Ongoing sporadic journal of the overeducated, and underemployed. The title derived from Coupland’s description of cubicle land; the corporate ghetto. Random photos and thoughts. Left the ghetto, never happier. This still a work in progress

16 March 2015

Rumours
It was a time of rumours
No one
Absolutely was 
Sure what lay? 
Beyond 
The 
Known 
World
Bounded
By Washington square
St Mark’s common
Needle Park
And the bowery
Beyond there was 
Wasteland 
A post apocalyptic 
Nightmare 
Even worst than the one we inhabited

                                                              Baptism
Not so much club, as a concrete box where band’s play. Working the door black leather and a switchblade. Covers are not negotiable, nor are the rules.
The band is loud and not a favourite, with the heat. Cops   are everywhere in the car park, which largely composed of gravel and broken glass. Walking through the club to intimidate.
One of the cop’s say’s there’s a red corvette with the top off in the parking lot.
“I know” I answer.
“No one’s bothering it “ The cop continue ‘s.
“I know” I answer
“Why is that?” the cop asks.
“I don’t know” I answer with a smile. It’s my car if you bother it, I will make sure you have a trip to the ER. I ‘m watching the door taking cover agreeing on head count with the promoter getting drinks from bartender; bored.
She walk’s through the door, long black hair stilettos fishnets, and breath taking short skirt.
She asks, “what’s cover?
I don’t answer I throw her against the wall switchblade open, and kiss her. She kisses back and presses against me.
I come up for air, and say “no cover, you’re  one of  us now ; punk!



16.03.15

the way you 

move

those legs

so long

so strong

that

dirty, dirty

blonde hair

just

come over

Viola!

A brand

New

friend

15 March 2015

15.03.15

I get it

Scary things

Are better

At a distance

It’s cool

That

You’re

Not

Out

In bridge and tunnel land

You’re probably edgy

Next 

Next time you’re in the city 

Day tripping

Let’s not do it

again

13 March 2015

HEB Montrose has the most entertainment of all area grocery stores. Last week a little possibly 5ft, tells “me tall –person reach, that for me, no filters-kind of brilliant.
Today a blonde walks by carrying 2 6 packs under each arm. I offer a hand.  “ A woman after me heart, need a hand?”
Thanks’, but I am just headed to express check-out I am good” She answers.
“Marry me?” I counter.
“You would leave me when the beer ran out” She answers.
I say “In my case that’s probably a good thing, when you’re talking about me.”
 She walks over gives me a kiss on the cheek, and goes to checkout

I am guessing that if you don’t get  by absurdist I mean  Ubu Roi Jarry, Caligula, Saprano Eugène Ionesco,  Waiting for Godot Samuel Beckett.  Instead you think I ‘m casting aspirations on your self created drama’s, then you’re never going to get me.  She is younger, but she is not dumber, because you know a lot about one thing in no way mean’s that you’re as smart as you think.

12 March 2015

12.03.15

Love is short 

Memory long

I loved you then 

I love you now

I’m still

Jealous

She was 

Our lover

But 

She chose 

You

Death,  she caressed a, kissed, and held me

But she chose you

11 March 2015

11.03.15
The first time 

Was china white

So good 

So bad

Spontaneous combustion

The heretics of love

Always frantic

Never quiet

People stare

But

Then 

You can’t 

Look away 

From 

The beauty and the beast

10 March 2015

10.03.15

From the cathedral 

Of

Rare earths’ 

and

Sand my friend

Calls 

me in the underground

Promises 
That above the sun still shines

my friend rings off

puts on 

a zucchetto

and 

leads the ritual of 

zeros and ones

09 March 2015

08.03.15
You were impossibly

Young

I was incredibly
Old

You were so naïve, and innocent 


I was faded and jaded


We walked together with my pack


You’re not 
So young, nor illegal any more


I am suddenly not 
Ancient


So we meet again 
Walking and talking
Again


Everything’s changed 
Nothings changed


As I wave goodbye

06 March 2015

07.03.15
Heaven’s always a little closer 
at an art show
drink in hand friends  in arm
drinking it all
in 
heaven closer
and  all
things’
possible

05 March 2015

05.03.15
I know the ring tone
It’s 
My friend calling
From the
Shrine
Of 
One’s and Zero’s 
I have 
Seen the future
And it’s 
murder

04 March 2015

04.03.15
I’ll love until the end of time
Love can you see me too?
Kiss before you go
I just wanted to know
A day of summer in winter
Tomorrow winter returns
I am better in the dark anyway
In my urban armour of black leather
Looking for a fix
You like the danger
mon coquina
fille 
Te’adore mon cœur noir

03 March 2015

03.03.15
Home is
cluster phobic
Lets go to your Place
Home is
always screaming
go to your place
Home is
Sticking in my throat
Let's go your place
Home is
Standing on Me tits
Let's
Go to your place
Home is
Angrily accusing
Let's
Go to your place
Home is
Quietly loathing me
Let's go to your place
Love
Memory must learn 
What the heart always knew
One can never forget
Those
Who remain
Forever 
Ghost

01 March 2015

01.03.15
I miss the ritual 
The snow monkeys
Resume’s that were sketches, chord’s
And scars
Now 
We both have too many 
Initial’s 
Behind our names
The known was bounded by Tompkins Park, St Mark’s commons
You took me to rotaway beach 
Pointed at the lights and said that’s where you’re 
From
Across the ocean 
I just kissed 
Sick days and all the rest
Just noise 
Your kiss always told me everything

28 February 2015

28.02.15
Glam the next day 
A little black dress, 
Stilettos,
And blackout shades’
That match 
Each other as 
We try
Not to burst a flame in the morning light
This place never closes
Holy Bloody Mary's
Sacred talk
Day-trippers stare 
Too much for
Day?
No
But 
You can’t hide beat

27 February 2015

27.02.15
Holy thinking 
Holy drinking
Holy Holy 
As we begin the Holy ritual
Once it begins
It cannot
Stop
Now it begins 
A
Kiss
A touch
No
Words
Laboured breathing
Moans 
Growls screams
The consecration 
Has begun
Holy Holy
Our will 
Be done


25 February 2015

                                                                        Monster

“How long have we known each other? “ I ask.
“Long enough” she answer’s pulling me close pressing against me urgently hands running over me.  Pushing my face into her thick blonde hair, that smells like lavender.
“Did we find what we were looking for?” I ask. I know her well enough know how she seduces this is not it. She does the standard deep kiss, and placing my hand on her breast.
“A drink?” she asks.
“Sure love, why not, “ I answer. OK it’s evening but, and Blair dresses still a little black dress and stiletto’s. She wears it well. We go to a favoured dive. I am guessing her husband, who is not found of us would never be found dead there or, any of her friends.
Nous gagné, ça s'arrose !” I shout in the car park. Bad French is one of the constants of our friendship; so we won let’s drink make sense
Blair answers “"C'est un bon coup!” basically you’re a good fuck.
I love this place Bukowski, or James Joyce would be at home here.
Today martini’s mine gin and wet, and Blair’s’ vodka dry. We talk about everything.
Second round arrives whatever it is it isn’t good. I ask, “Love what do you need from me?” I am asking now, because since I haven’t eaten the gin will have greater effect.
“You’ve always been there for me. I noticed you’re not packing any more. You know heat, your.45 auto?”
I start laughing and say Outta all the Gin joint’s in the world she walks into mine.”
“That’s not funny.” Blair said.
“This very Sam Spade the blonde dame in distress, and oddly enough second time today. I have been asked. “ I said.
  “I need help Brad’s mean.” Blair said pouting biting her lip, that look had gotten someone sent to the ER before.
  “I am not a hero, you know that. I am more Tyler Durden, than knight in shining armour ” I said.
“Did you help her? Is she younger than me? Prettier? More covers?” Blair insisted
You’re prettier, and younger, no I have a very unique skill set, what surprised me is that She knew, How?”
“Women know these things we can smell it I don’t   a hero; I need a Monster.” Blair said staring intently.
“I am not killing anyone for anyone today, and. make no mistake we love. We fancy you; we love you we don’t do that anymore.  I am semi-retired monster. I am not sure what Brad did but do you really want him dead?” I said.
“His name is Erik not dead just really scared. I told him I could call upon the dark rider of the apocalypse that is you if he was mean. Blair said hitting with me baby blue puppy eyes. The effect was calculated, because suddenly I’m 19 and the blonde in the front by the speakers that tall cool drink of water Ford Model is there, and I want her so bad.
“I am not that good, I am just your average Vampyre.” I said
You never said more covers?” Blair said twisting a strand of hair with her fingers.
“”You’re still the champion love, and still dead sexy, and a weapon’s grade body, and I am also sure you’re a little relived I said no. I am chuffed that you still think of me.”
“If someone hurts me?” Blair asked.
“Is that even a bloody question?!” I answer. Flashing on EMT’s taking someone from the club where I was a chucker.
The cop asks you “What happened here?
He tripped I imagine it’s rough by the stage; there’s witnesses, Suzy! Sheena! “I said.
Sheena and Suzie who drive into the city every Friday and Saturday night.
Matching outfits of mini and strategically ripped fishnets and purple hair. In unison they describe a mosh pit gone bad.
“They take Ronan past me he writhes and closes his eyes. Blair runs up throws herself around me. She in her glam girl look. looks at the cop  with her best southern sorority girl accent “My boyfriend called for help carried that boy out here to get some air.”
/the cops leave. I walk over so the booker, and manager can tell me what fuck-up I am. This is sure Blair can now walk through the club wearing a smile and heels and no one will say a word they will politely avert their eyes.
The women at the club hate her, “she’s so obvious, a blonde blue eyed model how is that punk? Why is she even here she’s not one of us!”
In the now she hands you a cigarette in the cat park, as you light it, and inhale you realize there’s coke on the filter so nice.
“”So love what now? “I ask
“What always hap pen’s now” Blair says motioning me to get in her jaguar. I climb in. Blair passes me the derringer loaded with a nice hit of Peruvian flake.
“Is she thinner than, me?” Blair demands
“No love you’re beyond compare. “I answer
“What about Amber, and her big plastic tit’s” Blair insists.
You were on honeymoon! How did you even know?” I answer. She always knew some weird precognition linked to my sex life.
“I am thirsty lets get some gin and a bed” Blair said.
“Why I love you woman,” I said. She pulls into the liquor store we walk in I look at champagne, she walks briskly ahead filling the basket, gin, tonic, limes by the check-out.
In the cat “Give us your panties I say in the car. A Blair smiles give a sexy smile and gives me black lacy I slip them in pocket.
We get to Hotel car park.  Blair hands the valet key puts the bar. Smiles supplies into a Gucci duffle.
We get quickly through the lobby to the front desk Blair check’s us in Mr. & Mrs., it might have been. Walking to the lift’s I casually fondle her. In the lift I slide my hand between her thighs. You know they have camera’s I say lifting her dress then pressing her against the back of the lift I brush her breasts her nipples are hard. The door opens
In front she fumbles the key card as I press against her. The door opens she throws the duffle.in. I pull her by her long blonde hair pin Blair to the wall. Strip her dress off her lacy bra she is standing in heels breathing hard.
“Lets get the ice I say taking her hand, she bends to retrieve her dress I pull her up.




 “Like this?” Blair asks blush coming to her cheeks. She walks to the desk grabs the ice bucket and takes my hand.
“Let’s go” Blair says confidently. We walk down the hall hand in hand. At the “ bikram yoga kick’s you’re body is amazing.” I say.   Wordlessly Blair drops to her knees put the ice bucket down while staring me in the eye pops an ice cube in her mouth runs another across her nipples. Blair takes me in her mouth. Staring me in the eye.  This not sex it is a sacrament, and I am being worshipped. I tap her and say “ room
Bitch” she tucks me into my jeans and picks up the ice bucket, and walks towards the room. I follow admiring her walk noticing she still does Dior turns.
Inside the room I grab her, kiss her roughly and throw her on the bed throw her on the bed. I strip, and fashion my t-shirt into  blindfold . Cover her eyes I take her scarf and tie her hands above her head to the headboard. I stroke her kiss, and nibble. She moans and writhes on the bed.
I spread her legs tasting licking, and nibbling her wet lips caressing the little man in the boat. She shivers and moans turn to screams. I get off the bed, and say “Not yet, Blair. “
“Please, I’ll be good” Blair implores. I get a drink a drink gin rocks amazingly well. I walk back to the bed. Stroking Blair’s hair. I say “I will release you now, you may arrive” untying her. She mounts me. Riding me screaming. then pulls herself off on all fours screaming take me!
 I take her from behind pulling her hair, ass her hips follow me perfectly. Blair arrives in guttural stream of profanity, as I arrive she presses her hip’s against me, then does almost a head stand
“I am ovulating, and I love when we make love.” Blair said in her semi headstand. I am sure what to say so; I make her a Tanqueray and tonic I hand it to her trying to process.
“”I told you I need a monster, and you’re my hero for being that quit worrying I know who you   are, and I love who we are. I don’t want to change a thing.“ Blair said, now lying in bed.
“Cool I said walking to the shower drink in hand. Blair followed
In the hair pulled up held in place by a pen, with hotel logo. Blair said, “If I wanted sweet, and caring. I would have been with a woman.”  We wash each other.  Then dry each other off she retrieve’s workout clothes and make-up from duffle. We dress no need to talk nor, is it uncomfortable.  Music from an electronica station in the background.
Blair break’s the silence I’ll take you    to your car, that was fan fucking tastic!”
“Blair your still the fuck of the millennium” I said.    We sing-a-long to Nirvana she drops leave me at the car park, with an amazing kiss, and we disappear into the real world just like that.


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24 February 2015

23.02.15

No name just a number 
They keep s haunting
Me
They haunting
Me
They keep haunting 
Me
To die without a name
They keep haunting
Me
Faces I can’t forget 
Keep me up all night
They keep haunting 
Me