud

 

Orphues-11.04.24

we were never  of this world

why Angel of death

our favourite lover

you always said

we’ve been here before

Orpheus

I go

underground

to  you

To hear you

Say

See

Love

We’ve been here

Before

Orpheus :a Thracian bard, legendary musician and prophet. He was also a renowned poet and, according to the legend, descended into the underworld of Hades, to recover his lost wife Eurydice. 

Ritual

Candle .spoon, needle

Now I am Orpheus

Tango-02.04.24

Roses stole from a grave

I bring you

This is part of our dance

Do you want more

Than this dance?

We take 2 steps back

We take  1 forward

Ask your doctor if demonic possession

Is right for you

More than this

If you  want to dance

Tango: passionate, emotional form of dance in which the dancing couple hold each other closely and make abrupt — yet graceful — movements.2) phonetic for T 

Let’s Tango!

 

Dreams-17.03.24

awake or sleeping

I wake up but keep Dreaming

No difference none

 Games-16.03.24

You can’t handle this

I have world the world-class pussy

challenge accepted

 Poison girl-15.03.24

text 999( when life is on the line)-poison girl

answer

Just us

When we’re

Together

Nothing serious

delirious

Fucking

Rapture 

wild joy 

exuberant embrace 

Spontaneous  combustion

You can love me like I was loved 

Temporal moments  

Existential  quest

We escape.

Beyond 

Good and evil

Beyond 

Space and  time

beyond

want 

to

Cook her poison

 shoot it straight into my neck

feel it coursing through my arteries to centre of my brain/soul taking me higher.

Poison :  substance that inhibits the activity of another substance or the course of a reaction or process. 2( my habit.

poison

 

Ride-12.03.24

thought I was out

Just Ride it like you stole it

She pulled me back in

Fireworks-10.03.24

 

Sensual loving

 

Explosion champagne honey

 

Flowing over me

 connexion-.07.03.24

Sexy talented

The speedball of connexion

Volcanic passion

 Heartbroken-28.02.24

There are only 2 kinds of people

not race, nor gender

Those who have had their heart broken

those who haven’t had their heart broken

have time is marked before broken heart

and after broken heart

they be come phantasm 

goad fighters (can’t kill what’s dead can’t hurt what is numb)

each blow letting pain to surface

taking solace in loose exile

playing underground swimming in secret seas

becoming urban legend 

loving (no better lover than a ravenous wraith)

leaving before dawn

because nothing matters

Heart Broken: expressing sorrow especially that associated with irreparable loss 2) existential tiorture

Heart broken

bloom -23.02.24.

little red flowers

Cloudy skies part

Surfacing for love

 

 gone-22.02.24

If phone doesn’t ring

It’s me gone baby gone

losing game you me

 stuffed animal rescue squad-21.02.24

Kicking

sugary addiction

I this was never me

It always starts  with petite mort

Ends 

A quiet death

Exquisite sadness of desire

going back to my vocation 

Stuffed animal rescue squad 

Next time he’s distant 

You’ll call

I’ll be 

Here

Stuffed animal rescue squad

 

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

Sin-19.02.24

Sweet lies\you told him

You told me

I told me self

is it a sin?

to still want you in a haze of   gin,  and controlled substances

desire fuelled us and leaked 

on your canvas

I know better

thoughts

still your dark hair  

spilling across me pillow 

legs’ wrapping around me

screaming Ó Bože!

the divine pleasure 

illicit  trysts

Sin: utterance, a deed, or a desire contrary to the eternal law

is it a sin?

A+-02.20.24

our Illicit tryst

full of shame and arousal

my scarlet letter

 dreaming-21.10.22

Close my eyes words flow

Over the lids

I want to dreams

Are the only place

We exist in the same place

The conservatory gardens @105th in Central Park -where I  would have a cigarette with St Jill on our way to the man in central Harlem

In dreams you join me there

The double helix the pattern

Of

Star nebula 

Of

Ying and yang

Of

Sex

Wrapping my troubles in dreams

For   a hot minutes  long time. if you ain’t seen someone in a while or if you ain’t been someplace in a while or done something in a while it will be hot

 Idiosyncratic  affair 04.02.24

we come

Together

in  passion-volcanic

in darkness -lost souls

Leave separately-this isn’t forever -now is good

in

darkness strangers again

Affair :act of which a person in a committed relationship or marriage isn’t faithful to their partner. It can be an emotional or sexual.

Your average volcanic

 idiosyncratic affair

Thirsty-03.03.24

Licking honey off

your mons Venus’s sweet

Drinking Ambrosia

 

 Symbols 03.02.24

I cry out your “secret” name

symbol of intimacy 

no difference waking

or dreaming

spontaneous combustion

psychic  maps

lead me to you

I make love to your essence, even as You keep a distance 

symbol of fear or distaste

May this mingling of the Body and Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ bring eternal life to us who receive it?’

Symbol of faith

symbols to absorb 

symbols to reject 

a kiss

symbol of love

Symbol: something that is recognized to represent a certain idea generally 

Walking away

A symbol of no longer giving a fuck

 The janitor of absurdity-02.02.24

Night shift 

Wonderland

By order of the Queen of Hearts

Mop up Aisle 3

Mop up om aisle 3! Reality bleeding all over the floor!

Go time!

REALITY IS A LEGAL TARGET

GET SOME1

Lunatic mop  drawn fire upon  reality 

Reality  turning into lightly salted  popcorn

Another mess gone

Janitor: a person employed as a caretaker of a building; a custodian 2) caretaker

Janitor of absurdity

Hot coffee-17.12.23

her short silky robe

her taut thighs make promises

hot coffee a friend

 Ride/27.01.02.24

white horse ran in from China

We slice with

Razor

Put in glassine bags

 can't

Kill the beast

 we ride

 Muñeca-28.01

muñeca is home

Country in her arms  and eyes

Heaven betwixt  legs

 Redemption30.01.24

Stalked By her Doppelgänger

Longing and shadow

Takes me to her web

Love, faith and porn

ecstatic  visions

most eloquent prayer of all.

Poppies on the duvet

Revelling in the fire

Washing me clean

 count on it-31.01.24
She loved the numbers
believed one plus one was two
He knew equalled one

 Concentration camp of desires-05.01.24

Desperation

Submerge: cause to be under water 2) you are overwhelmed by a situation 3)  sink below the surface of water or any other enveloping emotion or media.                                                  Meditations on mermaids’ pink spiders  

melancholy pleasure of hearing her accent-raspy 

The janitor of lunacy

Seeks sirens

For this cageless aviary

Desirable contradiction

Capucine smokes a Gitane  whilst French jazz plays

the holy and the absurd 

submerged

in a concentration camp of desires

 confessions-20.01.24

I need to get railed

or an intricate tattoo

confessor lover

 Sanctified-21.01.24

mouth open

speaking in tongues

arched back 

eyes towards heaven

slain by the spirit

stretched across the sacrificial

inhaling her human perfume 

as she slips from consciousness

I am sactified

Sanctified :literally means "to set apart for special use or purpose", that is, to make holy or sacred 

 Rendezvous-10.01.24

C suite  double D's

the blonde with the intense stare

rendezvous 25th floor

Smell-16.12.23

I wanna sleep  in your  T-shirt

Can you hear me major Tom?

You smell right

why come back 

Shadows dance and play

here in betwixt worlds

we Existential lovers

 smell of love 

smell of passion

Smell: power of perceiving odours or scents 2)To be aware of and emotionally affected  3) women’s   radar

smell

 lost Angel-26.12.23

you lost and lonely

you another lost Angel

you’re my lover

 

Slut-33.12.23

She says

yes, I’m a slut

That must mean

Spectacular

loving

Passionate

Unpredictable

adore

 lost Angel-26.12.23

you lost and lonely

you another lost Angel

you’re my lover

 Art-03.01.24

That moment

Art was inevitable

connexion pleasure

Concentration camp of desires-05.01.23

Desperation

Submerge: cause to be under water 2) you are overwhelmed by a situation 3)  sink below the surface of water or any other enveloping emotion or media.                                                  Meditations on mermaids’ pink spiders  

melancholy pleasure of hearing her accent-raspy 

The janitor of lunacy

Seeks sirens

For this cageless aviary

Desirable contradiction

Capucine smokes a Gitane  whilst French jazz plays

the holy and the absurd 

submerged

in a concentration camp of desires

 

 Kiss-9.12.23Mermaid remix

You close your eyes and fall into me ravenous embrace

Eyes closed complete

Surrender

You put my hand on your breast

I feel your nipple stiffen

Your scent fills my head the heat of  your body warms me being

your heart races under me bed

Nothing else matters

This kiss

My love

My world

This all we have

Kiss: when couples  kiss, gently entwining their tongues with one another, there is an increase in the production of oxytocin, which is a hormone associated with building bonds with someone special 2) a sign of affection, respect.

A  kiss

Kiss-9.12.23

You close your eyes and fall into my savage embrace

Eyes closed complete

Surrender

You put my hand on your breast

I feel your nipple stiffen

Your scent fills my head the heat of  your body warms my being

your heart races under my hand

Nothing else matters

This kiss

My love

My world

This all we have

Kiss: when couples  kiss, gently entwining their tongues with one another, there is an increase in the production of oxytocin, which is a hormone associated with building bonds with someone special 2) a sign of affection, respect.

 

A  kiss 

 Raw-6.12.23

No pretence no shame

Like sushi raw delicious

I am ravenous

 Broken angel-1.12.23

Found her on the sea bottom of   the desert

an hour out from Notre dame DE Afrique( or was it Joshua tree?)

She ultimately found life 

without any spiritual solace unendurable

She was looking for that ecstatic space

I knew the way

Next day under my coffee mug

I am killer

I am clown

My shots are final

I knew that when I laid down

My crown of thorns hanging 

From the sights of a C8 carbine 

Needing a fix

wander

to the desert

to meet

that 

Broken : having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order 2)Something/Someone that is so good in a particular context that it eclipses second place 3) wonky or conked out

broken angel

she would save my soul  tonight

if I had one

 Thanksgiving my phone is ringing amplifying the ringing from a hangover that is, screaming in my head like a siren, 08:00 it must be mumsy.  “Hello love I answer.

an enthusiastic Happy Thanksgiving!”! rings through the phone I light a cigarette.  The coffee could use a shot of something.

“Are you coming around 3?” I have a guest, and don’t know what’s happening.”

“Please! Please!

“Ask him, there’s so much food. I have veuve clicquot champagne.” My bottle was killed last night. My refrigerator has mixers OJ, and cigarettes Misty might want food. 

“Hang on Mums. I put the phone on the table. walk to the bedroom my apartment is barely furnished bed, and stereo. Table a guitar in the corner.  Albums, books random art. I hear the shower. 

“Misty,  want to go to Thanksgiving, casual my ‘rents some of the exchange  students “

“All I  have is what I had on last night and that might have your teeth marks only dress and 4-inch pumps no hose. “ Misty answers.  Wrapping a towel around her waist. 

‘don’t need hose you’re tan and waxed”

“We just met.”

“You're OK it’s casual. “I  am wearing jeans and a T, you’re pretty in anything in answer. We locked eyes across the room last night. Whilst a band cranked 3 chords at high volume. 

“Do you have a hair dryer?

In the cupboard.”

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

“No, why?” 

“There’s tampons in here.”

“For visitors’

“How many have there been? Don’t answer. None of my business. “ Misty stammers.

“Why so serious ?’ I ask.

“I am overthinking?” she asks.

Yes, if it's a  bother we won’t go”.

No, I want to”.

I’ll tell Mumsy” remembering I left herb on hold.

“Did you forget? 

“I am coming and so is Misty.

Love you cheers”.

Drive to the ‘burbs

Mumsy at the door.

“Was she waiting?” Misty asks. Relax 

The dog barks when he hears my car.” I answer.  I walk around and open her door Mumsy waving us in. There introduction table set we are seated across from each other.

Mumsy says say the blessing. Misty gives me a wink. Leans forward hands clasped in prayer ample cleavage and blonde hair spilling onto the table.

I begin, “Lord we thank you for the bounty on the table. Misty giggles, as does Mumsy. I excuse, myself for a cigarette as my father carves. Mumsy follows. 

“I can’t believe you just said that laughing. 

You can’t be mad you're still laughing.

She hugs me and goes back inside where Misty has charmed my father. Sayed is telling a chemistry joke. I just smile politely Misty gives a laugh.

 The sky was Weeping -13.11.23.

Because

I can’t

But you know that

You were there when

I was born (screaming and bloody)

after died (screaming bloody  gun smoke heavy in the air))

everywhere betwixt

Weeping my way

My stiletto opens

Sorry dude I meant nothing a

Move on

Weeping: to express grief, sorrow, or any overpowering emotion by shedding tears; shed tears; cry

I can’t yet  

weeping

 All-04.11.23

those

Years

All

those

Loves

All

those

moments

all

our

love

Fit in a small urn?

A million  mad thoughts

talking

to clouds

Talking

to butterflies

driving you to the house

Because

That's

used to refer to the whole quantity or extent of a particular group or thing 2) whole of one's energy or interest, love

 all 

there is

 Gonna-07.11.23

need a  fix hollow

never gonna know you but

 still gonna love you

 Shadow puppets-03.11.23

Surging on my rush

Songs for the deaf

Crown of thorns

Ground control calling(let it go  to voice mail)

swimming in the clouds

Pale blue skies( the colour of St Jill)

angels rage and scream

mutiny in  heaven roars

angels fall like rain

Free -take one

Waking

pistol in my hand

Shadow puppets are figures that are placed between a screen and a light. Using your hands and fingers

see your shadow (we are all shadow puppets  at 03:00)

Click the safeties on

Jackson Pollack’s daughters

Good time girl

Blue Bunny is prophecy

Voices visions

writing my disease

 Pink Spiders and coffee-05.11.23

pink spider breakfast

photo appears on my phone

ride like you stole it

 Diseased-30.10.23

I cured the disease

I am  keeping the symptoms

perfecting disease

 Jonsing-22.10

ecstasy and pain

this  condition called  romance

jonsing for a fix

 betwixt-13.07.23

secret rites of Heart soul

 composed of love pain

wrought from agony and ecstasy

higher knowledge

in the realms of spirituality and mysticism

flying 

betwixt worlds 

betwixt 

pink spiders 

the secret lives of   butterflies

betwixt

coffee and smoke

talking with clouds

betwixt

Dreaming on you

Betwixt: between two people or things

Missing you

 Whispers-15.10.23

wispy clouds blue sky

she is   whispering to me

in steely-blue sky

 Sunrise-20.10.23

Transitive  sunrise

eyes like jewels, skin soft warm

us lost in a kiss

celebration-14.10.23 

Reflections from the hall of mirrors

pavement morphing

“white sandy beach

Crescent

moons Shadows

mermaid 

Dancing on the sands

to unseen guitarist 

a heat break tango

we dance

celebrating  eclipse

celebrating darkness (moon covering sun)

celebrating 

each other

Celebration :a party or a gathering of people for reasons that are usually happy where the people interact and have a good time

celebration

 Ravenous=08.10.23

How long have

I slept

Remembering an angel cries

Paint on her feet

Torn wings

Head full 0f Pollack

Passion 
world class pussy

Burning

long ago

Only polaroid from a tryst

Stolen moments

waking

ravenous

Vampyric  hunger

Muse  nervous  

MUST  feed

Ravenous: extremely hungry. 2)starved not necessarily for food. 3) bind desire, that must be satisfied

ravenous

light.01.10.23

she gives off  bright light

a lovely terrible light

enduring  burning

 01.11.15-veil(later)

neon beer lights

bored bartender

she

smiles

the veil

thin

tonight

living

dead

one

not

drinking

alone

shades follow

caressing

comforting

chatting

veil fiction

veil non-existent

never sure

what side of the veil 

I belong

Veil: to cover, provide, obscure, or conceal with or as if with a veil 2) to hide or cover something so that you cannot see it clearly or understand it: Thick fog 3) the thin layer betwixt worlds 

Pulling away the veil