17.06.15-beauty

All beauty

is pain

Beauty

only comes

from pain

Beauty

always causes

Causes pain

Love 

can’t  

you

see

Beauty is pain
pain is beauty

Happy Injections

if  I 

Could 

I 

would 

inject you

straight into

My soul

I 

look 

into your 

Eyes

I realise

you

recognise  this 

darkness

I

would inject you

And this dark journey 

is not 

lonely

16.06.15

I wipe 

The fog

off the mirror

I see

you staring

Back

brown eyes so blue

a sweet sadness

contrasting

an easy smile

I can see you inside me, 

and 

me inside you

13.06.15

I remember everything

I remember nothing

I know 

Who

lived

I know

Who 

died

I know

My shots were clean

I know

my  shots were final 

I know 

The smell of gunpowder 

Hanging  in the air

I know 

The taste of blood 

I know

Death 

doesn’t 

love me 

12.06.15

a bottle of wine

and this beach such a luxury

 I know what tomorrow brings 

An airplane taking me far far away

tonight?

that was a long 

time ago, in that Teutonic capital

I was always 

Cold 

Except in our flat

that  newly discovered country

a nation of two

now here it feels not so far 

the others?

so much noise

all we have is now

I love

now

11.06.15
of course
I see you
I have
Been underground for years
I  felt
you here
Before
I saw
you here
take my hand
you already know me

10.06.15

She’s a real gone girl

In 

her own world

she 

talks to angels

not  

to

Demons

she’s

gone

gone 

talking  to angels

in her world

no demon’s there

07.06.15

so you 

have 

grey eyes

so you

have’

blues

your names’

Labda

So your names 

Lillya

So I

Know how 

You 

Make me feel

So I don’t what you’re saying 

So just smile

06.06.15

I wake up

I am not at peace

in
 my heart 

I am a poet

in 

my heart

I have no guilt

in 

my heart

I have no regret

in

my heart

I seek

To take your pleasure

I want 

your skin

in
my heart

I hunger for 

your soul

02.06.15

I kissed

And 

Held you

But 

I didn’t 

Know how it would change 

Me

Part of me

Will

Always be with 

you

01.06.15

how 

is 

this fair?

You 

Kiss

Me

First

With

Passion 

Then

With

Hunger

Then

Tenderly

With

Affection

How is that 

Fair?

Who 

Does 

That?

31.05.15

How do you 

awake to 

your new 

lover ?

me 

the irascible

lover

who snogged you 

in middle of the pub 

caressing you in the street

held you close 

and looked

in your eyes 

as friends changed to lovers

By now

I should 

Know

Your words, that 

I find

Are pretty

And 

I am 

Not

By now

I should know

you 

run 

towards me

then

run 

even faster away

By now

I should know

I end up here

half a glass of gin 

And a punch to the face

The person they warned you of

By now

I should know

I happen along

three muses in the wood 

three beauties

Three women laughing

the image 

stays with me

long after

I can 

determine

if I dreamt

it

27.05.15

  

I kiss you

Tasting 

You

I 

Realise

I am

Starving 

Pollocks Girl

She hits me like a new 

very strong 

Drug

Instead of vein

Consciousness 

Instead of blood

Soul

Pollock's Girl

Washed over

Me again

25.05.15

dreams 

how can it be

I see  your

Dreams

If 

This is a dream 

Don’t wake me

I want to swim in  your dreams 

and 

pull  you into

my dream

22.05.15 later

If an Angel 

Spoke 

Could

I 

a demon 

hear?

If an Angel 

Came 

To the underground

Would

The 

Light 

Blind 

Me?

If

a

demon

kisses an angel 

does the  demon 

Immolate ?

22.05.15

Love

Is

The currency of the soul

Yet

The only way to accrue it

Is

To

Give it all

away

21.05.15

let’s 

wrap around 

each  other

I will hold

You 

Until we are one

Souls feeding on 

each other

each bitten by love