·      Musing-16.09.25

·      somehow I know her

 

·      Somebody I never met

 

·      mad bohemian

  Starvibg-13.09.25

· gives herself to him

· whilst starving I am starve here

· she gives it away

 side peace-02.10.25

my weapons armor 

outside

find serenity in your embrace

sanctuary in your bed

lost and found 

in

My beautiful side peace

 Havoc-01.10.25

She slipped my leash

Crying havoc

My name

Chaos

I was born for this

The match

Lit her snatch

Together

Erotic riot

Havoc: widespread destruction 2) my new friend

 The dark cocktail hour of Soul-7.10.25

l here is a loneliness 

so strong it has no name(it

The sadness that screams so loudly

it causes mermaids to weep

I have heard nothing I drink 

I stare into  

the emptiness 

the  cold

of space

put a record on the turntable

pour another drink

dark cocktail hour

of 

soul

 Flashing-07.10.25

a flash of kismet

a flash of cool connexon

flashes lighting the night

 

Absurd love 11.10.25

The prophet Absurdity calls you

Comfort and safety

Of your bougee life

Suffocate your soul

Come to me Angel

Your demon lover

See’s past

Your long legs

See’s past

World class pussy

Sees into your 

Soul that glistens like a star

Hitting me like a new drug

Denounce thy name

If only for a night

Absurdity: the quality or state of being ridiculous or wildly unreasonable  2) a philosophy 

 Swim-30.09.25

Past Euston station

Where mermaids traded fins for long legs

Swim with me  dolly

 Disintegration 17.9.25

Spiraling

Black

Lost

Pain high

Being put in car

waking

NICU

IV’s (I could done better)

Where you are?

In limbo

do you know your name ?

My name is disintegration

disintegration: nucleus or other subatomic particle emits a smaller particle or divides into smaller particles.2) falling apart

 Blue on blue-26.09.25

my indigo heart

because I can't lose your touch

bleeding blue for you

                                                               Fly-26.09.25

I heard a rumour

ATC not going  let us land

sussing fly higher

 Thunder-21.08.25

Dry y lighting tonight

followed  soaking rain

waiting on thunder

 low-22.08.25

driving this flesh suit

always in shadows

nnver seeing the light

it’s low

low

low

Wanna break out right now

break through

the other side

So low 

Demon chasing

angels

myths

joy

Toss this flesh suit

Ravaged

By

Highs

Lows

Only

 Cry to heaven-27.08.25

Rifle fire through a stained-glass window

children’s bodies

Litter church

Horror splattered

On screens

Repeated

Over

And over

A country

Loves guns more than children

Makes a demon cry to heaven

 Rendezvous-24.08.25

we  were  to go swimming

I dreamt of us at the 105th street conservatory

Going uptown

me you in the light

I woke to the shadows

Thinking of

Our next rendezvous

  I fixed

waiting for

just a little joy

rendezvous : pre-arranged meeting, often romantic or clandestine, between two people

 

 

 Off-29.08.25

You won’t know

demon eyes-dead

Medicine-numb

Heart wounded

Staggering

Staring at the night sky

Fancying truth and existence

Other unknowns in

The beauty of night

Want underground

6 ft deep

Just off

Off: feeling worse than usual; unsatisfactory or inadequate. 2)something  having gone bad. 

 

 

 

 Firing squaud-30.08.25

not  alone

I smile at her like a forest of mannequins

Just lonely

echo won’t call my name

Muse just a memory-the flame that guides

’Tension!

only

Ready!

love

Aim!

can save me

Fire!

Love is the only strategy for survival

 nausea and funk-17.07.25

Feels like  a hole

torn asunder

time and space continuum

motion sickness( no Dramamine® 

 strong enough)

betwixt planes

blue mermaid’s

pink spiders

black dog

white China

nausea

nausea: a feeling of sickness or queasiness, a strong feeling of disgust or revulsion, and figurative uses related to unpleasant experiences or situations

 

Dreamer-21.07-,25

Real enough to touch

Beautiful , sexy cool enough to dream about

dreaming

 Coma-30.06.25

 days coma

Chatting with blue and my Botticelli

3 days on the other side

Feeling Mumsy pushing back

Waking

Psychedelic tiger fur pulsing

Nurse like pinup

Coma :unconsciousness where a person is alive but unable to move or respond  to their environment  2 ) a place betwixt worlds

coma

 junky’s 2.5.24

Think us romantic

We’re just addicted love

Mainlining sex  each other

 psychologist hedonic-17.08.25

long hair and high dress

sweet and salty taste

she's high as her dress and  heels

Dreams

Come

From

Such early songs

A left that would lift

A telecaster

That guided

Some where

Betwixt

Eaven and h

 Cosmic-18.08.25

Cosmic waves bring us together -

That song

You dancing

Like  Venus in LBD

Somewhere. in the cosmo’s

Those versions of us

Exists

 will always exist

Lost and found in each other

cosmic: immeasurably extended in time and space; vast 

 Dragon-19.08.25

Enter the dragon

gripping pink dragon hot  wet

your night  stands ready

 Miracle?-19.08.25

Do Angels exist?

Seeing you I think maybE

kiss me miracle

 swimming on  D-day-06.06.25

Muse is on the beach(waiting to be stormed)

laughing

rearranging

me words

rearranging

me colours

maniacal laughter

Like stars in the Milky Way

breathless  passion 

Swimming

in

Stars

Swimming

in

absurdity

Swimming

in

joy

swimming

in

Each other

Because

We can’t

Say love

We’ll

Name it

Swimming: propelling oneself through water 2) going  through different things

swimming

 fixing-264.05.25

her tanned toned taught thighs

already  know how  it ends

so here we again

 Relapsing-14.05.25

Here you come again

I know better

Pavlovian response(flashing on us kitchen floor )

How we came together(ravenous)

How we came apart( blue bunny prophesied)

Now a fix then back to him

Relapse: relapse: break up with someone, only to have sex  2) person who's trying to stop using drugs  start using again

Relapse is part of recovery

relapsing

                                                           C suite confessional-cinco-25

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

Her heart pierced by t traitorous fools

 

Lost souls coffee smoke

 

 Stormy morning-07.05.25

Artillery sounds

waking different space place

she pulls me back here

 Smoking-18.05.25

as I am smoking

end of my pipe dragon forms

I can never catch

 Gravity-mayday-25

spiralling  towards

andromeda

This galaxy

Has me

Low low

benediction absolution

In a bikini( the dream made flesh)

Free  

Ground control 

learned for take off( never fancied your type, anyway

Slagging off gravity

Brings me

Gravity: the force that attracts a body toward the centre of the earth 2) gravitas ‘weight, seriousness’, from gravis ‘heavy’.

down

down

no gravity 

falling

leash slipped( cry havoc!)

flying 

wrapped up 

 Sphinx-25.04.25

sphinx in underground

not protected fantasy

riddle me love

 Musing-02.05.25

Layer cake on Pluto

Muse hits like China White

skin on skin sin on sin

flying

swimming

Through space,  time,  traffic lights

Like gases becoming stars

 Talking to Angel-13.07.25

Love you

Love you

Don’t know your name 

Love you

Love you

Know  your name

Angel

 Bedroom eyes-30.03.25

Gazing

into sultry smouldering sensuality

must have been lovers

in

some

past(Aphrodite Priestess)

or

future(cosmic romance)

parallel (multiverse adventures)

lives

those bedroom eyes call me

Bedroom eyes: refers to a sexually enticing or seductive gaze that invites intimacy or sexual interest 2) inferno I am drawn to like a moth

 Heaven-02.25

head thrown back

Mouth open in a scream-agony/extasy?)

Eyes  only whites show eyes pointed towards heaven

 Back arched

Shuddering  covered in sweat

Arms/legs outstretched

her expression

somewhere betwixt

Agony and rapture

Heaven: girl that nobody can really define 2)  religions as the abode of God (or the gods) and the angels. 3) here in these dirty sheets

Focused on heaven

 Gossip-29.03.

they said Life taker

they said I was heartbreaker

some of it was true

 waking-29.03.25

you people can't know

the pressure of not feeling

wake  stranger and  gun

 Floating-17.03.25

long legs smile  a wink

`losing all my gravity

Irish girl magick 

 this poem has no name 14.03.25

láska, I miss U

comes across me phone

I waved goodbye

Through smoke

As you lit

The bridge

ablaze

I  cut the thread Sykes Fairbairn boot dagger

You dangled my heart

Watched as it fell

Shattered little black pieces  scattering and dissolving

couldn’t/wouldn’t

be

who you needed us  to 

be

those paintings

us

 engaged in a tryst 

he burned

not looking back 

angry

your passion 

was ecstasy

until it wasn’t

but you belong to 

a cold distant god

the status and security

you need so desperately

I am

what you see 

loved you then

love you now 

blood moon appears

I am but 

a shadow in the night

 Ash Wednesday-06.03.25

she worries her heart is not

big enough (warriors’ hearts always gigantic & warm)

I know

only

that love is the only strategy

love is amputation, every time

love is all there is “the priest 

makes a smudge

chants

“Remember that you are  star dust, and to star dust you shall return

love in the ashes

Ash Wednesday

 Ash Wednesday-06.03.25

she worries her heart is not

big enough (warriors’ hearts always gigantic & warm)

I know

only

that love is the only strategy

love is amputation, every time

love is all there is “the priest 

makes a smudge

chants

“Remember that you are  star dust, and to star dust you shall return

love in the ashes

Ash Wednesday

 survivor-11.03.25

4 years gone today

angry lonely just miss you

a kiss would be bliss

escape pod-22.02.25

I’ll take you there

Come underground

We can dance with different versions

Of us

They can't touch us here

swimming

In

sound

In

Revelations

in

pleasure

kaleidoscopic journeys

flying through galaxies

Laughing maniacally

Ravenous lovers

 bye-20.02.25

It's not our time now

Sometimes you gotta let go

still love you so doll

 valkyrie-12.04.

soft power queen smiles

vulnerable Valkyrie

softly conquer

• survivor-07.02.24

• My heart shed its skin

• So that you could enter it

• love is  survival

  

Beauty marks-03.02.25

Red scratches

Line me  back

Proof of our passion

linch in the shower  a sting   awake

Every love

Leaves a mark

Ink

Is getting off easy

I will cherish the

Abstract of  the night

When you fucked me

Like it was my last night on earth

Beauty  marks

 

                                                               j’adore-14.01.25 

my whore  I adore

my melancholy baby

My Esmeralda

 strip  18.012.

 

I Love you like this

 

Stripped to bare soul resplendent

 

Absurd truth and  prose

  ghost dance022.01.25

roar of my machine

Love crucified

Free fire

Mercury-tipped bullets

Roar of my machines

and methadone

Looks that kill

I got the madness

I got the method

I got the means

2  worlds

I am somewhere betwixt

bleeding

the light

has gone

so, I’ll set a fire

with

A ghost I’ll dance

into the flames

into the void

 

 talking with clouds-17.01.25

your photo

favoured song plays

butterfly that follows me

landing on me

few brilliantly

lovely

moments

curtain

Betwixt

worlds

fades

your

heat

scent

Fill me

hitting

like China White

Shot in me neck

Floating  on a cloud and a fix lying though

planes of perception

 lost and  found-27.01.25

I never knew anyone else could speak my language till I met you

 

Oh, the sublime narcotic that is love

The conceit 

finding

me self

losing

me self 

in  you

As you’re

Walking out the door

Just like 1,000 others before

Thanks for the illusion

I’ll tuck into me  ruck

I’ll save it

cold rainy winter night

Open it and let the illusion

Warm us

And keep

Searching

For

A thing I cannot name

Visions of Mary Magdalene, 

 

Mata Hari  &

Cleopatra

                                                        Sorcessoress 23.01.25

aspect of her gaze

of her walk

The way she feels in my arms

A

Million unquantified things

 

Intangible

But

Exiting a plane at 35,000 ft

new lover

New planes of existence

 

Waking 5,900  miles from Chelsea

Next to someone10,00 ,miles front  “home”

Unknown is always magic

 

 

je ne sais quoi

on long legs

 

Sorcessoress 

lost and  found-27.01.25

I never knew anyone else could speak my language till I met you

 

Oh, the sublime narcotic that is love

The conceit 

finding

me self

losing

me self 

in  you

As you’re

Walking out the door

Just like 1,000 others before

Thanks for the illusion

I’ll tuck into me  ruck

I’ll save it

cold rainy winter night

Open it and let the illusion

Warm us

And keep

Searching

For

A thing I cannot name

Visions of Mary Magdalene, 

 

Mata Hari  &

Cleopatra 

 coffee-30.01.25

down the rabbit hole

take my hand I know the way

unknown pleasures wait

 psychomancy-27.03.19-later

sacrament 

BEGINS!

mixing sacred powders

lighting candles

seeking the divine

seeking enlightenment

seeking revelation

the only way

I know

injecting

magic

knowledge

absolution

the holy sacrament

 

psychomancy

psychomancy. a form of communication between souls or  with the spirit world 2) when the line between worlds fades

 

 Mirage-13.01.25

 

I can still taste you

 

Your scent, feel and warmth still

 

 

memories of us