lost and found-27.01.25
I never knew anyone else could speak my language till I met you
Oh, the sublime narcotic that is love
The conceit
finding
me self
losing
me self
in you
As you’re
Walking out the door
Just like 1,000 others before
Thanks for the illusion
I’ll tuck into me ruck
I’ll save it
cold rainy winter night
Open it and let the illusion
Warm us
And keep
Searching
For
A thing I cannot name
Visions of Mary Magdalene,
Mata Hari &
Cleopatra
Sorcessoress 23.01.25
aspect of her gaze
of her walk
The way she feels in my arms
A
Million unquantified things
Intangible
But
Exiting a plane at 35,000 ft
new lover
New planes of existence
Waking 5,900 miles from Chelsea
Next to someone10,00 ,miles front “home”
Unknown is always magic
je ne sais quoi
on long legs
Sorcessoress
lost and found-27.01.25
I never knew anyone else could speak my language till I met you
Oh, the sublime narcotic that is love
The conceit
finding
me self
losing
me self
in you
As you’re
Walking out the door
Just like 1,000 others before
Thanks for the illusion
I’ll tuck into me ruck
I’ll save it
cold rainy winter night
Open it and let the illusion
Warm us
And keep
Searching
For
A thing I cannot name
Visions of Mary Magdalene,
Mata Hari &
Cleopatra
psychomancy-27.03.19-later
sacrament
BEGINS!
mixing sacred powders
lighting candles
seeking the divine
seeking enlightenment
seeking revelation
the only way
I know
injecting
magic
knowledge
absolution
the holy sacrament
psychomancy
psychomancy. a form of communication between souls or with the spirit world 2) when the line between worlds fades
My kind boxing day.24
Lunatic androids
Run rampant
Thunder lightening
Walking a cemetery in the rain
Writings that will never too be read
Muse started playing
different music
Thought you
Were my kind
Staggering
Underground
light a candle
heats
Sacred medicine(t
traveling
centre
mind
soul
Andromeda
Maybe
Find
Kind: 1)good or benevolent nature 2)a certain type of person
My kind
Aaman-later
Recognised
You
When
Pinks spider
Rocked me
It was you
In the souk Algiers
Alphabet City
Dschungel
Vortex
CBGB
you send them
The edge of my radar
Laughing
catch the scent
inhaling deeply
Lost in the moment
Perfecting my affliction
My brother
Aaman
Aemon in demonology, is a Grand Marquis of Hell who governs 40 infernal legions, The 7th spirit Goetia. His favourite way torment humans, causing them to fall in love.
relapse: break up with someone, only to have sex 2)person who's trying to stop using drugs start using again.
I didn’t plan
this
didn’t want
this
thought I kicked
this
sobriety chips: a token to commemorating time spent sober
sobriety chips
trashed
surrounded by death
murder hornets
Nazi’s
Plague
sanctuary
endorphins
my pink fix
I can start again tomorrow
loving
relapse18.12.24
Dream in a dreaming-17.11.24
All she ever was
me dreaming
she felt just like a dream
lost
No way home
Revelation
NIN & Amy
On turntable
crash
after we smash
perchance
to
Dream: a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep. 2) the thing life wants to crush 3) a vision on long legs
dream
Satyr-17.11.24
Siren’s song
Changed
sad
Not sure
Whoever she’s swimming with
Is worthy
Satyr listening
traded
L119A2
for
wine skin
books
art
Call out
Confused hurt song answers
Satyr
Her love would
Be better than
wine
on shore
wine is all there is
Satyr : f lustful, drunken wild gods fond of Dionysian revelry a man with a goat's ears, tail, legs.
satyr
Dream in a dreaming-17.11.24
All she ever was
me dreaming
she felt just like a dream
lost
No way home
Revelation
NIN & Amy
On turntable
crash
after we smash
perchance
to
Dream: a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep. 2) the thing life wants to crush 3) a vision on long legs
dream
Rock-11.11.24
you’re my rock-raspy voice
Seriously?
I feel hollow
propping you up
Is all that keeps me up
just empty
But what
I have is yours
don’t owe us
A thing
you get us stoned
Rock: stone · 2. a piece of crack cocaine 3. )AKA "rock'n 'roll". · 4.)to be cool. 5)you feel that you can depend on them and that they will always support you. :
Morphing into rock
Love vandals-8.11.24
fragments
rode in a pink flamingo
Tiger green eyes glowing
From a fire within
A break from
High cost of living theatre
ä Break from the reign of
ordinary
Destroying reality
Destroying space
Destroying time
To swim in
the clear light
Vandal: a person who deliberately destroys or damages public or private property 2)Germanic people that ravaged Gaul, Spain, and North Africa in the 4th–5th centuries and sacked Rome in AD 455.
Love vandals
Dia de los Muertos-02.11.24 03:00
medicine
Aways brings closer(an elixir wrought by shamans and outlaws
Give my love
To the angel of death(never takes me)
The veil
betwixt living and dead
fiction
Give us your hand
no words
needed
Angel of Death was our favourite lover
But today
Punk Orpheus and Eurydice
All Soul’s Day: Catholic holiday when the living remember our beloved deceased family and friend AKA Dia de los Muertos
redemption and resurrection
Dia de los Muertos
tired of loving blues-29.06.19
revolving doors
spinning me out
taking me nowhere
too cold here
tired of loving blues
just a sacred cow chewing poppies
demons run hot
Angel went cold
Angel
gone
tired of loving blues
too dark?
too hot?
tired of loving blues
strange vibe
Crow watches over me
crow symbol signifies wisdom. A symbol of life magic and mysteries.
tired of loving blues
message
stay sexy don’t die
safeties off
one in the chamber
tired of loving blues
arm full of medicine
head full of menace
tired of loving blues
just empty-23.10.24
03:00 wake in sweat
reaching for me pistol
This is not my survival alarm
I realise
call last year this time and day
You had left the building
first love
first face I saw
still miss you
kiss the blue saint for me.
it’s been a year I have no words
just empty place
Empty ;containing nothing; not filled or occupied.
just empty
contemplating-18.10.24
contemplating
muse
improbity of existence
mysteries of her landing strip
we communicate in dreams
blue bunny calling me
But double moon and we need to play
hot mess
Blows up
iPhone
aeries full moon she says
passion
intense
contemplating
being nothingness and the fine art of seduction
sacred journeys
to another level of consciousness
Contemplation, which is when you focus intently on a question, idea, religious concept or muse
Muse contemplates the complications of a lover
Contemplating
Psychomancy
Absurdity
Union of souls
levitating-11.10.24
love is angel
wrapped in fire
wrapped in the desire
holding us tight
until
light
Angel
Commands
feed the hunger
that has left us ravenous
That is fire
that keeps
us
alive
that has
us
Levitating: to rise or float in the air, defying gravity 2) rise above
levitating
skating
on the milky way
levitating
beyond
Carousel horses-09.10.24
U up?
When did we become
Carousel horses
Go round and round
without
Reaching the end
Racing the same creatures
We need an escape
Can’t be
Carrousel horse
Poseidon
Waves his trident
we emerge from the surf
Running free
Carousel : galloper, roundabout is a large, circular machine with seats, often in the shape of horses. People sit and go around and around
Carousel horses
never again
Coffee date
“Of course, I care, but are we a thing?” I recall one date.
“We are intimate” she answers in a low tone as if through clenched teeth.
” I just didn’t realize you thought of me that way, I am chuffed” I answer.
“I mean calls, that are long conversations of as you say, cabbages, and Kings. The other things weree nice too.” Tyler Now smiling coquettishly.
I take the coffee and a cup of drip with an espresso shot. From her hands. I turn towards the table where Jana waits.
Over my shoulder, I say, “Smoke break gorilla glue.” My phone vibes. And I don’t have to look at it yes.
“After a short conversation, Jan is off to her next stop. She shows me her calendar. I went over my allotted unit. I walk her to her car. We make plans for a trip to the museum, but that will not happen. That will never happen, no heat, no flames. I cross back to the coffee shop.
Tyler greets me” If you were fucking with me about the about the gorilla glue!
“Never my love” I answer stepping into a warm Hug.
“You smell amazing “I whisper nibbling her ear lobe.
“Right coffee and sweat, does she smell of dryer sheets & Clinique?” Tyler said cologne? Tyler said. “She looks like Bridge and Tunnel squeezing in a quickie, with punk Bukowski between breakfast and yoga, then back to Mr sensible.”
“I am not aware of her schedule I answer still laughing. “Anyway, just a coffee date, it won’t repeat, No chemistry, no point.
“You know that in 10 minutes?
“Aye, I knew the minute our eyes met.
I knew when she ordered no make-up, checking her phone constantly. On Saturday morning. I am guessing you were worked in, and Dude you’re all or nothing. Remember our first date? Tyler says smiling. ‘Followed by our first breakfast.” One minute we’re hanging out at an art show, next playing. Getting to know you.
“I remember Your flatmate asking if I was your uncle?” I answer laughing.
“She was mensing then, we went swimming., and you answered she must have a very close family,” Tyler said laughing.
“Would you fancy, a coffee date? “I ask.
“Poolside, my place? Tyler answers.v
“Sounds brilliant” answer
love vandals-24.09.24
dream? fragments
Tiger green eyes glowing
From a fire within
A break from
Hhgh cost of living theatre
ä break From the regime of
0rdinary
Destroying reality
Destroying space
Destroying time
to swim in
the clear light
Vandal: a person who damages public or private property 2)Germanic people that sacked Rome in AD 455.
Love vandals
Lunar eclipse-17.09.24
demon is underground(not sanitised for your protection)
one in the chamber safeties off ( too long on the hustle)
Playing strange games with pink spiders(sweet venom )
Daisy chains and kaleidoscopes
exploding colours
And if Muse
can’t feel your art
You can swim in the Danube( drowning in pigment and passion)
Loose exile
Upside down
Again
down
Again
coming up for air when your blue
their poisons fuel me
immune
to
the lead and steel
they
try
they can’t kill the
demon
watching the lunar eclipse
Lunar Eclipse: A partial lunar eclipse arrives. During the eclipse, you’ll notice a dark shading on a small fraction of the Moon.
Loving the dark side of the moon
Promise-03.09.24
dancing by the pool (post moderne fertility rites)
Black bikini, pale blonde
Long legs
Hips undulating
Underneath a starry desert sky
the devil hears
When you move like that
Promises made
Waking to sounds of shower
Promise: a vow that one will do or refrain from doing something specified 2) hope 3) things lovers say in the dark
Promise
orgia O’Keefe musem-03.09.24
beauty the
root addiction
Skag
Whiskey
cyanide
weak
distillations
of you
Heaven so close
You’re so far
Staggering
into
Georgia O’Keefe museum( she-sweetest shade whispers we made it)
Navigation sends me past
Bistro
to
our Lady of Guadalupe(feeling Mumsy)
how can I be
so close to Heaven
so far
from you?
Existential lovers-.09.09.24
dance with me on the next existential plane
located just past
JADES-GS-z14-0
and where we stand
we can
go
last year
or
in 7 years from today
surfing tubular , Andromeda
roller skate on the rings of Jupitar
go down the rabbit hole
come out in the 5th dimension
share transpersonal unconscious,
we will find a new way to be
Existential lovers
Defining
Being
Defining pleasure
Because we exist beyond
Space and time
beyond precepts
of good and evil
Existential: "Existence precedes essence-Sartre
A long time ago in a different country
Voyeur-1.09.24
Exhaling smoke slowly
The equation in your head calculating
wind speed from smoke
adjust sites
squeeze trigger slowly as you exhale
The bullet will hit before the sound.
Empire down but not out
Ours not to reason
the
Voyeur
Voyeur: A person who derives sexual gratification from observing the naked bodies or sexual acts of other 2) talking pleasures in suffering of others 3) spy
colours-28.08.24
mandarin coloured sun
tangerine coloured clouds
of sunrise
And the
woman with honey coloured hair
Drives towards the glow and the concrete canyon
black colour coffee and dog
blue coloured morning
Colour :the property possessed by an object of producing different sensations on the eye as a result of the way the object reflects or emits light. 2)light dancing with your eyes
Memory-03.09.24
big skies, starry night
call her by your name
cowgirl( bucking bronco)
Staring at the stars they are so bright out here
Venus shining so brightly
the scar on
Your inner thigh
Compliments
the one on my throat
A starry night so long ago
Not that the kid
used to be
the power to retain and recall information and past experiences 2) stories you tell yourself at 03:00
memory
Doors-31.08.24
Horse emerges from artic waters
10 cc’s
This should change
Colours and music
You can’t hear
This music which is a concert
By celestial bodies
One above
And
One below(Angel sleeping next to me)
Clinging to me (faraway in dreams)
Eyes closed darting under lids
Night terrors?
Reading Aldous Huxley
British library Hong Kong branch
Kicking open
Doors of perception
Doors-31.08.24
Horse emerges from artic waters
10 cc’s
This should change
Colours and music
You can’t hear
This music which is a concert
By celestial bodies
One above
And
One below(Angel sleeping next to me)
Clinging to me (faraway in dreams)
Eyes closed darting under lids
Night terrors?
Reading Aldous Huxley
British library Hong Kong branch
Kicking open
Doors of perception
eorgia O’Keefe musem-03.09.24
beauty the
root addiction
Skag
Whiskey
cyanide
weak
distillations
of you
Heaven so close
You’re so far
Staggering
into
Georgia O’Keefe museum( she-sweetest shade whispers we made it)
Navigation sends me past
Bistro
to
our Lady of Guadalupe(feeling Mumsy)
how can I be
so close to Heaven
so far
from you?
