Jill Patron Saint of OD’s and Runaways-29.04.18 

Saint:  saint from whom a person or group claims special protection or prayers.

lighter than heaven

heavier than air

I

carry you

the first shade

innocence lost

Innocence: lack of guile or corruption; purity

first love death

widower at

16

forever one

forever divided

spontaneously

becoming  you

Waiting for the man

realising the ritual

Ritual:  system or collection of religious or other rites. ... a prescribed or established rite, ceremony, proceeding, or service

Until

closer to you

closer to death

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