psychomancy-27.03.19

sacrament 

BEGINS!

Sacrement: a religious ceremony or ritual regarded as imparting divine grace, such as baptism, the Eucharist  -in Catholic  and Orthodox religion penance and the anointing of the sick

(Catholic and many Orthodox Churches)

mixing sacred powders

lighting candles

seeking the divine

seeking enlightenment

seeking revelation

the only way

I know

injecting

magic

knowledge

absolution

the holy sacrament

of

psychomancy

psychomancy. a form of communication with the spirits of the dead. communication between souls or with the spirit world. 2) when the line betweens worlds fades

 clarity-12.03.19

searching for clarity

purple dragon

fly’s by

don’t see the purple ones  much

I walk in grey soup

thinking of a different

place

a different

time

the fog here

obscured

Obscured: keep from being seen; conceal

ancient roads

the one waits   in the next plane

pointing at her watch

I am late

searching 

a

sister of mercy 

Sisters of Mercy are Roman Catholic women of faith who commit to serve God & serving those in need.

give us

a drink

give us

a spliff

give us

comfort

0300

I must leave

clarity

the next plane  waits

just not tonight

Clarity: the quality of being coherent and intelligible

Clarity

Secret Agent Man-07.03.15-later

I kept your secrets, and then I keep them now

Secret: not known or seen or not meant to be known or seen by others

I loved you, and then I love you now

No, he doesn’t need to know

Not about where you danced, that you danced

Your girlfriend, our girlfriend

I see you

I taste your kiss

Her kiss 

Vodka and Gitaines

I hear loud angry music

screams

secret pleasures

secret habits

secret loves

And I nod and keep walking

A stranger pretending

Your secrets

Safe

Secret Agent:  a person who carries on espionage or similar work of a secret nature 2) keeps your past, in the past.3) the one you never claim

Secret Agent

Yesterday -07.03.19

I was a young man

yesterday

Yesterday: the day before today 2) an existential space where our love waits. 3) neither leaving, nor gone

strong attractive

yesterday

I  had value

yesterday

this place had light

yesterday

there was joy

yesterday

dreamed

the  castle

built

in the

sand

yesterday

you

danced

Venus

dancing

on a

aphrodisiac

Aphrodisiac: a food, drink, or drug that stimulates sexual desire

yesterday

you were light 

to

 this darkness

yesterday

haunts

today

Mardi Gras-05.03.19

Mardi Gras technically refers Fat Tuesday. The Tuesday before  Ash Wednesday and the beginning of Lent.

Angel  only artist  on mars

I poet laureate of hell

Angel’s cries

reached

deep

underground

demon

Angel 

in

loneliness

sinned

in Angel’s sin 

benediction

fled to

a

cold 

distant 

god

of

desert and sleep

demon

waking 

to  

Ash Wednesday

Lent: begins on Ash Wednesday and ends approximately six weeks later, before 

Easter Lent is is a season of reflection and fasting.

lent

has began

Easter  may never come

just -28.02.19

remember

how we met

me too

just

seems

we’ve always

just

known

each other

just

us

just

years

miles

just

fade

just

talk

just

secrets

just

dreams

just

ghost’s we love

scars

stars

you loved me better

than 

the

bitches

I loved you better

than

the

just

you

greedy girl

just

me

you and me

Home03.03.15(later)

Home is

Home: relating to the place where one lives2) a mythical  place where you belong

cluster phobic

Let's go to your Place

Home is

always screaming

go to your place

Home is

Sticking in my throat

Let's go to your place

Home is

Standing on Me tits

Let's

Go to your place

Home is

Angrily accusing

Let's

Go to your place

Home is

Quietly loathing me

Let's go to your place

Love

woman child -14.02.19

blue hallucinations

Hallucinations: perception of things not present. Visions glimpses’ of truths

pink premonitions 

Premonition: a strong feeling that something is about to happen

haze underground

drinking deep

of

reluctant  girl

of  

 raging woman

2dragons mate midair

Hypnotized

by

Hypnotized: a trance like state 2)  an altered  state of consciousness

surrender in your eyes

by

you evaporating

walking

walking

in the rain

Trump crosses the Rubicon

chasing  

what we lost

Rubicon river an event in 49 BC that which ultimately led to Caesar becoming dictator 2)  death of the republic

chasing

dragons

chasing

memories

chasing

what  was

chasing

a scared child

chasing

my woman

chasing

woman child

 explosions 16.02.19

not my type

she was

like

that game

Forward Firebase Julie

flash bang

Flash Bang :stun grenade at close range can permanently  affect hearing ,sight, and scaring.

a lit cigarette

a rubber band

holds the spoon

Spoon: safety lever while  held  tightly grenade  will not explode.

pin on the table

who reaches for it?

who watches  it explode

the explosion

reach

for her

or 

watch her explode

Venom-23.01.19
Beauty
stings
pink spider
crazy
sexy
cool
Gauguin paints a flower behind her ear
outrageous cyborgs dancing
A poisonous substance secreted by animals such as snakes, spiders, and scorpions 2) a hallucinogenic
pink spider venom
surging
in
my
veins
in
my
brain
in
my
conscious
Hallucinations and premonitions
visions
venom
sweet
venom

That night-31.01.19

that night

Insomniac

Insomniac: person who is unable to sleep

That night

I asked hard questions of the night

That night

Smoked too many cigarettes

That night

Too much gin

That night

darker 

That night 

Shot a dime bag

Shot:  an injection

Dime Bag: a specified amount  of drugs for an exact price

That night

that night

we didn't sleep together .

haunted-28.01.19 

heard

it 

in 

her 

sighs

felt

 it

in

her 

thighs

it was

love

Love: an intense feeling of deep affection 2) a popular delusional state of dysfunction3)the only strategy for survival

just love

can’t give

it

away

no life here

Haunted: 1) frequented by a ghost 2) having or showing signs of mental anguish or torment

Haunted

rusty cage-09.01.18

trapped in a rusty cage

littered

love letters

yellowing

like

fresh black eyes

I pray to Sisyphus

Sisyphus: absurdist messiah 2) condemned eternally to roll a heavy rock up a hill in Hades only to have it roll down again as it reaches the top

you’re just

a story I tell myself

Confucius playing grand assassin's creed

you’re just

a game I can’t win

you’re just proof

nothing matters

You’re  just

a

a rusty cage

31.12.18-year of the crow comes

fireworks

like

small weapons fire

I was

Killed among friends

Died among strangers

dreaming

Brigitte  Bardot’s bedroom

Crow carrying a letter

DANCE

Crow symbol signifies wisdom. According to legends, tribes believed that the Crow had the power to talk The sacred bird of  Ghost Dance was the crow.

we are only ghost

cruel machines

enslave

crow brings

art

love

freedom

going back –different time a different place

to her husband

I am searching

words

incantation

incantation. : a use of spells or verbal charms spoken or sung as a part of a ritual of words designed to effect magic 2) prayer

some  dark magic

to see me

not as

she did

going back

not

as

I am

she heard

a heartbeat

in the

going back

Light a Gauloise

blackout shades

Pour a glass of breakfast

she walks

unreasonably bright  outside

going back

 a priest holds the communion and chants do this in memory of me

close the blinds

scoff a dime bag

going back

6.18-demon
She screams
Letters behind your name
a child holds sign-Jesus saves from hell
Clothes
Languages
Beauty created
Republican Efforts to End DemocracyThis group will not willingly cede its power. nytimes.com

Can't erase
Broken
Damaged
Horror
Demon

Underground parking-07.11.18

walls fade
betwixt
planes
Planes: a level of existence, thought, or development

my beautiful shade
medicine
takes me
to  you
here
Sign reads
Sign: an object, quality, or event whose presence or occurrence indicates the probable presence or occurrence of something else

Underground parking-07.11.18

walls wane

betwixt worlds

You left my  never changing shade

Love you  girl –a prayer

medicine

takes me

to you

here

Sign reads

Underground  parking

infidel-02.11.18(Dia de Los Muertos)

She gets dizzy if she stands up too fast

she don’t believe

in souls

She gets hysterical blindness

she don’t believe

in love

she gets spontaneous  amnesia

she don’t believe

in me

she gets lonely 

she don’t believe 

I am  dissolving

Infidel::  from the Latin infidelis, which means "unfaithful 2) a non-believer 

infidel!

1,000s -29.10.18

woman of a 1,000 sorrows

some

stolen

some

begged

some

borrowed

wear your BPD

Borderline personality disorder is a mental illness

badge honour

go to MBB

Meredith Baxter: Birney is known for her roles on the ABC drama series Family and the NBC sitcom Family Ties 2) lifetime  drama3) fictional online character  

Please take your sorrows

your 1000 grievances

the 1000 times you were wronged

the 1000 grudges

the1000 times

your  husbands frightened you

the 1000 times they wouldn’t touch you

the 1000 times

you were abused

Synagogue massacre defendant in court.

the 1000 men and women who want you

the  1000 tonnes

I carried for you

take your 1000th exit

I have seen 

this movie

a  1000 times